Shine away

Siren Song of The Dawn

Wednesday, December 22, 21:00

I'm going. But I still wait for you. In case you didn't realize, I care about you more than I care about somebody else. I miss you, I miss you so.

Labels: you

It's Hard to Let Go

Sunday, December 19, 11:24

I'm not typical other type of guy who simply asks for an open relationship and end up just trying for fun to guilt pleasure out of it. You know, I'd rather be the one who put his right leg behind in case you put other people/things as your priority, as long as you are happy with them/it. But when I do know that you are still living in such indecent, unease, and insecurity life, it's hard for me to let go of you.

I don't understand where do you put myself in your situation to. Sometimes, I felt stuck in between. Whether I am just an illusion to you; not being able to be close to you because of we are living in two different atmospheres. I might weak, but I'm strong enough to break those rigid boulder of walls that you put me between with if you let me. But, all in all, honesty and sincerity is the most volatile thing I've ever asked. I don't care, but please do let me know because I had enough. I wonder how people use the phrase "I love you" cheaply that even myself is in doubt to ever use that word again in the near future.

Labels: thoughts, truth, you

Nom Nom Nom Nom

Tuesday, December 14, 01:57

I hope I can say directly how you are really meant to me.

Alkisah Hidup Seorang Student

Sunday, December 12, 01:43

Okay, I admit this post is kinda funny. But whatthefish! Who cares? Just enjoy this daily random mumbling and I'm just plain happy if the readers are enjoyed reading it! And there's a message behind the story it conveys, anyways just keep reading to the end of last bit of my not-so-nonsense :)

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Huh! Jam berdetik pukul 11 di malam sabtu yang hening lagi panas. Aku berada semula di bilik yang menjadi tempat aku berdengkur, mengeluarkan air liur basi dan juga bermacam2 mimpi sehingga aku pon tak tahu apa yang aku mimpi. Okay, first of all, aku bagi pihak lelaki dengan tanpa segan silunya menunjukkan kehidupan aku sehari sebelum berakhirnya cuti mid-term break yang berlangsung pada bulan Disember ini. Aku ni sebenarnya jenis yang malas, tapi terpaksa jugak kemas jugak sebab aku jenis yg tak suka kotoran.

Before

After

Dan part ni pulak aku ni kalau pakai baju, tak suka on-off, maksudnya kalau dah pakai akan terus masuk ke laundry, bukan jenis 2-3bulan pakai baru basuh. Jadi, setiap minggu aku akan bawa stok baju yg setebal 10inci untuk stok satu minggu, dan kadang2 sampai 20inci untuk stok 20 minggu. Ala, baju bundle je, aku bukan kaya sgt pon. Kalau jeans tuh exception sikit la, boleh la agak2 d

alam sebulan baru basuh (sebab jeans berat nak bawak balik rumah) =.=

Dan benda ni lah yang teman aku seharian di kolej ni. Stok makanan dan buku-buku ilmiah. Kadang2 waktu dinner pon sanggup aku tapau makan kat bilik sebab boleh tengok movie, relek, tu pon kalau tade member invite makan luar. Namun aku tau aku harus meminimumkan penggunaan internet yang ternyata sungguh addictive. Study smart la weh.

Dan yang terakhir tetapi tetap penting, binatang peliharaan yang sudi menemaniku di kala ku kesunyian dan jiwa kacau, sanggup mengikat perut selama 5 bulan (mintak maaf, pasni aku bagi kau makan setiap 2 minggu ye), mendengar pekikan ku selalu, Lily. Harap kau masih menerimaku seadanye sebagai kawan dan juga tuan mu yang kejam tapi cuba dengan sedaya upayanya untuk mencari nafkah makan kamu tu.

Never forget this one too Hoy Hoy! (:

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Initially, I begin writing to eliminate unnecessary feelings that flow and circulate around myself, besides to justify myself for a better, nice, memories at the moment and also for the future. I also wanted to show to all people who read this to know that they are not alone, and also there are always solutions to overcome every single problems that they undergone. Just like the earlier sentences that I've wrote, I did mention that I was lazy to clean up, but if we are insisted, we are determined, with God's will, there will be no problem and we will find the right way to solve the problem, even with the greatest one that you can think of.

For the record, we cannot assume that everything happened was all because of other factors; we choose the decision, so we can alternate every single disturbance or at least find the resolution to curb problems from spreading and live for a better life. That's life called, and that problems shows that every people are real and not fake. Just pray, and live the best out of it. Seek help if necessary. Last but not least, Love,Live,Life,Laugh, Lots like there's no tomorrow. Well said.

