Time for a change

You know when the leaves start to change color and you can feel a change in the air? I want that change, I am looking for that change. I know the Debbie Downer can come out in the Winter, but I feel it more this year than I ever have. I want to go back to the careless world I once lived in. Where people are not easily offended, where gossip isn't a priority, where drama is left behind. I did High School once, and that was enough for me. I feel like I have lost a little of me. The part that I really like. The part that lets things run off my shoulder, that life doesn't need to be taken to seriously, where I don't let people get to me. Where people think of what they are saying before they say it. Where we aren't selfish. I need to find that part of me again. I thought little trips would help, maybe girl lunch dates, but I need more. I think I need a retreat in a Tepee with a Indian:) I need to sweat this out and be done. I want the warm ocean breeze blowing through my hair. I want the sun shining on me while I lay out and bask in the sun like a sea lion in San Diego. I want back the Aloha Spirit I felt in Hawaii. But most importantly I see the change needs to come from me. So from this day forward I will speak more kindly. I will look for all the good in the day. I will count the many blessings that I know I have. I will attract the good to happen. I will cherish the people I have in my life. I will thank my friends for all the times they have listened to me. I will put the smile on my face because I really truly am happy. And gosh dangit, I will exercise more!!!!