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i made a new icon with my face 'cause im lame and i miss my pink hair.

Yesterday I went to the Vans Warped tour yes.

Now Im fuckin' tired because it's been 2 nights I didnt sleep well. anyway.

I think I had Hell of a great time.  So yes, for the first time of my life, I saw some bands I like live, especially GC!

I was really happy, beeing close to the stage. I think I had to toss a bit violently there and there some teenies, but what the heck.

I have about 40 pictures of them *squee* - so yes, here's some of them. The pictures are more clear in real life. I think my scanner really suxx.

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I took other pictures - but I wont post them all.

I had the time of my life. I bought lots of stuff. Meep. I should send a piccie of me someday. anyway. I went there with my best friend. Now she's sleeping lol ~

I want to see them again.   ... ...

Next year Madden, I'll hump you 2.

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yesterday was my birthday - Im now 21 w00t!
legal & proud everywhere baby!
i have pretty gifties and all.
but one of the coolest is in 2 days geez - the Vans Tour baby the Vans! my mommy bought 2 tickets for me yes.
and now im gonna dye my hair in pink oh yes I so luv to change colors. i think im feeling better now.
at least i try to.
so go for pink!
*kisses*

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weeh!!
I just got inked again! *again yes*
It's like, it's been about 4 years I had my first one (a li'l parrot)... And I promised to myself that it'll be the only one.
Now I got about 4. x.x
This thing is addictive. Seriously. I have a bunch of colored stars on my left side (hips+belly). I like them so much! It hurt like sh!t though now.
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My parents are gonna kill me! My parents are gonna kill me!
yes~

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why are you playing with my feeligns why why why why
why why Lord why
tell me what i did to have this - i've been a bad girl?
i thought i was nice to everyone. what i did to get this.
what i did to get that much pain. im scared of life as well as death.
i dont know what to do im fucked up. i dont feel good. i dont feel.
fuck fuck fuck
when i'll get better? tell me Lord please
i dont know if i still believe
in what to believe anyway. each days its getting harder for me.
no one understand. no one.
why . please. i dont know what to do.
im thinking about death. im scared.
fuck im scared.

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i never write in this. but now i feel that i just need to. there's no one that could seem to understand how i feel.
i dont care if someone read or not. i would be flattered though if i could hear some answers. or something. on what? i dont know.

i met a guy - past 2 days. i already saw him before, but we talked much and all on that day. he's great. super. pretty looking. smelling good. nice. intelligent. have something to say everytime. single. unique and have a strong head - and knows how to deal with life. it's the first time in my life that i feel that much dizzy and excited close to a guy. it's the first time i have this feeling, you know, the stomach going really weird, eating almost nothing. im 20. soon 21. (!)

we exchanged numbers and all. i just called him today. he was kind of busy, yes he has lots of things to do. and to say. i asked him what he'll be doing in next weekend, because i told him that i want to see him back again. he said that he'll be probably be busy and all. though, he told me that he'll probably call me tomorrow, when i'll be back from work. it's easy to say "i'll call you". but i have a feeling that he wont.

and i cried. tears. tears. i dont know him that much. but i know that i would be really nice and good with him.

how come love is so easy for some people? why love, or futur love, or anything, hurt me that much? why the word love mean beeing great, and for me, it seem to mean pain?

how come love or attraction is supposed to make people feel great? i see some couple so happy. some girls dating, and it's going good for them. and me, im there, nervous, just waiting for his call, knowing that he probably wont call back.

maybe im scared for a nothing. maybe my heart is torned for something.
he's so special. he's so something.

and im here. alone. waiting for, i dont know. to be hurted. again.

im tired.

all alone.

Lord. help.

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can I know why some stupid LJ users are getting an account just to have a "cool" nick and then get off this?
Isnt LJ supposed to be a little bit "protected" with serial-password and such?
Where this bunch of idiots came from anyway..

Is there a way to get banned on this- I would like to be a moderator and kick some @ss off- it could be so interesting-

Now I remember saying that this guy was plain ugly the first time I ever saw him, and now me and a friend weasley_keeper  are almost fighting over each others, wanting to know to who he belongs. Since she loves the Gryffin-thingie- should he belongs to me- anyway, its only a character, but sometime I feel better after some good arguments over her.

I didnt knew Flintie could be that sexy/kyute when drunk.

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Im sure no one is reading this and I think that I really dont care. At least, for now. I made good online-friends on DA, and I really dunno where the Hell they are on LJ. It's been about 6 weeks I've left DA. I thought I was going to draw since then. I didnt do a thing. Just beeing lazy. Isnt it good?
Not at all. I feel like.. dead. A dead walker or something (death eater- mouwhaha)~ I want more inspirations.

A friend (who's sometime my friend) of my friend (im lost) is so f/cking boring. She makes me wanna be boring myself.
Oh whee~
I can now understand the meaning of the song "bring me up to life".