Labels: determination, hope, will

exhale your breathe

Saturday, February 6, 01:53

Hell, this blog has been ages. Some people do notice with the dissapearance but some don't. And I rather confused myself why I re-activating it back; just to let know that I'm still survive, or heck, I'm still in the mood of publish some nonsense piece of craps just to share with the whole wide world.

If I do write again, maybe-will-not-be the nearest date, I change the layout and all other content in this blog. And fucking yeah, the new chapter of mine will be no more some kind of rubbish feelings and ready in the name of hope and living;

live life, appreciate as it is.

quit

Thursday, November 26, 20:59

Take a deep breathe and don't ever let go of it.

Kau Pergi

, 04:40

My mission aren't started yet, any of them. All the black and white wishlists I wrote during the finals with determination and enthusiasms haven't been reached at all, for now. My days were inevitable without a sleep. Yes, sleep or perhaps hibernate to be more precise. I couldn't stop from laying down on my bed for at least not less than 10 hours or a day sleeper, neither one of it. pfft

Hati kena kental. Baru semua kerja jalan. Okay. I will think about it NOW! seriously. Hm, now I felt restless, and I need to do workup soon maybe. AUSMAT life was over, so live life like there's no tomorrow.

And now, I noticed that skies and the earth was too big to make a tiny comparison. Wow, how life has turned me into 4 diagonal dimensions in the way I was being fully unaware of what happened to my current life right now. haih, stop sigh-ing Ariff. haha

Since then, I know my life isn't similar as yours truly, dear. I tried to admit it and fine, Ill try do it my way.

Big world
Says he wants to see the light for once,
Well maybe if you try

It's so sad
Babe don't look so sad
I've got it wrong today

And if she doesn't go your way
Look up to blue skies and say hey
It's ok it's ok

Labels: wishlist

members dan girlfriend

Sunday, November 22, 15:09

Memorable. I expected as life move on, it gets harder with all those wretched memories and get exposed with all those miserable backstabbers, liars, and hypocrite. And I despise that pretty much.

At the moment I went through INTEC, I didn't expect I've learnt some very precious moment and memories that we went through and yet I'll never forget it. And I had it wrong all the way in the end. It wasn't the things that I expected at the very first moment I enrolled here. I was totally get abrupt-ed and it was such a great loss that the one-and-a-half year has eventually ended here.

The "we" are referred as my friends in INTEC. They all have high manners and I do really respect each and every one of them. Although sometimes their behavior were sometimes could get annoyed and pissed, but in the end you will learn that the values in them will get our bonds get stronger and stronger every single day. I cherished every moment of it.

Sometimes, I even trying myself very hard squeezing my brain out from its box of why these people were doing this and that; attract and grab attention from each other and often making out a very dis-stressful drama in front of me and the others. For some certain extent, I believed that it is a very important element to get their heart closer and lastly become the best besties even I thought 1 1/2 years was not a elongated period of time.

And they have finally changes my perceptions towards some people that I know. And one of it was;

friends over girlfriends.

After all, when you put all your efforts for her, you'll only gain pain in the end. And I never expected that life were turning me to this way. yeah, I've learnt a lot. And hope I had any. And thanks for those who involved in my life in making it more colourful, tempting, exhilarating, fun and joyful. I hope this was not the last gathering and we could meet again someday in the future :)

INTEC PEOPLE
Easy, Faris, Tur, Khaidir, Mery, Liyana, Dayang, Alia, Ali, Farah, Dila, Faus, Ram, Rahmat, Imran, Ecah, Wani, Seri, and Me myself.

Mr Kesh, Pn Rar, Pn Ju, Mr Lokman, Pn Fara, CMLY1,CMSP, all SPHYs, all TECHs
and all people in INTEC.
A simple thanks for everything.

Labels: farewell

2012, apa signifikasi?

Wednesday, November 18, 14:21

1. Dunia nak kiamat.

2. Harta benda tidak bernilai.

3. Taubat sebelum terlambat.

Itulah nasib bumi. Walaupun hanya di adaptasikan, namun pada hakikatnya, hari kiamat memang benar-benar akan berlaku dan termaktub dalam rukun iman yang ke-5 (Beriman kepada Hari Kiamat). Sesiapa yang masih berpegang pada agama, aku sarankan buanglah atau kurangkanlah sedikit demi sedikit sikap-sikap buruk yang ada dekat diri itu dan banyakkanlah dekat kepada Tuhan. Aku cakap ni bukan untuk menunjuk-nunjuk, tetapi juga untuk peringatan kepada diriku sendiri juga.

