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Thursday, April 10th, 2003
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15:45PM - Someday I'll be Saturday night...
I'm gonna snap... I just know it...
current mood:  depressed (fuck the hell out of me)
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15:07PM - No there's no one home in my house of pain
I discovered a few things lately.
1. Even though I see how tough it is for Jim and Jenelle right now, I would trade my situation for his 24 hours a day 7 days a week. He has Jenelle and Dante there all the time. I eat alone, watch tv alone, sleep alone, drink coffee alone... you get the idea.
2. I'm dreading the next family gathering because I'll be the only one there without a significant other.
3. If I got back with Donnelle, I'd piss-off everyone else , but I'd be happy.
4. My job sucks. Oh wait, I already knew that. My bad.
5. Everything I love is killing me.
current mood: depressed (fuck the hell out of me)
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15:03PM - I take too many pills... it helps to ease the pain
I've decided my life is like playing solitare with a fucking card missing. Except, I can bever figure out which card it is. You know how sometimes a card you need is stuck face down somewhere and you can't get to it? Well, I think that's the problem so I play again. Except then, the card I thought was missing shows up and another card isn't there. Sometimes it's the Queen of Hearts missing. Sometimes the Ace of Diamonds. But there's always one card separating me from winning. I hate my life right now. How can I get a new one?
current mood: depressed (fuck the hell out of me)
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