I got to stay home from school yesterday. Mom was actually cool enough for once, to let me skip school. She called me in sick so that I'd be excused. It was nice to sleep in and play video games all day long. Then I went to my 3:30 apointment at Dermal Addiction(tattoo and piercing parlor) to get my tattoo touched up. Jon and Jen sat and watched me and Carolyn get em' done, and they were planning on getting their tounges pierced but Perry, the piercer wasn't there until 5 o' clock. So they went back later to get em' done. Around 9:00 they came to my house to show me, and I gave them words of wisdom on the healing process of tounge rings. Earlier yesterday, we went to Lavender and Lace which is an adult store, and looked at this like 15 inch dong that probably weights as much as my head!lol! We looked at naked guy-playing cards, vibrators, cock rings, the whole deal... It was too much fun! I died my hair black the other night, mom says it looks better than the pink I had in it before... I like it too. Well, bell just rang so I'm going to begin class-work! Luv Gavin !

It has been sprinkling rain all morning, and it isn't like a warm rain either, it's one of those cold sopping wet rains. I hate that. I woke up shivering under my covers, looked over at the Hamsters cage, the two cuddled next to each other, under their bed of mulch. I felt bad, I made them cold because I forgot to close my windows at night. In case any of you were wondering what happened with my bf, I'd rather not say anything more than it's over... It's a long story. Talked to Miles last night, and reconsidered moving to LA with him at the end of the school year. Still kinda Iffy on that one. I don't want to be in school today, I'd rather be covered in warm blankets by my fireplace, asleep. That sounds much too good. Well, not much more to say for today except that Im going to change my layout, I hope y'all like my new one!

Last night I hung around, in a garage wile the boys worked on their car. I got to take a spin in Alicia's new car. Oh god what a piece of junk! She needs to call west coast customs so they can pimp he ride or something.lol. At least she has a car though, I have nothing but my own two feet. Which isn't always bad, at least im not an obese fatty either. Carolyn finally came over and got her new pet fromr my house yesterday wile me and my mom watched BBM. Mom liked the movie, but she is right, it does kind of drag on. My sinus's are burning like a bitch, I thought sleeping with my windows open would help a little, clearing up my sinus's, but now they burn and I have to sneeze every 5 seconds! *sighs* I am still tired, I'm glad this is only a 4 day week, and I only have today and tomarrow left of school. Miles tried calling me last night, we got into a fight sort of thing the other night and I didn't want him to call me anymore. I guess he wanted to explain himself or something, but I didn't want to talk to him, and I was watching a movie anyway, so I told him I couldn't talk. Oh well, he's a bitch and life will be better without him bugging me 24/7 !!! Well, That's all for today...

Luvs Gavin

It's been a wile since I have updated my journal. I can't help it though, the school computers have been down. But I have a lot to tell you. So, my friends Tom and Courtney broke up this week, b/c Courtney walked in on Tom and this Barbie look-alike bitch about to have sex. So Courtney is living with her Grandma until I get a job. Then we are going to get an apartment together here in Freeport. Don't worry, this doesn't mean that I won't be updating b/c I'm bringing my computer to our apartment and hooking it up to the net. For some, the fact that I'm not moving to LA is a good thing. Others are just happy that I'm not going to live with Miles. He is a jack ass though. I'm going to go and apply for a job everywhere in town today, and someone better call me back. I died my hair! it's reddish pink now, kinda fun. I went to hot-topic this weekend with Carolyn and Michelle and bought some bright green eye-shadow. I got some wierd looks when wearing it yesterday. I woke up tired as hell this morning, and almost fell asleep 5 times in the shower. I haven't heard from Jon in a while, hmmm... I wonder when he'll call. Probably never, he's too busy with his girl now. J/K Jon, you know I love ya'. (Don't worry, not in a sexual aspect either.) Well, Not much more to say today so... Good-bye!
Luvs Gavin

I hate complaining on my journal entry's but guess what? It's my fucking journal and I'll wine all the fuck I want to, if you don't like it, then don't read my entry! I'm just upset lately, I was supposed to go on a blind/double-date this weekend but my plans fell through the floor. It really upsets me though b/c I'm really sick of being lonely. I know what all of your reply's will probably say..."Don't go looking for love, just be patient, " and I know already ok? It's just that I've been patient for so long since I was with Steven that I've grown very sick of being patient. I'm restless and it really upsets me. I bought Broke-Back-Mountain yesterday and found out that I need new friends. They all said typically the same thing, "gay cowboys? Cowboys aren't supposed to be gay!" It's like this, the movie is much more than just two cow-boys fucking the whole time, sure there are a couple of hot and juicy scenes, but god damn, it's not about being gay! It's about having a love that you know could never work. It's almost like me and Andrew, we live too far apart, and have grown so far apart. I don't really want to date him anymore, sorry Andrew, but you haven't called me so I haven't been able to tell you this... I may not want to be patient in finding love again, but I'm sure it'll come... I feel really bad about Miles, I havent called him since he told me he may have aids... I hope he doesn't think the aids is why! I still wanna move in with him, but not fuck him! Well, enough of my drama for today, I'm out ~Luvs, Gavin~

So I'm back in school for spring break, Oh joy right?!? I got a tattoo over the break so that is a good thing.(Thanks Carolyn~*smooch*) I did a lot of walking over to my friend Ronnie, Tom, and Courtney's house which is where I remember the least of my break. *erm, no comment* I went shopping in Rockford like 3 mutha fuckin' times. (It was fun tho~ *Hugs Whitney, Danielle, and Alicia*) Humph, but I dunno this years spring break just kind of sucked, ya' know after a while it just isn't special anymore... Enough with my ranting...

