A Story About Mak Lang

I was a bit skeptical when my fellow TTCians were so eager to see this special person; Mak Lang. It's been said that she knows the conditions of her patient's uterus, tubes etc..by using her fingers only! how amazing, right?

Well, as I mentioned to you on my pervious entry, berurut can no longer relevant to me.. But, this time around,  I have no idea why, I really2 feel like seeing her..

I went all the way to Sungai Petani, with the help of Linda & her hubby, together with another TTCian Wanda.. To shorten the story, when i my name was called, i entered the room and looked at Mak Lang's face, I started to cry already... I was soo touched by only looking at her face before i could even tell her my stories. Somehow, she knew that I was in pain. Pain with my infertility journey..

Well, her conclusion to me are as follows:

1. My bukaan rahim is fine..

2. The size of my womb is small.. Therefore, i need to take plenty of vegs...

3. The position of my womb is a bit "senget".. Probably, that's the reason why my baby(ies) often parked at the wrong side of my uterus.. wallhualam...

Well, Mak lang is definitely not God.. She can said whatever, but Allah remain the rightful authority to decide our fate.. But taking my her experience, we can take her advise as our guide.

I do like her... In fact, i do miss her, a lott... I wish i can see her again.. insyaallah..



p/s- Ive been eating lotsa vegs ever since that..hehehe...

Infertility Treatment -vs- Working

Until this very moment, i have yet to inform my Boss about my plan to undergo the FET. Previously, i had promise my Boss that i will continue my infertility treatment next year. On that point of time, my husband and I were totally broke.

And now, I have no idea how to inform my Boss.. I know that the situation in my office is a bit hectic with the tons of works. But, come to think of it, I just need to focus on myself first. Am I right?

There is indeed lots of sacrifice to be made when you are undergoing an infertility treatments. There are too many time that you need to sacrifice, even with your work. All these while, I was lucky to have an understanding Boss who are totally understand with my situation. But, how long will the understanding last? I had, for several times tendered my resignation as i knew that my treatments will not bring justice towards my Boss, my Firm, my clients, but my Boss refused to let me go..

And again, the big question arises: HOW LONG WILL THE UNDERSTANDING LASTS?

 

 

Dear Boss,

I'm sorry to be born as a barren,

I'm also sorry for asking too many unpaid leaves in a year,

I didn't mean to trouble you with my absence,

I love my work and I also love working with you,

But my husband and family are everything to me,

I would have to make them as my priority, and not my work..

Sorry dear boss..

Sorry for my weaknesses,

Sorry for everything

Dear Allah,

Please make it easy for me..

As I ain't wanna dissapoint my Boss, colleagues, staffs and the Firm that I love...

ameen..

Post Cornual Pregnancy

I arrived early at Sunway Hospital today, as I have to attend a very important meeting in the afternoon. When my name was called, i was a bit worried to discover the condition of my uterus. As you all know, when i had a cornual pregnancy last time, i was fully aware that my uterus had been badly damaged. Therefore, today's scan is crucial to me and today also will determine whether or not i can, or can't be pregnant again, even with the help of IVF.

Before a TVS was performed, Dr Wong briefly informed me that there are 2 possibilities after a cornual pregnancy:

1. The size of my uterus might be smaller or;

2. The shape of my uterus might be different.

But Allah has its mysterious way in helping or testing me. When the TVS was performed, it was discovered that my uterus is perfectly NORMAL! There was no sign of any injury to my uterus or anything! Praise to you ya Allah ya rabb!

Therefore, i will start taking MICROGYNON tonight..


And the journey begins...... In the name of Allah, most gracious, most merciful...

4th Attempt - Bismillah

I have been praying for my AF to come early this month.. Reason being is because fasting month is approaching, and of course Raya!

My AF is due next week, but guess what? I'm having AF today! How wonderful..

Tomorrow, i just need to see Dr Wong again for the preparation of the FET... Pray for me, ok?


Dear angels,
You have been sleeping for few months now,
I guess i will be seeing you soon..
Mummy misses you...
Wait for mummy, okeh?

Have Faith!

Try Again!