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Nak bagi hadis sikit. Baru bermakna post entry ni.

ade seorang nenek ni yang cucunya baru meninggal beberapa hari lepas. Kemudian, beliau pergi berjumpa dengan seorang nabi lalu bertanyakan kepada nabi tersebut,

"Kenapa cucu aku meninggal terlalu awal?". Lalu dijawab oleh nabi tersebut,

"berapakah umur cucu nenek sekarang?".

"10 ribu tahun" (data mungkin berlainan sikit).

Maka dijawab oleh nabi tersebut, "akan ada umat pada akhir zaman di mana umur mereka akan hanya berada dalam lingkungan 60-70 tahun sahaja".

Maka nenek yang berumur 70 ribu tahun tadi terjenak berfikir seketika dan terdiam lalu dia berkata,

"kalau lah aku yang berada pada akhir zaman itu, akan aku penuhkan masa aku untuk beribadah sahaja". Ini fakta yang benar kesahihannya.

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persoalan :

Kita bagaimana pula?

Apa persiapan kita untuk berjumpa dengan-Nya?

Hanya sekadar soalan 5 waktu seharian?

Dan apa yang akan berlaku sekiranya esok merupakan hari terakhir kita berada di dunia ini?

sudahkah kita bertaubat atas kesalahan kita yang lepas?

renung-renungkanlah.

final sudah habis. sekarang tunggu result.

Oh ya, selamat berjaya aku ucapakan kepada

adik aku, Hafiz dalam peperiksaan SPM.

buat betul-betul, itu masa depan kau.

Labels: holiday

Zirafah Aku Riang Akhirnya

Monday, November 16, 22:50

kerbau pendek! aku kebosanan. Cepat habis!!! less than 24 hours left. Gogo!

poket aku kering dah. huhu

i just knew how to knot a tie. LAME!

actually I want my wife to knot a tie for me. har har har

Labels: time

stairway

Saturday, November 14, 21:17

Dugaan dan cabaran yang datang dalam hidup adalah lumrah manusia. Dugaan dan cabaran datang dalam pelbagai jenis bentuk, senang, gembira, tenang, kaya, miskin, susah, sakit, sedih, pilu dan sebagainya. Kita sebagai hambanya perlu lah menerima seadanya semua halangan dan rintangan dalam hidup kita sebagai umatnya. Malah, tuhan tidak akan sesekali menguji hambanya yang betul-betul tidak dapat menangani dugaan tersebut;

He doesn't burden us with things that we can't bear (2:286)

Oleh itu, setiap manusia perlu sentiasa bersiap sedia dengan pelbagai kemungkinan supaya di masa depan kemudian tidak terlintas walau sedikit pun kekesalan yang tidak dapat ditangani dan ambil lah iktibar dalam segala perbuatan yang kita lakukan;

Verily with every difficulty, there is relief (6:94)

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Paper Akaun lambat betul. Aku tak sabar menunggu.

Aktiviti banyak di-postponed kan kerana ini. pfft

sekadar selingan, gambar ini menarik.

Labels: accounts

brain drain

Friday, November 13, 11:42

happy annivesary to myself :)

chasing you

Thursday, November 12, 13:31

is a very important number. Why?

because

1 more paper to go, and everything's changed.

Praying hard for it.

ANU, hopefully.

1 people whom I wait,

and still as time passes by.

1 more day to go, and 2years has passed.

