I'm back

Well Hello, It's been a loong loong time but I've been wanting to start blogging again but life get crazy but unless I just jump in and give my self a kick in the butt i will never get this going again so you will be hearing from me again real soon. I have lots to catch up on... so excited..

plus I promised a good friend I would start blogging again.. Love ya Bekah I'm gonna miss you and your sweet lil family..

Lok what I made

Brother & Sister time

This last weekend Dest was able to see his lil sister that he has missed so much. There has been a lot of lifes struggles that has taken these two away from each other but there love has remained strong and it seems as soon as they get together it starts right where it left off.. We love Jayden she is such a sweet girl and so much like her brother...

Thanks to Destin's Aunt Jenny for putting this all together she always has had the kids best interest at heart and loves her niece and nephew. Jenny is now the mom Jayden never had and i really look up to her for that, she is a very strong and unselfish woman. I love you Jenny!! Thanks for being the woman you are and loving these kids like you do...

Here is Dest with his Sister and Jenny's two step kids.. This is what I mean when I say unselfish she loves these kids just as they were all her own. It warms my heart to finally see Jayden happy.. All because of Jenny's sacrifice..

Hmmm let's see..

OK I guess this is what happens when Moms bed is more comfortable than the kids... OR a sign of a hungry teenager..

OR BOTH is my guess...

Yes that is peanut butter on the spoons.

I thought the last time I checked this was my bedroom not Destins??? looks like he took over NOT!!

We will be having a talk tonight...

whats new...

I've been playing with my vinyl.. Here is what I came up with...Fun I'm gonna make a tree in the corner of my room with flowers,owls and birds i will post pictures soon..

Valentines decor

I guess even though I don't have a Valentine no more I decided to still decorate... but counting the days to tale it down :)

Things are looking up

*** I made my blog private for post just like this one and I hope that those of you who have been invited know how personal this really is to me***

Things are starting to look up went to my interview with Wal mart yesterday and got the job as long as I pass the background check... Kinda worries me it has been 9 years but I guess it's the wreckage of my past and if it is meant to be it will be right??? It is a job that I will be able to pay my bills by my self and one more step to being independent.
On another note I went to the Temple the other day to get the conformation of where to go with my life, I truly feel like I got that answer over and over again while I was there so I will go ahead with my divorce. It won't be easy but I can't live like this no more I have been through a lot in my life and I have worked my butt off to get to where I am today I have 8 years clean and feel like I've been living a life in active addiction and lies.
My feelings have been hurt Ive tried to be the best Wife & Daughter in law I could but I guess that isn't good enough when I can't seem to forgive Sean I am the one who lives with it on a daily basis no one else and I cant do it no more. but some day he needs to held accountable for his actions. I am very hurt that he has done this to my Dad and put my him in this situation, And if my Dad presses charges against Sean I'm sure I will be hated even more but it is out of my control what Sean did is very wrong and hes need to held accountable for his actions not always rescued by his parents. I really love Sean don't get me wrong but he has some serious problems and Sean is the only one who can fix them, I hope by my standing my ground it will open his eyes and he will do what he needs to do to get the help he needs.. I am also hurt that the relationships I have with his family won't be there no more and I didn't do nothing wrong here.. I am very grateful for my sister in law Heidi she truly cares and has shown that time and time again even though she pretends to be hard and careless sometimes I love her and am very thankful for her friendship.I am also very Thankful to Bekah & Hallie for the love and support they have shown and for there honesty on how they see things it's always good to have someones elses opinion who can see from the outside in. I don't really even know if anyone else knows what is really going on because it is always a secret and I have made my blog private but for now I will hold my head high and learn from this situation. Me and Dest have each other and that is the only man I need and that is exactly what he is becoming and I am very proud of him...

Im holding tight to the iron rod..

