Sad and Depressing

Since being in the hospital and being on the medication Prednisone, I've gained all the weight back. It's very depressing. But I have high hopes that once I get off the medicine I will shrink back down.. but mean while, it really sucks to look in the mirror and be seen in public. I feel fat. I don't feel pretty. I look in the mirror and I don't see me. I see someone I've always dreaded to be and tried to never become. The medicine also makes me break out in zits.. So not only do I feel ugly from looking fat but I also feel ugly from my pizza face. I normally have very clear skin. I don't want to go out in public. I am depressed about my looks right now. I hate it.

Above pic: Before the meds (just weeks before)

Below pic: While on the meds (just a week and a half ago)

Since I've Been Sick...

... I've lost more weight. I'm down to 151.8 now. Just a couple pounds more until I am at a healthy weight! That's exciting to think about. I just gotta keep it up. This sounds strange but I am going to do weight loss hypnosis... I'll let you know how it goes.

Here we go again

I need to get back into the swing of things. I haven't worked out since Gracie has been born. Well we went on a walk last week in the heat so that works. Anyway, here I go again!!

Have you lost more weight?

I've been getting that question a lot lately but I haven't worked out for a while so I'm scared to weigh myself. But lots of people say it looks like I have lost weight. I sure hope so! Maybe one of these days I will get the guts up to weigh myself.

5K

So... Saturday May 9th was the 5k for Breast Cancer. It was at the Gateway. I didn't do GREAT cause I'm so outta shape and my hips were hurting me for some reason... anyway. I did the 5k in 41 mins... My sister did it in 28 mins and my mom in 39... boo me right? Well at least I did it. I'd do more. It was fun and fulfilling.

I'm a Slacker

I've been SOOOO busy lately I haven't been very good with working out. But I have a 5k on Saturday- uh, we'll see how well I can do.

I have to get back in gear. I feel soooo much better when I work out. When I don't, I feel bloated and puffy :( NO GOOD

Baggy Pants

YAY My pants are too big for me. I even bought a new pair of pants about a month ago and they are too big.. My cute skirt that I haven't fit into in about a year and a half fits me now. I'm sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy!!! I'm shrinking and I'm excited!

Frightening

I just had a sick scary feeling- and that is: I DON'T WANT TO GET FAT!

Just a lil more

I've lost .4 more lbs.. that's good. half a pound. So I've lost 12 and a half pounds. Tada! The end

Losing More Weight!

I felt like I had lost weight and so I weighed myself and sure enough, I'm down to 152.8 now. That's 1.4 pounds less than last time I weighed myself. My BMI is 25.3 ish. So my total weight loss is 12 pounds in 13 weeks--

My Fat Must Really Love Me-

-Beacuse it doesn't want to leave me

BLAH!

I have a bulging belly. I don't have rolls or a "muffin top" but I have a large "gumdrop" belly. It BUGS me. I've never had a "flat" stomach. I've always had a little "bagel" around my belly button. But now it's large- and super annoying.

I also have "saddle bags" when the H are those going to go away!!??!!

That's not a pic of me but you get the idea..

Beware of Weightloss Scams

I try to look for the easy way out of loosing weight. I even fell for a scam- I didn't get ripped off, thankfully. But it was fake none-the-less. I got the "free trial" of Acai Berry and Colon Cleanse pills so I could lose weight faster (this was many months ago). I tried the pills for a little bit and I saw NO results- I'm guessing the pills are fake- nothing in them but maybe sugar or something. But I felt desperate so I wanted to try it. The woman's "blog" seemed legitimate at the time. There were comments on it and everything.

http://www.beckysdiet.com/?t202id=81801&t202kw=234x60_1_clickfix

So today I came across the same blog and it said in January she had used the pills and lost weight- but I got the pills MANY months before that and it said she had lost the weight then. Her name is Becky Edwards... so I Googled her. I clicked on a link with her name on it and it was a different looking blog with the same picture as the other.

http://cgtechnosoft.in/sites/wordpress/

So they were saying it was the same girl but her name was Becky Adam this time. I went back to the Google results and clicked on a link just above it and it was a site listing all the scam weight loss websites- 224 found so far.

http://www.weightlossweapons.com/blog/weight-loss-scam-sites/

The most OBVIOUS scam site I found was this:

http://www.kellysweightlossblog.com/

In the before and after pics she is in the same dress (different color) same background, same flowers and same position. Now if I would have seen this site the first time I probably wouldn't have fallen for it.

YEP call me silly but I was deperate to lose weight and I wanted an easy way out so it seemed ok to me.

toO LaRgE

I bought a few shirts- the ones I bought that are size L are too L for me. I got one that is an M and it's just right. YAY I was pushin an XL so I'm very happy to be back to size M. .... Now if I could only go down in my pant size- that has stayed the same.

BAAH!

I can't run worth crap. I don't know how I'm going to do the 5ks. My ankles and calves get tight and I hurt so badly. AH!

