We all have times of certainty and uncertainty, and most of the time I am uncertain.

Because I’m used to being uncertain about most of the things in life I have learned to love its nature. Being uncertain can take you to different paths and would lead you to discover things that you would unexpectedly love.

Goals, when you’re uncertain, it tends to change from time to time. When you were a child your goals are usually set by your parents and most probably your first ever goal in life is to graduate. As a typical individual I did achieve that goal and some would take a different path. But for me I set to look at it as mine instead of my parents’.

I knew in myself that I want a lot of things in life, and I knew I can do it. There are a lot of things that interests me and I am fond of doing. When I graduated I searched for jobs and see which one could fit my skills. I took a corporate job just to try where it would take me. I set goals wrote it down and took action.

I was also that type of person who write things cause I believed that the more you write it the greater the chance you’ll attract it. I had this notebook with all the goals with timeline… After a year, five to ten. I try to convince myself I’ll be this, I’ll be that blah blah blah. I tried doing what all the motivational and inspirational books told me to do. Trying to convince myself that I am certain about what I really want in life.

But you get to the point that you forget those that you wrote and just do life without any restrictions. Yes, those goals that you have before can restrict you for doing other things in life. Well, they say those who stick to their goal and focus their energy to it have higher chances of being successful. I do agree to that but there are so much wonders in life that it’s hard for me to focus on one shiny end point. I was here, there and everywhere trying out things that are within my reach.

I get used to not being used to. I am never in my comfort which I loved. I am always in the process of learning and at the same time teaching. I knew what I loved and I knew it cause I stay with it even if it makes me suffer in so many aspects.

My uncertainty brought me to discover my love for art. Art is never the same, it is ever changing. I have never got into the point that I was comfortable enough to get bored of it. I am a dancer since I was young and dancing never stops changing, I got to the point that I wanted to explore another form of performing arts I started singing, dancing and acting all at the same time. I am home when I am on stage but you never get to change the fact that you get nervous before stepping on it.

So thanks to my uncertainties, I found those things that I truly love in life and would keep on finding it.

Let’s keep on evolving!