This stupid pre-teen mexican who is in my first hour is in the library right now, just asked her dumb MExican friend if she wanted to go out for breakfast. What a dumb cunt, she knows she can't miss 1st hour one more time or she'll get kicked out. What a lame mutha fucka.

Well, I really dont have much more to say than ~FLAMING RED DONKEY DICKS WITH PICKEL JUICE!~ (randomness) and I luv you all's!
~Gavin~

Yippie! Last day b/fore spring break! I'm oober happy today. Though I have to do 2 art projects in school(which is going to suck to rush...) the day will still go by slow as hell b/c I can't wait to get out... I'm thinking about making a Xanga account, I dunno it will definately be a goal for another day though. I'm hungry now and have a pit in my stomach b/c I was running late this morning, I had to gather about 50 million things before school. Hmmm... Well I probably won't update much at all this next week, HEY! I'm getting my Tattoo on tuesday!!!! Isn't that the greatest?!? I'm getting it of the two guy symbols, (you know, the circles with arrows commin' out of it?!?) and they are going to be 3d and pirple, and interlocked! I'm sooooooo excited! Carolyn is lending me like 60 bucks, which I feel terrible about but I take it she's getting sick of me complaining about wanting it done so bad.(I love you Carolyn!) Just like my belly-button, this will be kept secret from my mom... It's going to hurt like a bitch over my spine, or as im told. (Michelle I love you!) Andrew wants me to ask him out, I dunno I never ask ppl out, I'm too nervouse about that shit... Not that I don't know he'll say yes, it's just that it's a big step... hmmmm... So im going bowling tonight, should be fun. But wish I could spend 2-nite with Andrew. (I love you Andrew!) *a tear runs down my face.* But yes you may all add andrew if you would like... I'm sure he'd enjoy that! Well, I haveta go to class, TE AMO 2 you all!!!

Luvs Always~
~Gavin~

So Andrew called me last night and his friend doesn't want to come pick me up on Friday. So no show for me. There is a show here on Friday but umm, I don't think I want to go because this stupid band that I hate called espionage is playing there, which equals Preps, which equals hate crimes, which equals me in a squad car. So I don't think I'll be going to that show. I'll prolly go bowling, which doesn't sound terrible anymore, I was kind of hoping to hell though that I could see Andrew. By the way, his Lj name is "reddishblue" you should go to his Lj and check em' out. I'm going to get all of my friends' email-addresses today. So when I move I can still keep in touch with them. I'm either moving to LA with Miles, or I'm going to move to Dixon and wait for Andrew to turn 18. I may even stay here in Freeport for a while. I feel like helping a friend this week, but I don't know who needs help. This sounds terrible i'm sure but I want to do is help Michelle clean her house sometime this weekend. It's not terribly messy, but I know she needs the help, and I'm sure she'd enjoy a clean apartment! Well, I think that's all I'll type for today.
I Luv you Carolyn
I Luv you Michelle
I Luv you Andrew
I Luv you Miles

TE~AMO 2 you all
~Gavin~

HOY!!! I have been sick for the past 3 days, so sorry I haven't updated but I was sleeping since Sunday. I feel better now though. So My Ex (Andrew) decided to call me a couple of days ago... I hadn't talked to him in a while. He told me that there is a concert on Friday and he wanted to know if I wanted to go. I said "sure." But I'm not too sure I don't want to pull out of it now. My friend Kate wanted me to go bowling on Friday. I know, I know, a concert is way funner than any Moon-light bowling experiance, but I haven't hung out with Kate in ages, and I feel bad. So now I don't know what to do. Ultimately I'm going to miss Kate more than my ex, when I move in 2 and a half months, but I just dont know what to do.

I lay in my bed for the last 3 days hoping someone would call me and ask me how I'm doing, but no-one did. I had to call others in order for them to talk to me. How lame, when I'm bored, they don't call. When I'm busy, all they do is call...Humph, I just can't keep up! I do admit though that Michelle called me yesterday, and Carolyn has been there for me to complain to, so my friends aren't all rejects! lol, I love you Caroyln and Michelle! *Glares at Michelle, "You said it was Friday!!!"* lol

Well, though I haven't updated in three days I unfortunately stayed in bed most of the time and have nothing to really say, im sure I'll have more for you tomarrow!
~Luvs~Gavin Scott Hart...

My stomach aches, I have like 20 minutes left to survive this school day until I get to go home, smoke a cigarette, and enjoy a relaxing weekend. Hoepfully, anyway... Today actually started getting nice outside and I hope that the rest of this weekend we have as nice of weather as today. Bowling was boring today, my highest score was a wapping 98 points. (I really Suck!) Arleana is supposed to call me sometime tonight and hopefully we will be able to hang out, maybe go to the mall or something. I dunno, I just want to have fun this weekend, and throw my troubles of this week out the window. I won't be able to update this weekend, just like every other weekend, I won't be on a computer to update, so I guess I'll see you all monday... ~Luvs~Gavin~