Overwhelmed.

Does your head ever feel heavy and do you feel the inexplicable need to cry? Just cry for no reason at all? Bawl, regardless of whether the tears flow or not, because there's something that's bothering you and you don't know what that something is?

Do you find it hard to forgive yourself? For the slightest error of judgement or the biggest goof-up of all mankind? Do you mentally beat yourself up black and blue for not having been smarter about things, not having thought with a calm mind?

Do you feel like you're having an out-of-body experience? Like, when you do something foolish or insensitive or crass or obnoxious that you never think you're capable of doing? Do you feel like you own the world, that you're good enough when really, deep down, somehow you get the feeling that the only reason you get away with a lot of things is because people are just being kind to you? And then do you think that, hey, perhaps you're not good enough? And that you're not the best there is? For anything, in anything?

And does that make you wonder, what am I doing? What am I turning into? Who is this person in the mirror?

So many questions without answers.

A Walk In The Woods and other such happenings.

"Ey, tomorrow you're coming with me for a play", Munchkin said. "Okay", I replied. As if I was given much choice. I could have refused still, but not having been to a play in over three years, I thought, what the heck, I don't have a blooming social life so I might as well go and see.

I'm so glad I went.

The play was an adapt of American playwright Lee Blessing's play by the same name. Naseeruddin Shah and Rajit Kapoor were the cast, and the play was directed by Ratna Pathak Shah. (For some reason, the floosy woman introducing them insisted on calling her Director Sahiba.)

It was an entertaining hour of extremely well-scripted dialogues enhanced by breath-taking performances. Studying Naseeruddin Shah's body language as he transitioned from a charming Quixotic character into an old man with no more fight left in him was stunning. "History is geography over time", he says. Rajit Kapoor as the uptight Indian diplomat was fantastic. "You didn't say I had to be trivial and entertaining", was one of his memorable dialogues.

If you ever get an opportunity to watch the two of them, grab it without second thought.

In other news, life is getting along. I keep thinking about posting, but somehow, the inclination to write copious amounts is headed towards the exit.

But, will muster up enough energy and recollect my thoughts to post something soon.