Notice!
Because Blogger won't let me use my yahoo account on the app for portable devices, causing me an unending amount of frustration and heartache, I will be moving my blogging activities to a new home. The address is meetmrsmartinwithme.blogspot.com
I have high hopes that this will help me be a better blogger. And as I have started an amazing new chapter in my life - with a name change and everything - the change does seem appropriate.
I'm still getting things set up over there, so please be patient with me.
Thanks for reading!
Angels Abounding
November 3, 2013
September 27, 2012
Feeling Pensive
I was looking at myself in the mirror tonight and I realized something wonderful ... I love myself. I truly love every part of me.
It has taken me such a long time to get to a place in me where there wasn't something that I just couldn't stand or felt like needed fixing. That's not to say that I suddenly think I'm perfect, no matter how much I joke around about it. I know I have room for improvement. Everyone does. But I can truly say that I am currently being the best me that I could be.
I have felt so beautiful for the last little while. I love the way I look. I want to continue to work at being healthier, but I don't really care if I lose weight. I don't feel the need to be all skinny. I feel beautiful the way I am and comfortable in my skin. I've had a moment of that here or there in the past. But it's what my life is made up of right now and I'm so happy about it.
The Lord has been so kind to me. He's been teaching me some hard lessons. How to be patient, merciful, and forgiving not only to others but more especially to myself. I have always had a good bit of a perfectionist in me. And I've always been hardest on myself. But the Lord has been showing me how to laugh at my blunders, how to pick myself up and dust myself off with love and care when I do an absolute face-plant, how to remember that I'm not perfect and was never meant to be in this life.
So, I don't know how long this feeling will last. I hope it will only grow and get better. It might fade away as my hair grows out. :) Don't know. But I am so grateful to be experiencing it now and will do my best to love every minute of it.
It has taken me such a long time to get to a place in me where there wasn't something that I just couldn't stand or felt like needed fixing. That's not to say that I suddenly think I'm perfect, no matter how much I joke around about it. I know I have room for improvement. Everyone does. But I can truly say that I am currently being the best me that I could be.
I have felt so beautiful for the last little while. I love the way I look. I want to continue to work at being healthier, but I don't really care if I lose weight. I don't feel the need to be all skinny. I feel beautiful the way I am and comfortable in my skin. I've had a moment of that here or there in the past. But it's what my life is made up of right now and I'm so happy about it.
The Lord has been so kind to me. He's been teaching me some hard lessons. How to be patient, merciful, and forgiving not only to others but more especially to myself. I have always had a good bit of a perfectionist in me. And I've always been hardest on myself. But the Lord has been showing me how to laugh at my blunders, how to pick myself up and dust myself off with love and care when I do an absolute face-plant, how to remember that I'm not perfect and was never meant to be in this life.
So, I don't know how long this feeling will last. I hope it will only grow and get better. It might fade away as my hair grows out. :) Don't know. But I am so grateful to be experiencing it now and will do my best to love every minute of it.
July 14, 2012
Thoughts
It's a Saturday and I'm at work. Got here at 5 AM. I'm tired, but also I have so much going on in my heart.
This week my cousin and I have been trying the 'BOM in a week' challenge. I have been more successful this time around, more consistent in getting my reading done, etc.
Because of that, my heart has been full and the Spirit has been so close and so powerful. I've been overwhelmed at times by the thoughts, feelings, and impressions I've had. So powerful. So beautiful. The comfort that I've felt in the face of doubt has been amazing and far more profound than I can ever remember in my life. I've been asking certain questions for months and though I've been getting the same answers the whole time it's only now that I'm actually able to believe them.
I feel full, whole, and complete. I feel so, so very loved. I feel my God, my Father, very close to me. Right now I can't deny anything that He's been telling me. I know it's all true. And though that is frightening for me (in a good way), I know that it's all going to be what it should be.
I can see so clearly a possible future laid out before me, and it's something that I want. I pray that I can do my part to achieve it. I don't know that even then I will, but I wouldn't want to have to look back and see that I didn't through my own failure to go and do.
I feel so happy. Even if I don't get what I want, I feel the joy of the possibility of it.
I've been thinking a lot about my Grandma of late and how very, very much I miss her. There's a big hole in the universe where she's supposed to be. And I don't think that it will ever be filled until I see her again. I miss her hands, her smile, her voice, her face, her laugh. I miss her presence in this mortal sphere. I miss her.
I still have so much to mourn from her passing, but not enough time or internal space to do so. Need to work on that one.
But, all told, life is good right now. I am content. I feel well.
This week my cousin and I have been trying the 'BOM in a week' challenge. I have been more successful this time around, more consistent in getting my reading done, etc.
Because of that, my heart has been full and the Spirit has been so close and so powerful. I've been overwhelmed at times by the thoughts, feelings, and impressions I've had. So powerful. So beautiful. The comfort that I've felt in the face of doubt has been amazing and far more profound than I can ever remember in my life. I've been asking certain questions for months and though I've been getting the same answers the whole time it's only now that I'm actually able to believe them.
I feel full, whole, and complete. I feel so, so very loved. I feel my God, my Father, very close to me. Right now I can't deny anything that He's been telling me. I know it's all true. And though that is frightening for me (in a good way), I know that it's all going to be what it should be.
I can see so clearly a possible future laid out before me, and it's something that I want. I pray that I can do my part to achieve it. I don't know that even then I will, but I wouldn't want to have to look back and see that I didn't through my own failure to go and do.
I feel so happy. Even if I don't get what I want, I feel the joy of the possibility of it.
I've been thinking a lot about my Grandma of late and how very, very much I miss her. There's a big hole in the universe where she's supposed to be. And I don't think that it will ever be filled until I see her again. I miss her hands, her smile, her voice, her face, her laugh. I miss her presence in this mortal sphere. I miss her.
I still have so much to mourn from her passing, but not enough time or internal space to do so. Need to work on that one.
But, all told, life is good right now. I am content. I feel well.
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