This Journal is closed.
[I am not writing in any more journals....but I am not deleting account so if I want to come back to it...Then I will make an update in this one and in xTokyoxSunrisex.]

WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS! OMG ANY MOTHERFUCKERS CAN GET A RECORD DEAL NO DAYS! DAMN IT GIVE ME ONE....SO I CAN MAKE A CRAPPY ASS SONG!

What the fuck was I thinking....I can't believe I let my friends talk into watching this....I am a dumbass for watching this video.

Talking with my guy Chris today made me think on how I approached it this earlier in my journal and I love him for that to show me that this is not who I am and this is not what I am about for he knows who I am. I am going to be an adult about it So that other entry is locked and this is the one that should be public. This ends....don't come to my journal nor my poem profile. End it...this goes to anyone that is still saying crap cause frankly someone is still saying I said something when the last time I did say something was on my own journal this year when I posted it public not on anyone's site. Just let it go. Move on. People that defended me don't say nothing else it just needs to end don't get yoursleves dragged into something that is really nothing just let it fissle and die. It's funny how shit gets twisted by lies and other things or whatever, life is going on and drama is not a part of my life. You know what, I take it all back. I don't hate anyone, I don't want to have nothing to do with people from the past that I don't talk to now, nor do I want to see them or hear from them ever in life, That should kill the idea that some people think I want to see them or be there friend again. Maybe someone is using my name just to keep this going I don't have a clue. Those people that are trying to keep this up then keep it to yourself. Hey I have an idea why don't you write emails like J has suggested talk among yourselves on how much you hate me or whatever. It's old an I am getting to old for this. Thanks...you my boy for life and you always told it like it is(^__^ my Luda..I will see you in e.c. soon)...So after today just leave me alone, my friends and my stuff also don't mention my name in things you write. I don't have time to go to anyone elses websites/journals/blogs/etc to write garabage on there. This is the last and final thing I have to say about this whole matter. This message does not go to one person it goes to anyone that seems to want to keep this shit going. If you comment again I will not going to say anything cause then that makes me look low and I am not plus this is the last time I have a public entry dealing with this crap. Also it would be a good idea to know who is true and what not, cause even friends can write stuff and say it was that person or use there name cause they don't have the balls to tell you what they really think about you. I am deleting everything that was said in the guestbook on my poem profile. If I have anything to say to you then I will email that person which means if I didn't email you then I didn't write whatever shows up on websites/journals/blogs/etc an the only email address I use to write to friends in the one on my user info for livejournal...my final words...Let it go.
Amaya

God..Leaving America in 4 years is going to be great....

To all that where friends to Jon also know as Vinnycrimson_fantasy  , I sorry to hear about your loss. You all are in my prayers. You all take all the time you need *huggles you all* God bless and there is nothing wrong with crying. If that is what you need to do then do that. Just remember that he will not suffer or have anymore pain. <3333