cruelty, meaninglessness and manipulation

ok, so here's a by non means exhaustive list:

ALL m. lackey excpet the last five years (all herald's, most of the gryphon, all the bards, most of her non-herlads and fanstasy rewirtes

tanya huff ALL
jennifer roberson ALL
terry goodkind ALL
jennifer crusie all
some mccaffery
lewis carrol
misc cultural fairy tales
gibson
herriot


nacny a collins dhmapire graphic novel
some hellblazer graphics
hc exquisite corpse, hc lost souls, popy z brite
peyote and other psychoactive cacti
some shadowrun books
some poisen elves comics
some squee and jthm comics
mama lola (good voodoo book)
moon magic (good wicca book)

sandman dream hunters HC MINT
amano hc le roi de la lune hc MINT

some chaos magic books

some orchid books
indian books
pressed fairy book
goblin book
good faeries bad faeries

i'm having a garage sale tomorrow, and sellingoff 90% of my books. if you have ANY requests for a rare/oop/hard to find paperback in horror, sci fi or fantasy let me know. i have graphic novels too.

i have EVERYTHING!

yesterday we went to a birthday party. i made the mistake of eating cake, and letting boo eat cake. he screamed from about 630pm- 1 or 2 am. i feel asleep to be quite honest. i don't know if he did or not. we woke up at 8am this morning. ARGH.

and what does this teach me? NO TREATS! SUGAR IS EVIL! i can't eat it no matter what!

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so, mom and j are both not home today, it's nice to know she's not squatting like a troll in her room.

i'm jonesing to go visting again, so i may try to plan a just boo and me visit before august to cali. anywhere else is too expensive. it's nuts!

i decided that boo should nap at noon, the last few days i've tried to get to do it. it hadn't worked until today. it took about 40 minutes, and he went down! woo! you just have to keep patient. and not get mad!

i'm about to go look online for houses for rent.

i haven't had a shower since the heat was turned off. i tried to take one after my car in the mud fiasco,buti learned something. in southern california, when you take a cold shower, it's cold. but bearable. when you take a cold shower in northern arizona the water is sold cold it hurts. as soon as it hit my head i started convulsing. i had to wash my hair as fast as lightening, or i think i would have gotten hypthothermia. i've been taking whore's baths (armpits and crotch) but i can't take this anymore! i can take a shower sunday morning, and so can boo. boois so dirty. we're going over to aughraseye's son's bday party.

my boobs feel funny.

Hell yeah.
You scored 73 bookishness and 66 kinkiness!
You love books, you're down with the kink...you'd almost definitely have sex in the library. Find a partner, find a good spot...and go for it.

The Sex In The Library Test
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1. You've gone rather hippie on us all, what prompted this? :o)
i had ppd pretty bad, and was afraid to take meds for it. j was seeing a doctor at the time who suggested to the both of us that we try to cut out preservatives and take flaxseed oil. it kinda grew from there. i feel so healthy it's addictive. and man, organic just tastes better.


2. You've mentioned before that you'd like to have another baby, and I'm wondering if sometimes you think about the population explosion and the world resources and ever feel guilty? (I do sometimes and it's probably the reason why I'll end up limiting myself to the two kiddos I already have, except having children is kind of addictive!).
i do feel guilty. buti also understand natural selection. j and i were talkign about this yesterday and i belive that cancer is the "plague" that will thin out the gene pool. so in short - having babies is rather irresponsible, but if good people don't have them and raise them right, where will the good, kind, healthy people come from? i do want to someday adopt and do foster care as well.

3. Do you like married life? What are some of the positives/negatives, so far in your experience?
i like being married because i'm codependant, and i would worry about j leavignme otherwise. :P i like the solidness of it. the safety. but being bisexual, it's hard for me to limit myself to one person.

4. What has been the most challenging experience for you? Would you go back and change anything about the way you handled the situation (or the way you might be currently handling it, if it's something you're dealing with now)?
i'm so happy with my life rigth now, changing anything would change my life too much. my mistakes got me where i am today. besides, i'm all about Chaos. wishing things were different is no conductive to my life philosophy.


5. You seem to be somewhat spiritual (not in the traditional sense of the word, though). What's your view of religion in general?
organized religon is dangerous and creepy. i believe in Archetypes, and Spirits. i also belive in reincarnation, the collective unconcious and Fate.
by archetypes i mean things like Coyote, Raven, The Fool, The devil, Fate (the wheel of fortune), etc. i was wiccan once upon a time, but it's not chaotic or mean enough. there ARE forces that like to fuck with you.

1) Total number of films I own on DVD/video:
not very many.. like 10 dvd's and maybe 4 vhs's.

2) The last film I bought:
twin peaks pilot

3) The last film I watched:
army of darknes on mothers day "hail to the king, baby."

4) Five fave films; or ones that I watch a lot or that mean a lot to me {in no order}:
1. freeway
2. hackers
3. labrynith
4. french kiss
5. midsummer nights dream (stanley tucci)

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