~If wellness is this what in hells name is sickness? ~

_latex_love_ @ 2010-04-18T18:22:00

2010-04-19T01:22:55Z

COMEON BITCH MAKE A COMMENT
MAKE A PATHETIC LIEING BULLSHIT COMMENT
DO IT PUSSY
TRY ME THIS TIME FUCKER

_latex_love_ @ 2010-04-14T22:24:00

2010-04-15T05:24:48Z

i refuse to take anymore crap from anyone. hmph.

_latex_love_ @ 2010-04-14T15:25:00

2010-04-14T22:25:35Z

in other news im almost all packed! super excited! tmmrw is sushi and happy hour with some friends. friday dinner with friends. sat london needs a hurr cut and to go to the vet. and i need to go to target and shop till i drop.

_latex_love_ @ 2010-04-12T14:30:00

2010-04-12T21:30:13Z

yayayayayay im moving on the 25th and i couldnt be happier. a bigger room. pool. a nice big yard for london to play in. whooOT. and ill be with megums. double WhoOOoT. no more canyon land for meEEe XDDD

time to go pack! and dance!

_latex_love_ @ 2010-02-03T18:20:00

2010-02-04T02:20:22Z

today was a good day. woke up. went to the store. got some groceries for the house and a v day card for <3. came home and took london for a nice walk. cleaned the kitchen. read my book. did some laundry. play wow. drank some sake with my mom. and now im about to cook us dinner. we're way better off without him taking up space.

douchebag mother fucker.

2010-02-03T15:27:31Z

im fucking serious. stop leaving fucking anonymous comments without your name

2 the douche thats been posting annonymous comments for the past weeks

2010-01-27T22:00:50Z

First of all not only were your comments bullshit and not even true. You're a fucking douche bag bitch for not leaving your name. Mind your own goddamn business and stop trying to lie about things that are quite frankly none of your business either. I hope you made yourself feel really good with your lies and rude comments! xD At least I know Ill never be THAT pathetic.

_latex_love_ @ 2010-01-27T11:28:00

2010-01-27T19:28:48Z

i feel WAY better today. i need to basically spend the day calling around looking for a workers comp lawyer. and ill probably play WoW later. i left the house for a little yesterday to go get lunch with luke but i was SO ANXIOUS. hopefully after i start the celexa w/ everything else tmmrw itll calm down. that and i really need to work on leaving the house more. its hard because of whats been going on but i can do it.

_latex_love_ @ 2010-01-25T19:57:00

2010-01-26T03:57:18Z

why cant just one good fucking thing happen to me right now?!?!?!!?!?

just one thing

and i would feel so much better

and id probably be able to stop crying for more than an hour at a time

_latex_love_ @ 2010-01-25T09:42:00

2010-01-25T17:42:10Z

i seriously cant stop crying. its horrible. ive taken my wellbutrin my ativan everything and nothing is stopping it. alkdjaklsjdlkasjdlkajdlkajdlkajldkjaslkdj. hate my life.

like water off a ducks back

2010-01-25T02:34:56Z

you know i really dont care about what anyone says about the person i used to be because thats exactly it i USED to be like that. now im on medication and i see a psychologist and am working through my issues and i know im better now. and thats all that really matters.

=)

today was okay. me and london went for a nice walk this morning. i came home and read more of my book. took a nap with london. read some more. and now im on the phone w/ the ratA

_latex_love_ @ 2010-01-24T08:08:00

2010-01-24T16:08:19Z

what do people do this early in the morning?!

_latex_love_ @ 2010-01-23T20:02:00

2010-01-24T04:02:47Z

i am SO bored. and my back hurts from this stupid chair ive been sitting in for the last 12 hours. i think 12 hours of WoW is enough for tonite. but now im bored. bah!

_latex_love_ @ 2010-01-23T14:33:00

2010-01-23T22:33:29Z

yay my hunter just hit lvl 66 XDDDD

god im such a nerd XD

_latex_love_ @ 2010-01-23T09:30:00

2010-01-23T17:30:11Z

zomgz. i FINALLY slept good for the first time in months XD yayayay
even though it was only for 6 hours it was a good 6 hours
=)
wellbutrin.dishes.laundry.WoW.<3. =)

and today i really need to not eat so much. i was out of control yesterday. a medium pizza throughout the course of the day. wasabi almonds. a giant bowl of 7 sea soup. half a bag of chips. and like 15 cookies.

omg how did i eat that much ><

today is a raw day! to make up for it..

XD

so happy i could die.

2010-01-23T09:17:01Z

for serious.

speechless.

2010-01-22T21:10:44Z

its really weird smiling when you really have nothing to smile about.

i really should find something to do...