I think I've been faced with one of the very hardest decisions I have ever had to make in my entire life. I've been hurt, lied to deceived and humiliated time and time again and it has come the time when I have to say no more, I deserve better than this.
I have really been seeking this conformation and truly pondering and praying freverently for the answer. I know the answer I really do and I also know my Heavenly father will confirm the answer also and I know he does this in all ways and sometimes we don't always see it.
I received a phone call from a friend today that was really concerned and told me to read a paragraph in the conference issue of the ensign I turned to that page and preceded to read what she told me and as I came to the end of that page my eyes teared up and my body became warm as I read this..

"If you have determined to live righteously, don't become discouraged. Life may seem difficult now, but hold on tightly to that iron rod of truth. You are making better progress than you realize. Your struggles are defining character, discipline, and confidence in the promises of your Father in Heaven and the Savior as you constantly obey their commandments. May the Holy Ghost prompt you to always make decisions that fortify your character and yield much joy and happiness."
I know my Father in Heaven loves me and hears my prayers and I know he will guide me in all I do...

Bedroom redo

Our Bedroom went from this

To this,

I still have a few things to change.. but it will take some getting use to..

Definitely need some more color and more pillows on the bed.

" Dogs just don't understand stay out of my picture so I don't even bother with it anymore"

New Yeas Eve..

We spent the night with Marie & the kids.. Lots of games food & fun.

Davetta & Kenzee had lots of fun hanging out...

The best part of the night was of course was bringing in the new year...

We had a great night!!!

Sedding with friends

We froze our butts off but we had lots of fun sledding with Marie & kids along with Kenz..

Destin & Makaila's Christmas

Dest & Mak...

They are so fun to watch together and are so thoughtful of each other..

They got each other build a bear owls for Christmas neither of them knew that they both had the same idea so it was so funny when they opened them up.. They did a great job with Dest's it looks just like him.. Perfect..

Dest had to get Maks in a cheer outfit to match her perfectly..


also sweet little Brook was so thoughtful, she love Dest and know his favorite color is orange..

He loves his fuzzy blanket..

Iam so grateful we has such sweet and thoughtful friends.. We love you guys..

Christmas Day 2010

Christmas morning was also full of excitement Shelyse & Dest always crack me up..

Destin got his shadow box with his first base ball mitt and balls from his great Grandpa..

Shelyse always loves new clothes.. What girl don't

Sean seen this build a bear monkey and loved it when he found out it came in a new york Yankees Jeter uniform.. He was pretty shocked to find out that Santa brought it.

My mom always loves pictures..

I was so excited to get my new pans... I've had my eye on these babies for a while now.. Thanks Sean.

last but not least I love my kitchen aide isn't she a beauty... thanks Dad

Here is the after math of it all....

We had a great Christmas and most of all I loved that I had my family together. I love all you guys thanks for making it so special and for all the great memories..

Christmas Eve

I could not of asked for a better Christmas than what we had this year. It all started on Christmas eve when once again I was able to have my family together meaning "my Mom, my Dad and Shelyse home" thats all I really wanted. Christmas eve was the best we got home from our Christmas party and Dad was here waiting and one thing he can not do is keep a secret, So between him,Shelyse and Dest begging we decided to flip a coin to see if Dad could give them there presents early. They did not give up there when they lost the coin toss they insisted the coin was weighed down so tried again with another coin and finally got there way.

So they had to go in the bed room while Grandpa did his thing... Here is the big reveal...

As you can tell from the picture dest is speechless as he told us so himself.. I will never forget the look on his face..

He is truly in shock...

Shelyse was also ecstatic about her gift especially since her last ipod was filled with hair spray and no longer in working condition...

Here she is showing her appreciation

A whats Christmas eve with out opening pj's

And having Mom and Dad together..

12th Day of Christmas.

The 12 night the drummers, and of course Christmas eve..Santa is ready but do you believe? We've had so much fun and we hope you have to..So on Christmas eve this is our last gift to you..
We love Joni and the boys. We will never be able of explain the feeling we have recieved from doing this.

Merry Christmas..