Enigma

Holla!! 

It’s 2022 already and idk why i still install this blog? So funny. 

Well I might be write something here since Im so fucking bored at work sometimes. 

First of all.. I’m working at PJ now. 

Best: masuk kerja pukul 10am

Tak best: balik pukul 7pm and jammed. Urghh! And of course jauh gila dr rumah. Like an hour travel. Dh mcm hari2 balik kampung. Well..literally.

I love rainy day.. but not when I’m gonna drive that day. It will be going so scary shit.. drive time hujan plus malam. My weakest moment. Literally drive pakai hati je masa tu. Apa nak jadi.. jadilaah. Hahahaha

What else?

My view everytime balik kerja. #soblessed #mashaAllah so pretty kan? For me laaa.. haha

13 NOVEMBER 2018 : I AM OKAY

Hi Alya,

you need to remember this date ----> 13th NOVEMBER 2018 

something happened to your life. that will affect your future. to your family or maybe will also affect your personality and emotionally from now on. will downgrade your self-esteem. all negative vibes will start to surround you nevertheless.

but... you must be strong. stronger than others. stronger than before. to show to your family.. to protect them.. and always keep your emotion intact so that nobody will get suspicious. or even to look down to you. ---- that you must do.

To Alya,
just know that every cloud has a silver lining, a rainbow after the rain, ada hikmah atas semua benda buruk yang terjadi. inshaAllah. Semoga Allah swt dapat melindungi semua orang yang kau sayang. Sesungguhnya hanya kepada-Nya lah kau berserah dan berdoa. Semoga kau terus tabah.

Dear Alya,
maybe sekarang hati kau masih kuat. tidak selemah sebelum ini yang mudah menangis di setiap waktu...tapi aku tahu.. dikala kau keseorangan.. dikala segala memori bermain difikiran.. disaat itulah kau hamburkan setiap titis airmatamu. bersendirian. apabila hati sendiri berbicara bertapa rindunya kau kepadanya.. hati kau jugalah yang memujuk sendiri. disaat itu harus kau tahu itulah ketabahan.

harusnya kau tahu.. seburuk-buruk takdir yang kau terima.. ramai lagi yang bernasib malang menimpa mereka. jangan bersedih. 😊

tunggulah 2025. harap kau mampu bersabar.

*from alya to alya.

credit pic: from pinterest

MEMBEBEL #1

Susahnya jadi Alya Zahida.. 😃

I think everyone is struggling with their own problems.
For me.. I tengah berperang dengan jiwa sendiri. serabut di dalam tapi di luar nampak tenang..gitchewww 😂😂

Pernah tak rasa tetibe nak marah orang tak tentu hala? tapi bila dah marah bukan puas pun.. menyesal lagi ada sebab marah tanpa niat. haha! Yeah it was strictly not a PMS. I know how the PMS effects on me. but this was..marah sbb stress melampau!

Mungkin.. serabut sebab kerja yg tak pernah nak habis. Dah habis kerja sendiri.. perlu settlekan kerja anak buah pulak. I sakit hati gila bila anak buah tak reti laaaaa nk solve the problem by their own. I believe when I started my job I was struggling by myself.. I learned by myself.. work/made decision by myself.. then kene bambu/ kene marah dgn boss / kene tolak gaji for stupid mistake pun by my own and only.. so thats why I hangin gilaaa bila staff tak reti nak cari alternatif to solve the problem.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR.A

hye bie.. (gosh dah lama gila tak panggil you bie :'))

Since I can't wish you happy birthday coz it'll sound so awkward..

so I ll just sedekahkan you Al-Fatihah instead. 

Semoga roh you tenang dan ditempatkan dgn orang2 yg beriman. InshaAllah 😊😊

LMU... 💕