2010-01-22T18:02:45Z

before i go crazy sitting here thinking all damn day. aksdjaksdjalksdjalskdj.

Je veux ton amour
Et je veux ta ravanche
Je veux ton amour

_latex_love_ @ 2010-01-22T09:07:00

2010-01-22T17:07:50Z

And I know that it’s complicated
But I’m a loser in love
So baby raise a glass to mend
All the broken hearts
Of all my wrecked up friends

I’ll never talk again
Oh boy you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless so speechless

I’ll never love again,
Oh friend you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

_latex_love_ @ 2010-01-22T08:53:00

2010-01-22T16:53:18Z

my stomach hurts sooo bad right now =(
and its raining like crazy again so i cant go for a walk with london =/

and brandon isnt answering his phone. even after i sent him a this is not a drill rata call me asap msg

fuck me >

2010-01-22T16:34:12Z

okay so.... i woke up looked at my caller id because i thought brandon called last nite while i was finally trying to sleep. and. its not brandon... and im so stressed right now with losing my job. and akdjaklsdjakldsjakjdklajdlkjasdlkjakldj. 1!!!!!
=(
no wonder i was having weird dreams last nite
and i couldnt see the caller id since i dont have contacts right now...
and akdjakldjakldjlakjdalkjdklajdklasdjalksdjakldj

i think i need to take london for a walk and get some air
since it stopped raining for a little

i hope my wellbutrin kicks in soon =(

_latex_love_ @ 2010-01-21T19:58:00

2010-01-22T03:58:07Z

its official im getting a lawyer and sueing CVS for wrongful termination and a bunch of other stuff. i dont want to see anyone deal with what i dealt with while working there ever again.

today was okay. i had to deal with social security which is kinda stressful. i only had 2 panic attacks today so far. thats better than 6 a day. sean came over and hung out for awhile. i took london for a walk and played some dragon age: origins. and now im drinking wine with my mom and watching greys anatomy.

through all the tears and all the lies

2010-01-21T20:11:42Z

oh wellbutrin why are you making me smile and laugh randomly like a crazy?! its amazingly crazy outside right now. i love the rain. i guess thats been making me smile all week. drinks tonite. im finally leaving my house for the first time in weeks...hopefully that works out well. i only plan to be out for a few hours since my meds are making me feel so weird.

I can't believe how you slurred at me
With your half-wired broken jaw
You popped my heart seams
All of my bubble dreams, bubble dreams

I can't believe how you looked at me
With your Johnnie Walker eyes
He's gonna get you and after he's through
There's gonna be no love left to rye

And I know that it's complicated
But I'm a loser in love so baby
Raise a glass to mend
All the broken hearts
Of all my wrecked up friends

I'll never talk again
Oh boy you've left me speechless
You've left me speechless so speechless

And I'll never love again,
Oh friend you've left me speechless
You've left me speechless, so speechless

MARK MY WORDS I WILL BE SOMETHING SOMEDAY

2010-01-17T04:51:58Z

We yell, "Speak up!"
I fill these pages like
I fill those spaces with my lies

We yell, "Step down"
A crowd's not worth this
And love's not worthless
You've got to step up, stranger

Might paint something I might want to hang here someday
Might write something I want to say to you someday
Might do something I'd be proud of someday
Mark my words, I might be something someday

We yell, "right on"
A class act president
You are my boss
I am competent in your eyes

They yell, "Move up!"
Don't stand back here and wait
Like an animal at a farmer's gate
Am I food or am I free?

So speak up
This is your last chance, my friend
Roll the windows down and take me in

Reach out
Say what you're really about
Are you coming here or not?
Are you coming out?
[ Tegan and Sara Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]

Might paint something I might want to hang here someday
Might write something I want to say to you someday
Might do something I'd be proud of someday
Mark my words, I might be something someday

Might paint something I might want to hang here someday
Might write something I want to say to you someday
Might do something I'd be proud of someday
Mark my words, I might be something someday

I don't want to know that you don't want me
I don't want to know what you do without me
I don't want to know what I'll be without you
I don't want to know, I don't want to know

I don't want to know that you don't want me
I don't want to know what you do without me
I don't want to know what I'll be without you
I don't want to know, I don't want to know

Might paint something I might want to hang here someday
Might write something I want to say to you someday
Might do something I'd be proud of someday
Mark my words, I might be something someday

Might paint something I might want to hang here someday
Might write something I want to say to you someday
Might do something I'd be proud of someday
Mark my words, I might be something someday

_latex_love_ @ 2010-01-16T17:43:00

2010-01-17T01:44:00Z

i feel so horrible. i havent left my bed in like a week. seriously. this needs to stop soon.
=(

*~*If wellness is this what in hells name is sickness? *~*