Chad back to work: Day 1

S-T-R-U-G-G-L-E.

Maybe I should have dragged this out a little.

Why did I have kids again??

To make food for them they don't eat? -no

To wipe their messy faces, hands, and bums? -no again

To cuddle with them on the pillow pets they got for Christmas? -close

To watch them chase each other down a tunnel? -closer

To feel my daughter reach a comforting arm around my shoulders and say, "Don't cry momma."

-I think I remember now.

Busy

Can't stop now.

Busy.

Trying to remember what made my life so cool.

Too busy.

We'll have to catch up later.

Still Christmas

We are doing without a lot of Christmas activities we usually do. But it still smells like Christmas in our house.

We have had to change a few of the decorations. They were located just right so our 1-yr-old could grab them. I don't even know how many candy-canes fell victim to her cute little pudgy hands :)

So there are some things that had to give. But we still have the most important thing this year. Each other.

Changing Perspectives

Well this is the new sight I see more often than I like. Especially when I had 50 different fun things on my to-do list for when Chad finally took his vacation time.

(View from my seat to the table in the kitchen. One of my favorite things in the world was listening to my little girls eat. Strange? Maybe. True? Yes.)

Chad does so much around the house. I am so grateful for his ability to step in. In all honesty, though, it is a little relieving to see him struggle with it, too :) This is what I did everyday. And I loved it.




That was the most difficult part about this whole ordeal. Missing what I did everyday. While I was in the hospital, I couldn't turn on the TV at breakfast time or dinner time for of fear of seeing the shows my little girls love (curious george and the cat in the hat) and then becoming emotional.


I was emotional once and it did nothing good for my lungs (which were under enough stress from the pulmonary embuli). So to make life easier for myself, my lungs, and my nurses, I just left it off.

I love my family.

Dear Nurse

Dear Nurse who tried to call me out on my belief in the afterlife while I was in the hospital,

Maybe you need a new profession if you can't remember this advice. When you're the one lying in the hospital bed, you are allowed to tell all you want that you think you are about to enter the unknown oblivion that you may or may not believe in. But until you are the one in the hospital bed facing a possible stroke/heart attack/seisure, you really shouldn't be calling people out on their beliefs of the afterlife.

I'm just sayin' is all.

Unexpected

I just wanted to let you know what's going on. Last Wednesday night my lower left back pain became so severe that I couldn't walk. I made an appointment to see a Dr the next day and was admitted straight into the hospital for a DVT, more commonly known as blood clots. Things went smoothly and I was released the next day.

Tuesday morning I woke again with slight shooting pain when I breathed. So back to the ER we went. Which brings us to today. I have one more day to be here before they release me. The pain I was having was from two pulmonary embuli that were lodged in the outter layers of my lungs. They are really small and the Dr said that my lungs are so large that it really isn't a big concern.

SO. This is why I haven't blogged lately (though I have three new posts in my head!). Everything is fine. We are doing great. And they have me on morphine. All I can say about that drug is, I have NO idea why people get addicted to that drug. I HATE it! But it takes the pain away. And so I am okay. And my daughters are loving playing with cousins and grandma and grandpa every day. So all is well. But it was just not the week I had planned. We will keep you posted :)

It Must Be Love When . . .

. . . He buys you your favorite corny chick-flick on DVD for your bday and then watches it with you.

And then allows his parents to buy you your favorite Disney Princess movie on DVD. And watches it with you :)

That's true love.

Eye Candy

A sight I love to see.

My girls watching cartoons together.

(Honestly, this is how I get breakfast made in the morning!)

"Remember-When" Wednesday

Remember when tots had this mean scowl?

But then, she also had this cute little scrunch, too!