Allright. I know its stupid.
deep down in the bit of my brain that is still sensible, I know its the dumbest thing I could do, but christ, I can't help it.

Its getting ridiculous, I feel safe and warm and happy...all the time. Its not right. Its bizzare, and foreign, I like it, but I don't like that I like it.

Blah, its crazy. I know