Hematuria

Assalamualaikum.

I'm on medical leave for 2 days.

Reason? Sebab suka tahan kencing.

No joke. It has become a habit that I always delay 'that' business.

Until Wednesday, I felt pain while urinating in the morning. A throbbing pain but not too severe.

By noon - it got worse. But I was too busy to dwell in the pain anyway.

But I noticed that I frequently went to the toilet. Like, few times in an hour. Now that is odd.

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I got home that evening and just lied on the bed, shortly after, husband came home and found me in pain. I told him that it's painful 'down there'. He urged me to go to the clinic but I said maybe it was just symptoms of PMS.

I went to pee again, and found blood in my urine.

Husband got panic and dramatic, immediately had me dressed up and dragged me to the clinic.

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According to the doctor, hematuria is not normal but is common among women as compared to men.

One of the reason is because we women tend to refrain from urinating especially when the toilet condition is...... you know..

So it cause the bladder to get infected, which then cause the bleeding. Other reasons are hygiene.

IT CAN GET WORSE if the infection spread to your kidney (Na'udzubillah).

But Alhamdulillah, since mine was only infection to the bladder, I got antibiotic and urine alkaline to neutralise my urine.

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So, don't tahan kencing for your health's sake. I swear it' so painful that I pray no one have to undergo the same pain as I did.

Take care, people!

See, even Batman can get hematuria!

Rezeki

Rezeki tu Allah yang bagi. Aku ada suami ni rezeki. Allah yang bagi. Ada kerja, rezeki, pun Allah yang bagi. Sihat badan, ada selera makan, gemok badan, semua Allah yang bagi.

BAGI PINJAM.

Alhamdulillah.

Zuriat pun Allah yang bagi. Itu rezeki untuk setiap pasangan yang dah kawin.

Biasa la, orang, asal jumpa newlyweds mesti tanya "Dah ada apa-apa ke?" sambil pegang perut. Tak tahu yang tersembul tu lemak hasil dari perkongsian jugak. Perkongsian makanan aku dan suami. Sebabnya feveret kitorang pi makan. Makan makan makan. Nanti la baru pi exercise.

Aku cuba malas nak rasa offended dengan soalan-soalan sedemikian rupa dalam pelbagai gaya.

Biarkan je.

Sebab aku pun dulu before kawin kekadang tanya gak soalan cenggitu kat orang, ye tak?

Kita concern tapi kekadang tak sensitive. Lupa yang itu semua kerja Allah. Tapi jangan la ober sensitive sangat sampai kau emo benci orang yang tanya tu sampai taknak cakap ngan dia unfriend dia bagai. Rileks ok.

Semua kerja Allah. Nak bagi, tak bagi, banyak, sikit, lambat, cepat, SEMUA dah tertulis. Bukan tulis kat whiteboard office kau atau kat fridge rumah kau. Tak, Kak Nah. Tak camtu.

Tertulis di luh mahfuz sana. Kau nampak? Tak. Aku pun tak nampak. Bukan sebab kita rabun tak pakai spekmata.

Jiran sebelah rumah, nenek kampung sebelah, semua tak nampak, tak tahu. Jadi kau tau la siapa yang tahu kan? Tu, Dia yang satu tu.

Kita doa. Memang la kita doa. Dan usaha. Tu part kita boleh buat, buat la. Yang lain tu bukan jurisdiction kita, githeww.

Insha Allah. Kalau ada rezeki, ada la. Siapa taknak, suatu ciptaan Allah yang comel tembam macam Shin Chan (sebagai perumpamaan) keluar secara amazingnya dari perut?

Aku nak la. Nak sangat. =')

Dengan izin Allah, suatu hari nanti.

Eusuff and I

Without pain, without sacrifice, we would have nothing.

True enough.

In less than a month, Insha Allah, things will change.

Allah has led me here, through a bumpy journey, through several awful yet exciting roller-coaster rides, through sorrow and joy, through everything. Not saying that I have went through everything, but almost.

Almost..

A journey which is not an easy ride, makes us appreciate life, and the One who gave us life.

The Almighty has always has His own plans, directly, mysteriously, all sorts. One minute you know "Ahhh, ok I get it, what God is trying to show me" and another minute you will end up crying, hoping you're being shed some lights though it's not the end of the tunnel yet.

But that's life.

That's God's way to tell you - No matter what, turn to me.

My fight, my bumpy journeys, my stories, none could ever fathom.

But God is never cruel. In the midst of the hiccups in life I was having, he sent someone to constantly remind me the power of positivity.

It was pain I was swallowing. And the same pain someone's willing to swallow too. God is fair, and will always be.

I don't have everything  in this world. I still have nothing. But Alhamdulillah, praises be only to Ar-Rahman, He let me have something in this life. He let me be with someone in this brief life, Insha Allah.

And to have someone for you to be with, Insha Allah, for the rest of your life and in Jannah, there's a price to pay.

Pain, that is.

So, be patient with turbulence and calamities in life. For God is always with those who are patient.

 

  “O you who have believed, seek help through patience and prayer. Indeed, Allah is with the patient.” (Qur'an, 2:153)

Wallahu'alam.