Prayer

We got to talk to Haylee again on her pday! Love those moments. Never enough!!! Lex was ready for bed so she wanted to have prayer .... We had family prayer with my Haylee!!!! Oh I love and miss my girl!!!

My Heart is Headed to OHIO

I have no words.

Weekend

Keeping busy!!! Between gos hunting a d rain and Kaylyn homework we are keeping busy!!! Missing my Haylee every second in between. I paid lex a dollar to run to the fence in a downpour. She is always up for a challenge. And I LOVED having g the married kids come home! 

Week 2

What a LONG week without my Haylee!!! I miss her so much!!!! My head is a mess! I can't stop crying! I snuggle up in her blanket every chance I can! I got to message her a little and a 2m video call for a practice invitation on Saturday, and I have waited all week for  an email and video call today!!! I miss her spirit!!!! 

Kyles 2023 Elk

 After getting home late and crying ourselves to sleep... he got up EARLY and hit a tree stand before dark.... being he missed OPENING DAY.  And less than 15 minutes he got this guy for our freezer.

Broken heart

My heart is breaking. I can't walk into the house without something screaming I MISS HAYLEE!!!!! I'm sure there will be so many more .... and although they make my heartbreak, they are tender mercies of her presence here. I love her more than she will ever know. What an amazing woman she is!!!

I have to admit that I have been SO SPOILED!  I have had her to myself all summer. I have loved all those moments with her! ALL OF THEM! She has been my rock, my friend, my person. 

I prayed how much I was going to miss her on Sunday, and I said to myself - its OK, He can have her for 18 months! And in my head, I heard loud and clear "No, no, no....I let YOU have her for 19 years..." ... Game Over. 

I got one single message from her! IT MADE MY HEART SOAR! I was so relieved to hear from her!!!

MTC PROVO welcomes Sister Jacobson

Nothing could prepare me for this day. I wanted to hold her forever. I wanted to just hold her hand and touch her knee the entire ride there. We picked up Kaylyn on our way by Pocatello. We were together one last time for 4 hours.... that's all I had left. We got to Provo took a few pics and got some hugs at the church across the way. And then the clock told us it was time. We drove to the MTC and we were able to help her with her luggage and get a bonus hug! Then she was whisked away. And I left my heart in that parking garage. I sobbed the whole way home. We got home late and walked into the most empty quiet house. And I haven't stopped crying since. THIS GIRL IS MY WHOLE WORLD!