13.11

Labels: exam

tentang kita

Wednesday, November 11, 00:23

Sifu aku lepas SSABSA nanti.Dengar CHORUS, best.
Banyak benda yang nak di taip tapi tak tercapai. Sesungguhnya, masa tak mengenal tunggu. Hampeh sungguh. Aku nak cerita apa aku buat hari ini.
Bermula dengan agenda pagi pukul 7, bermula kertas peperiksaan econs selama tiga jam di sebuah great hall yang sejuk membeku. Aku siap pakai 3 lapis baju maintain temperature badan aku. Peh, terkencing nak jawab gara-gara tahan dari awal exam. Alhamdulillah soalan lancar.
Sesudahnya exam, pulang ke hostel kerana katil memanggil nama aku. Peh, time balik tu ade pula sebijik kete carik pasal. Nasib baik tak accident, pastu minah mane ntah bising2, poyo pula. Sabar je iman dalam hati nih. Pompuan, tak payah nak cakaplah.
Agenda diteruskan dengan misi untuk mengemas bilik untuk menjadi bilik TERBERSIH, namun cita-cita tersebut hanyalah menjadi omong-omongan kosong apabila tiada seorang pon yang meneruskan hajat tersebut. Pengisian masa tersebut diganti dengan tido yang lena hingga ke petang.
Sesudahnya puas air liur meleleh di serata tempat atas katil, tersergam indah sebuah peta dunia rekaanku yang sangat cantik. Aku terus teringat akan untuk pergi ke BB plaza cari attire untuk malam dinner yang dikatakan 'grand' itu.
Puas aku memujuk easy kerinting untuk ikut sekali, namun ada sahaja alasannya. Terpaksalah jua aku keseorangan pergi ke sana. Nasib tak baik menimpa di mana hujan lebat di campur dengan jam yang tak best membuatkan aku terkesima melihat situasi berkenaan. Perjalanan aku menjadi bertambah lama hingga mengambil hampir maghrib untuk kesana.
Oleh kerana kedekut bayar duit untuk parking, aku parking di tempat yang ala-ala style jockey yang berisiko tinggi untuk di-clamp. Aku terus masuk ke shopping dan membeli sebuah coat yang boleh kata mahal. Baru aku sedar bahawa hajat aku untuk memiliki coat sejak kecil dahulu sudah tercapai.huhu
Alhamdulillah, kete aku tidak apa-apa. Aku terus keluar dan lari dari tempat berkenaan. Banyak kete aku potong time aku balik sebab nak cepat dan saja-saja. Hujan masih belum berhenti dan jalanraya masih licin, namun aku sedar bahawa bila-bila masa saja Allah boleh tarik nyawa aku. Suatu insiden dimana aku hampir hilang control kete aku tadi namun Alhamdulillah, syukur aku masih dapat mengatasinya.
Aku baru ingat bahawa kawan aku baru-baru ini accident sebab ikut dekat kete depan dan langgar bila buat emergency break. Astagha, kerosakan cecah ribu-ribu, harap-haraplah insurans cover balik. Aku perlu sedar pasal neh, sebab aku ni lalai. Lepas ni, akan aku cuba untuk drive safe.
Aku pulang ke cemara dengan selamat. Aku harap sesape yang alami ape yang aku alami, amiklah iktibar dan jangan menyesal sesudah perkara itu berlaku.
hikmah: Mungkin disebalik kejadian berlaku petanda dan hikmah. Pada hari ini aku dengan tunduk kepada-Nya bahawa berjaya capai 5solat wajib sehari semalam yang sebenarnya agak sukar untuk aku tunaikan. Munafiknya aku, astaghfirullah. Mungkin itu yang membuatkan aku terlepas daripada azab seksaan-Nya di dunia. Ya Allah, tolonglah hambamu ini ke jalan yang diredhai dan diberkati oleh-Mu. Amin.
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Aku ade baca artikel yang mengatakan tentang Perayaan Hari Dewasa (Coming-of-age Day). Perayaan ini diadakan di seluruh Jepun untuk sesiapa yang berumur 20 tahun pada tahun akademik itu (bermula pada bulan april). Ia menandakan bahawa mereka telah dewasa dan digalakkan untuk berdikari. So, untuk sesiapa yang belum tumbuh bulu tu, sila-silalah bersiap-sedia. Jangan harapkan bawah ketiak mak-bapak je sebab mereka juga ada life mereka sendiri.

Labels: accident

Are you Australian? or perhaps Brazilian?

Friday, October 30, 14:18

How a person can make a big difference.

I believe as if it is written in my dictionary in that sense.

Thank you, someone.

I felt so much relieved.

I've never been so this torn. I appreciate that.

Labels: appreciation

My eyes burn

Monday, October 26, 17:12

In pain in agony,

Hit me now, I'm vulnerable.

till the very last.

Friday, October 23, 03:17

You wouldn't know I'm running towards you,

You wouldn't notice I'm bleeding from the inside,

You wouldn't care when I'm calling for you,

and you wouldn't forget how you treat me this way.

But somewhere, somehow I wouldn't know

why I let myself from falling for you,

again, and again.

for millions of times.

The prank's plan was absolutely awesome.

Our batch were the first's.

I bet everyone's enjoying their moments.

Deeparaya + last day of class.

time is our friend, our enemy.

(damn!)

Labels: ending