The Day I Chose My Future Self While Choosing My Clothes — 2026/4/21 (Tue) R8

Kanon
April 21, 2026 15:57

Even though my body felt tired and I wanted to lie down, I began tidying up today.
The first thing I worked on was my medicine.

I separated the pills I must take every day from the ones I keep on hand, and counted them.
I may not be able to visit a hospital for a while, so I started by putting my daily foundation in order.

Next came the clothes.
My husband told me to “pack them into boxes,” and I tried to sort them into spring, summer, autumn, and winter, but it turned out to be strangely difficult.
Many of them could belong to any season, and in the end, I felt unsure how to divide them.

Then I realized something.
This was not about sorting by seasons.
It was about sorting by whether they still fit the person I will be from now on.

Clothes I had not worn for a long time.
Clothes I probably will not wear again.
And yet, clothes I had once happily chosen.

Sixty-seven years of time seemed to be woven into the fabric.

Even as I hesitated, small spaces began to appear in the closet.
I did not try to do too much at once. Today was my second “big round.”
I will look through everything once more tomorrow, in time for Wednesday’s garbage collection.

What remained were comfortable shirts, T-shirts, and pants.
And two dresses that I simply could not let go of.

A winter dress with a floral pattern.
A slightly subdued dress with polka dots.

They feel less like clothes and more like something that gently restores my spirit.

I also hesitated over a suit.
But then I realized: I no longer wish for a way of working that requires me to wear a suit.

I do not want to go out at night.
I do not want to force myself into a way of living that no longer suits me.

So I decided to leave it behind.

As I chose my medicine, chose my clothes,
and remembered small items like hangers and nail clippers, checking each one carefully,

I felt that today,
I was not simply reducing my belongings,
but quietly choosing the shape of the person I will be from now on.

Time for a short rest.
This is more than enough for today.

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