What the hell was i thinking?
Last night while out with my mother and her friend to celebrate his birthday i excused myself from the table and went into the bathroom. I cut. Higher than normal, as shes been asking to see how my leg has been healing. She wont notice. No one will. I felt better afterwards. Not because of the cuts, they didnt hurt nearly enough. I felt better because i made a call to someone i have been trying to shut out of my life and she helped me. I went to bed with a smile for the first time in a long while. I will not cut today.
