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I didn't think I could hurt this much anymore. Harley died after having a stroke and probably throwing a clot caused by an aneurysm. He was 12 and the absolute best cat ever. Hands down, no contest. He was ALWAYS purring and always snuggly. I miss him so much, as does his hetero-life-mate Zipper. I'll always have a huge chunk of my heart for my Fancy Paws.

I just want to say that I'm so incredibly happy and completely crazy about David <3

that is all

*le sigh*

So I've been insanely happy lately. I started dating an AMAZING new guy. I'm absolutely crazy about him. His name is David and he's an onld friend of Amanda's. I can't explain how grateful I am that Amanda's mom Vanessa had the idea that we should get together! Just wanted to give a quick little update on my much improved life :D

okay, so Bug wants me to update...

...well I have no life. So I have no clue what to write about. So I guess I'll kinda give a general life update seeing as how I haven't really been talking about things with too many people... 

So I'm taking this semester off because I've been dealing with some personal shit and I'm just way too burnt out. 

So as pretty much everyone knows, Matt dumped me back in October. At first we tried to work things out, but that didn't work. Then we tried being friends, but that didn't work. So now I am completely done with him. I'm changing my number as soon as I get the last of our stuff exchanged. He's out of my life for good. I have absolutely NO feelings left for him, though I am very very sad about losing his family. After 5 years, they were my family too. I can't be in contact with them, though, since I am chosing not to have any contact with him. He randomly contacts me and does nothing but harass me, hence the number change. I'm done and I'm over it. When I look back on it, we were so wrong for eachother. I can't believe I stayed with him for so long, honestly.

I've finally started seeing a therapist because I've been battling with depression and anxiety issues for most of my life but have never dealt with them. I'm glad to finally be dealing with things.

I took this semester off of school for many reasons. To deal with the break up and depression, because I had minor surgery on my tailbone [but I knew my body well enough to know that I wouldn't heal properly], and mostly because I was just so burnt out I wasn't doing well in my classes at all. It was a much needed break, but I hate it. I hate not being in school. But I also hated everyone telling me not to take a break because I wouldn't go back. I know what I need and I know what I will or won't do. It was the right choice; if I had gone this semester, I absolutely would have flunked out. There is no question.

I've decided to make a lot of changes in my life this year, I don't like how I've been living. It's taking time, but I'm working on it. People don't change in a day.

I can spell confusion with a K and I can like it