Yay! Finally-

I've lost weight-- I've only lost about 1/2 a lb since January- until now. I weigh 154.2 now! That's great! I'm finally starting to lose again. So I think I've lost 1.5 ish lbs since I last posted about losing more weight.-- Which I think was about the end of January.

I do Pilates

Run 3 miles per day -well try to run- still training

I eat 6 small meals a day- at least try my best too.

I have a Slimfast shake every morning- but I might change it to morning and noon- to see more results.

I'm so happy to see I've lost more weight! I'm down 10.6 lbs!

Slim-Fast is my Friend

I've tried a lot of things- when I say things I mean weight-loss pills- but the only weightloss suppliment that works for me is Slim-Fast. I TOTALLY know Slim-Fast has a lot of sugar BUT the formula works for me.-- and it helps with my sugar cravings- so I'm going to implement it into my diet. It tastes great and it really really does help me lose weight. I LOVE IT! The directions say to mix with 8 oz of skim milk to make the meal 200 calories- but I do 4 oz of skim milk and 4 oz of water to make it 155 calories. It still tastes great to me. I wonder if someone else tried it that way if they would like it??... Well I have a high tolorence for bland and low fat/no fat foods- I actually love them. I love whole grains!! Oh!! I even found this bread that has 45 calories per slice. I normally go with 100% whole wheat but I thought I'd work on cutting calories and a slice of 100% whole wheat bread is about 120 calories per slice. I am eating every 2 hours- each thing I eat is low calories. Anywho- this is what I'm doing now.

It's me.

It's hard to take a pic of myself but I did the best I could. Here is an updated pic of me and my weightloss. I'm scared to weigh myself :/

Frustrated

I really don't know how to lose more weight. I wanna be thin! I wanna look HOT!

I don't know what to do besides what I'm already doing. I feel like I'm working hard but it's just not good enough!

Kickin my Trash

I did the treadmill today. I am training to run the 5k. I pushed myself sooo hard. I wanted to give up so many times but I made myself do it as long as I could and as hard as I could. I still have a ways to go. This might not sounds like much- but to me it's pretty good since I'm out of shape- well, my goal for the May 5k is to finish in 30 mins or less. Blah! A 5k is 3.107 miles. Today I did nearly 2.5 miles in 35 mins. Oye! I CAN DO IT!! I just gotta push myself every day.
I'm scared to weigh myself :o( I PIGGED out over the Valentine's weekend. Shame on me! But I've been better since yesterday. Eating well makes me feel well. And working out makes me feel even better.

5k- Comin my way!

I am going to run at least 2 5ks this year. I know its not a marathon or anything but it'll make me feel good none-the-less. The first one is May 2nd and it benefits Primary Children's Medical Center. I've recruited lots of family to do it with me. YAY I'm so excited. Then the next one I do will maybe be June 13th in Provo-- OR July 25th in Sunset. If you'd like to do any of them with me please let me know but I can't find much info on the Sunset one. I've started to train now. I'm outta shape! But it'll be ok. I'll get there. I'll be able to do it soon enough.

GiDdY uP!

Last night I visited my parents and we ate dinner and made valentine cookies- uh I mean tofukies (notreally)

Any who. My dad says - Are you losing weight? You look great.

Then later my mudda says - You're getting so skinny

YAY That makes me feel good. I love hearing that people notice. It means I really am making progress! I wish I woulda measured my inches because I feel I've lost inches. SO I had back fat before-- not any more! HOORAY! And my face, it ain't a bit rolly like it used to be. I feel like I look like I did (in my waist and face) 20 lbs ago! Maybe even beter!! Yippee skippee!

I weighed myself on Saturday and I had gained 2 lbs (I blame AF). But I weighed myself today and I lost 2 and a half pounds. So I am at 155.2 lbs. Down .4 lbs from last week- thank goodness. AF really bummed me out last week so I'm so happy to be down even that much. But this week I will do great and I will lose more! You'll see!

GOING DOWN

We're all women.. right?

This may be too much information but I'm so frightened to weigh myself today. I was given a gift this week:

And SHE Makes me feel like:

So needless to say- not a good time to weigh myself- I did weigh myself, but like I said, not a good time. So take that as~ I seemingly didn't lose any weight because of my dear auntie this week. There you have it- don't be weirded out.

Just checking in- Still working hard

Well I've been getting even more "wow you've lost weight" comments. So that's a great sign HA! I've been working out daily and eating pretty dang well and so it's been paying off. I will weigh myself on Saturday- my usual weigh in day.

Get down with your bad self!

DoWn 1.2 more pounds. I forgot to weigh myself before I ate breakfast so I'd feel comfortable in saying I've lost about 2 pounds. SOO I've lost 10 pounds total so far- give or take a few ounces :o) Go me! Go me! Go me!

Whoopie!!

I got my first "wow you've lost weight" comment last night. Mine and Blake's friend Brandon (Jen's Husband) said those exact words. And Jen agreed with him. It made me feel so good. Then I weighed myself this morning, I have lost an additional pound. And my BMI had gone down .1 points. I love seeing my BMI go down. Only 1.1 points to go and I won't be overweight :o) Which is 6-7 pounds. And 2 more pounds and I'll have lost 10 pounds! So I'm down 8 pounds since the beginning of my goal!

