Butch Walker - Don't Move

I did all I can do
And as I'm waiting for those eyes
To say what's on your mind
...We've all got our wars to fight
But I won't fight with you
If I could just get your attention
I'd never let it go
Until you've felt what I am gonna say

Is it my song to you..or your song to me?

CLEVER AS YOU

How did you run away? Why did you end your smiles? Was it something I said Or did I say things wrong? Your heart's now cold

Im counting the miles Til I see your face again Have I hurt you more than I myself can bear

So tell me where to start My sad stride froze..I could have loved you more

But my heart, Im sure, is not as clever as you

Will my heart ever know or care where youve gone, Where you've gone this time

And can I be as proud as regrets now I bear

So tell me where to start I fear to try

I should have loved you more

But my heart, I'm sure is not as clever

Had I known then what you'd do

And cared for what I'd done

Too late I know

So tell me where to start

My sad stride froze

I could have loved you more

But my heart, Im sure, is not as clever as you

Clever as youIs not as clever as you

is it really too late?

I reposted this from an entry in nov2004

"i want to let you in on a secret. i'm not who you think i am. in fact, my disguise is so thin, i'm surprised you haven't seen right through me. i'm the girl of your dreams masquerading as your best friend. sometimes i want to rip off this facade like i did at the spring formal but i can't because you'll get scared and you'll run away again. so i decided that it's better to live with a lie than expose my true feelings. my dad told me there are two types of girls. the ones you grow out of and the ones you grow into. i really hope i'm the latter. i may not be the one you love today, but i'll let you go for now, hoping one day you'll fly back to me because i think you're worth the wait." --> Chloe, Smallville

for some reason, I could relate, even if Im not in the same situation during that Smallville episode.


...I really miss my Superman.
But it's too late now.
He already flew away
..and he's already protecting someone else.
Where are you now? I miss you.

miss you.

lamo ba ikaw lang nagchecheck ng blog na to. hmm.. sana ayos ka naman.

this time i lost my bestest friend

guess this is where it ends. first real love. first real heartache. sorry Tito Emil, i know i promised I'll take care of him, but its just not possible. not when he's happy with someone else. not when he doesn't need me in his life. I wanted it to work out but I guess he gave up. probably that 1-year-and-10months wasn't enough for him to stay.

denial

Even if things are much worse, we dont let the creepy thought sink in.

My first paycheck

decided to treat out Dj and my family. :)

even if I still had a hangover from Julie's party, which was fun by the way!

August 18, 2007

regretspill

I am currently unemployed.
Almost 3 months now if I start from the last day of my finals exam or more than 1 week if I start from the morning after my recognition rites. So, what does it mean to be a bum? It's hardly pleasant for me because I feel confined to just stay at home and it makes more unproductive than being in school and doing nothing.

The decisions made when it comes to accepting job offers and rejecting vacancies I feel uninterested in are quite crucial. I had to tell the company immediately whether or not I would accept their invitation for a job interview. I even had to let go companies whom I've rejected early on when I was first called up or those whom I didn't get to answer even if the image they bring carry a bright future. I had to not feel guilty or be regretful of the decisions I make.

Fortunately enough, there have been invitations to several job offers waiting for me to make the right decision. But what does this right decision entail?

Would that mean being in a company which has a good working environment but low pay or one that pays a suitable amount but has snotty, unpleasant people in it? or do I have to consider if the job position or the company rings nice whenever I tell my friends? Who do I please? My parents, my friends or myself?

This is so f'in hard.

sa ngayon

march 25

today is the kuka's birthday!! happy birthday seatmate!
today was also a death of a friend. +may dj yao continue to rest in peace.+
today is me and my boyfriend's anniv!

ang galing lang, kasi tumagatagal...hahaha iniisip ko nga five months wala na yun..tipong inaasar pa ako ni pat at fonz na isusumbong nila ako kay dj dahil 5months lang daw gusto ko.
gaya nung sa mga kilala ko, march 25 din sila, as in march 25..pero unfortunately, nagiba ang guhit ng panahon para sa kanila..
tas yung isa namang katropa ko, 25 din, pero on off on off..hmmm..at ngayon hindi ko alam kung napundido na ba dahil sa hindi sila makadecide.

salamat sa mga fans namin!! hahaha, siguro sasagutin ni dj ang mga pamasahe niya kapag
nagdyijeep kayo. haha

ehem, cheesy.

Thanks dj for cheering me up.

Sabi mo (mula sa sugarfree),
wag ka nang umiyak, mahaba man ang araw uuwi ka sa yakap ko.
wag mo nang damdamin kung wala ako sa yong tabi, iiwan kong puso ko sa yo. at kung pakiramdam mo'y wala ka nang kakampi, isipin mo ako dahil puso't isip ko'y nasa yong tabi.

..ehem, cheesy.

vision

But I'll live for your dreams,
They're crumbling I won't let them fall
And I'll make you believe
It's real so you won't have to cry anymore.
--wickermoss

thanks taba

Moonstrung Intoxication

to suffocate is to volumize these lights
with a thousand watt thoughts of you
you've shown me
how to turn on this generator
without cutting myself

You hold my energy
so don't let go
I don't want to close my eyes
with green lights telling me
that uniforms are looking
for drunks so goodbye
I'm drinking the love to these
ending nights

Can the sun fall? can we ask for eternity
when will rings keep the moon a tad bit
forever and it lights up your face
so I can see a piece of artwork
in the night

Do you remember when cheaters
and water brought you closer to me
and I will carry the days pillow

--of fate and chance