[Fic] When Will I Touch Your Heart Again
Author:
dayofcaligula Ratings/Warnings: K+
Pairing/Character(s): Kosuke Ueki x Ai Mori
Fandom: The Law of Ueki
Disclaimer: I don't own The Law of Ueki or any of its characters, obviously.
Summary: I've been waiting for him ever since he went away to save those precious memories and life as I constantly evolve around his magic. That was what's left of me.
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“Come back to me no matter what.”
I’ve been waiting for him. Ever since he went away again to save those precious memories and life. It’s been a year and I’m already in my second year of college and he’s been missing his first. I’ve been pondering. Pondering over the things we had experienced and shared together and on how I evolved completely alive and of knowing around his magic. He will never change with all the way those principles remain along with his very spirit that I could feel. I may not be like this outside as I’m constantly hiding all the pains of longing, but I do think a lot and I’m certain that this would end to a long-enduring or even an everlasting happiness, with him, in his life.
It’s a rainy spring; the weather is very quiet today. A touch of refreshing dew depicts both sadness and full blossoms. I’m to follow my usual weekend routine that I find more worthwhile than going anywhere somewhere. He left me his keys in his little place, now that he tried living independently from his father and sister when he was still here. I’m to maintain its lively and neat case, the way he should feel when he comes back. Anytime, he will be coming. I’m always ready holding on to a vow we’ve made so dear – he was never able to answer verbally having and leaving me only with a sign of ‘yes’ in a smile as he left faraway, the loneliest day of my life. I do planting in the park oftentimes as well. I smile at this habits that I seem to get used to already and all it makes me to do such is he and only he. The calm opening of spring as all of the seasons phase fast forward. Still, owning this moment, the presence of this setting eases my paranoia. Keeping it fine makes an impression of homecoming. This loving possessions of memories I have with him, every little thing he does is magic.
He already went away before and came back safe and sound, but I still wish I could’ve been with him in his sufferings like I used to be in his early battles, but I must protect myself for him while he sacrifices in this final battle as it might appear. What we have in between us is something crucial. He’s been too noble and reckless for the sake of kindness and I’ve been too loud and shallow over the events in which he always used to do what irritates me the most. Now it is what makes me breathe. I learned. Everything he does has a wonderful grace and it didn’t take me too long to have realized what my heart really feels. I love him. I’ve loved him ever since the day of my origin of knowing him. I wholeheartedly accepted this with all my willpower to hold on. Now, it’s been almost a year, a year of waiting without any hesitations.
I’ve stepped through different walks of life already and I can’t help but wonder on how he lives his way of life while fighting. It may be too absurd to tell if no one had ever expressed their affections on me, but I’ve always been wondering, completely involved to his inner views, magnified and cherished, long enough to have not realized the track of time. Absolutely capable of sensing the little planets I’ve created with other people, my connection will always find its way to aim what it instinctively needs; to gently feel him and breath him, to be with him.
Sometimes, I unconsciously feel afraid, a feeling in which I am never really capable of taking away from this reality. He will come back, but what if this is not the end of this kind of journey and he has a world in which I do not belong. He’s a celestial being and I’m a mere human. I’ve known it from his family and it didn’t made up two thoughts to accept this fate that a battles might end, but another might endure and a struggle to find a setting in perpetuity begin. Even so, fear is the heart of love and I’ll go wherever he may reside as l can, no matter what it takes me, as long as I can touch his soul. He is still my very strength.
I’m waiting. For a year of a ground without him beside me, I continue to remain strong and have his life-giving virtues deep in me in all welcoming. I never lose hope, having made up a calendar to our countdown to the days of perseverance; I filled it with my totality and humanity. I’m still facing the hopeful bright sun.
I’m done tidying his things, his whole personality in this little setting. Being a youthful lady makes me smile emptily on how I was able to survive until a sudden click of his very door spiraled my whole being.
I sensed everything in front of me in a strike of a beautiful surprise.
He came back with a smile so frail yet filled with an undoubtedly bliss. He seemed so certain of what he is doing and of what he is about to do like a man; now a man. I couldn’t move.
“I’m home, Ai,” still with the gentlest smile on his face. A sign of maturity, the eternity we desired for.
Tears started coming out of my eyes. I’m crying; I can’t stop it. I unconsciously run towards him and hugged him the way I really wanted it, so tight so that he wouldn’t let go anymore. He didn’t say a thing, but when I felt his hands land on my back, I could sense that he smiled even more as if he was not surprised to have found me inside.
“I’m sorry that this took me a while.”
He looked at me, now grinning just the way he is. I still can’t stop crying. I finally spoke:
“You know… even though I’m to forget everything… I knew I am and always will be bound to fall in love with you.”
I professed my love that we’ve both been feeling for the first time. He laughed lovingly.
“Okay then, let’s settle this, from now on I will never let go of you since I already know to myself that I would never do that. Just be mine forever and you are not to go away ever, we’ll be together. Now, would that –!“
I kissed him. We kissed innocently as long as it ever lasted. I was so happy I couldn’t explain it, such a tender bliss. It stopped time and made everything ceaseless in existence.
“I guess I’ve always loved you ever since, Ai…”
Still smiling, his eyes abruptly grew weak of fatigue and he started to fall on me, his whole body leaning on me. Unable to carry his manly weight, we both fall. He’s asleep.
“Welcome home, Kosuke.”
The delicate emotions I can’t explain. In a day of spring, he came back. A brand new eternity in life rains in a sweet sound of love.
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