Perhaps a change of goal - more realistic

Just ignore the clown nose :o)

I was looking at past pics of me from about 20 lbs ago (not 40 lbs ago) and I looked great. I think I pretty much looked as great as I did 40 lbs ago. I remember, in college, people told me I could stand to gain some weight cause I was too skinny- and that was my 125 weight. But when I weighed between 140 and 145 I still looked great-

SO I think I'm going to be more realistic and shoot to weight 140-145lbs instead of the 125. BUT if I lose more than 20 lbs then that will just be a bonus. What do you think?

PS I'm not copping out. I'm just trying to not discourage myself by being more realistic. Which it really does help. I feel more empowered!

Steady.. steady

I haven't lost any more weight.. But I haven't gained a single pound either - SO THAT IS OK WITH ME! As long as I'm not gaining weight. I hope I can lose more though. That is all I have to share- nothing exciting I know. :o)

One more thing:

My Body Mass Index went down 1.4 points which is fantastic!!

Summore lost!

I'm down 1.8 lbs more! Which is a good average per week (1-2 lbs a week). I'm still eating well. If I don't eat well then I get a belly ache and one time, I had other problems :/

So I'm just so happy to say that I'm still losing weight!! HOORAY It's Wednesday and I worked out everyday (aside from Sunday) and I plan to work out everyday this week. It feels great, it really does! Total weight loss this far is: 7.4 pounds

I feel that my tummy is flatter but I feel like my face might still be a little rolly. But I admit, I look much better than I did 7.4 pounds ago! I'm so pleased. I hope hope hope I keep losing more weight! I will keep up what I am doing- cause it's working!

No headache today

Alright, I ate something other than fish for dinner tonight. And no headache! It's a relief, they really make things miserable. I'm scared to have fish again in case it gives me a migraine.

Something's fishy!

I eat my fish for dinner when Blake is home cause he really likes the fish part. Well, I didn't have a headache all day but as soon as I ate that last bite of fish BAM I got a headache. It was instantly. So odd... does anyone know why that would happen? And I wonder if that is what happens everyday and I just never noticed.

I got issues man!

So, I've been doing this strict diet for 3 full days (this is day 4) and man, I've been getting bad head aches. I think it's either:

A- I'm having sugar and carb. withdrawals

B- My system is totally detoxifying (is that a word) which tends to give headaches

C- My body isn't used to so little calories or

D- All of the above :o)

Crud. I do need to post pictures. I wish I had something that could help me get pics onto my computer. See, that is why I rarely post pics- no way of getting them on here.

I like this diet because it makes me make dinner every night AND I get creative with cooking. It's fun! (oh and not to mention the health benefits) Blake is liking all the fish and home cooked meals too ;)

I worked out today. Not very well though :/ I did my stationary bike, about 7 minutes of Slim in 6, the resistance bands, crunches on my exercise ball and then the stationary bike again for like 1 min. HA! I have so much cleaning to do today that I have a hard time working out. I figure cleaning will have to count as part of my work out today.

Thanks for all the support everyone!

Forgot to Mention

My cute husband Blake said he'd do the diet with me :o) so that really helps a ton!! Thanks lover!!! And he and I decided to do a free day... so like Fridays or Satrudays. Anywhoo. If anyone would like to join in please do! It's really great-- if you like fish that is.

Week 1!!!

Yay! I've been doing my healthy good stuff for a week now and I've lost 5.6 LBS!!!!! I now weigh 159.2. I'm so happy!! My mother-in-law gave me her diet to a healthier body and I started it yesterday. It was hard yesterday but I know it will get easier. I'm not giving up on it. Thanks Mama C!! :o)

no sugars/sweeteners of any kind, dairy, meat, prepared foods, canned foods. the best way to look at it is focus on what you can eat!

eat lots of fresh veggies/salads, samples of fruits, I just eat fruit for breakfast and that's it for the most part.
lots of fish. wild salmon is best. watch labels...no added coloring etc.
get a really good protein drink with lots of fiber, grains, veggies. I can get you one but its expensive.
you can have juice that is 100% natural juice.
lemons and herbs on your salads.
sea salt
allowed dairy:
real unsalted butter
sour cream
cream cheese
cottage cheese

2 eggs a week (omlets are great! you get creative with diff. veggies/mushrooms)
2 tats a week
raw nuts
& seeds (unsalted)
that’s about it.
as you get healthy you can add tyson chicken/natural
and whole grains

the rule that works best for all your meals is to eat 80-20
80% liquid 20% meat/grains
so a big salad with a small piece of fish
then a big salad with a small serving of grain or tate

I actually didn’t work out all that much. I walked every day up and down hills and got a ball to sit on while I watch tv to work my abs. I did a simple routine 3-4x a week.

Well that's her healthy diet from a specialist. I plan to work out often. I will keep all this up and I'll continue to see progress!!!