Before I self-destruct
“It’s anger, jealously and what have you. I’m not going to give 2 fucks about it anymore. I’m not going to wallow in self pity and act as if everything’s alright. Maybe forever would end sooner than expected. I’m going to hang onto this love, no matter how tough it is.”
Note to self: Words of anger can kill. And make you regret for probably a lifetime. Why does my heart turn soft in times like this.
Devour me
You’re the only one who’s able to pull me up into the skies, and the one who’s able to throw me down onto the ground hard. And yes. I miss you terribly, even if it’s only been a few hours. I’ll cry, but I won’t fall. Even if you threw me down, I’ll stand up strong again. No matter how hard it is.
Edited@1130pm/
“you’re not going to be his first, his last, or even his only. but if he loves you now, then what else matters? you’re not going to be perfect together, but who is? if he can make you laugh, make you think twice, and take chances, then hold on to him, and give him the best of you that you possibly can. sure, he won’t be thinking about you every second, won’t be with you all the time, and you won’t always know what he’s doing, but he’s giving you a part of him that he knows you can break. so don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect more than he can give and try not to over analyze. smile whenever he makes you happy, and yell when he makes you mad and of course, miss him when he’s gone. lastly, always remember;
he loves you.”
Lost in the crowd
Been bzzzzzz the whole week. I shall try to recall wtv happened this week.
Monday, Lunch with Best after school @ dover market, then headed back to school for dance. Best sent me home afterwards.
Tuesday, Had IED meeting @ normanton park after school. Sumay’s mom drove us over, had the meeting with supplier, then bussed back to school with Siti and Christopher. Did work with them and a few others. Walked back home with Chris, Jarrett and Gregory after that.
Wednesday, Went home with Gregory after school, met Zayne and had chinese tuition, went home with Zayne aftermath.
Thursday, Dance after school again, and Best sent me home.
Friday, Met Best after school and she sent me home. Had tuition till 5plus. Dinnered then went out @ 8plus to meet Siti. Bussed down to her house with her and Farwin since they were both in school. Walked about, Farwin left then went up to her place till late. Bussed home after that.
Saturday, Went out to shop alone, got too bored decided to call my mom to join me. Bumped into Nicholas, Joshua and girlf @ Fep. Momma drove me home.
Sunday, Went out @2plus and bussed down to Best’s place. Passed her stuffs then cabbed down to Baby’s place to meet him. Left his place with his family @5plus to Ecp’s jumbo. Dinnered, left them and went to the seaside with Baby. Joined them then went down to Queensway. Left his family again, roamed anchorpoint with Baby. Then went over to one of the HDBs and sat under block. His daddy drove me home. Btw, Happy half a year bby! You my best 4evaz. (L) I lurblurb chu.
I’ll upload more pictures once I get them, the rest I’m too damn lazy to upload nao. Bear with me. <:
Btw, isn’t my tagbox at the side. It’s the guestbook on the right! So honeys, comment me there instead k!
But I’ve replied comments on my posts already anyway :>
Told you I’ll be here forever
Holland > Clementi > Home on Thursday with Baby and Siti after school.
Best came over to my place on Friday and we had our h2h whilst roaming the whole of Dover and Holland. (Inserts a million hearts and tons of smiles)
Tuition in the morning, then headed to Jurong to meet Siti and Sofia yesterday. Nat couldn’t make it. Imm then library for our study session. Left for Bedok to meet family and relatives there. And I got lost cause I took a wrong bus from Bedok ^^ But I managed to find my way around. Hehehe. Didn’t bring our cams out cause we assumed that either one of us would be bringing. Made do with our phone cams instead.
The word bored is totally written on my face today. 🙂
Edited/ Back from CGH, went to visit Granny. So happy to see her smiling ^^ And tags replied on guestbook! Do tag more loves. Off to bed soon, a whole new week’s awaiting for me. Nightynight.
Just for you
Loving someone is about letting go of fear. The fear of getting your heart broken, the fear of the tongues that might wag, the fear of whether its just an infactuation, the fear of having opened your heart yet being slammed shut again, the fear of love and the fear of letting go.
To my significant other: I love you, and this won’t change for a v long time. I’m sorry for all the nonsense we’ve been put through. I just wanted to say that you mean the world to me and without you, I’m not complete. So tyvm for completing me, and making me whole. You’re the only one in my heart, bear that in mind.
Like no other
Just hung up Joseph’s phone call, and I’m here to blog (finally)
Collected my Chinese Olvl result on Monday after school. Not too bad, better than I expected. ^^ Delia accompanied me to get it, and went over to find Karei and Yutong. They did really well, congrats to them 🙂 Delia left to meet Rami, while Karei, Yutong and I stayed in school for awhile longer then headed to 31 cause we didn’t know where to go. Bumped into Brandon Ho and he joined us. Clarence came awhile later. Was supposed to meet Qinwei, but decided to go home. Karei and Yutong sent me home ^^
Went home after school yesterday. Had tuition in the late afternoon, then went out in the late evening to meet Baby. Went to meet Qinwei, along with Lingmin and Sarah. Baby sent me home after that.
I liked Chinese tuition today. Heh. And I don’t feel like replying the tags in guestbook. I’m so lazy to reply tags that I’m considering to remove Guestbook. So please bear with it. Daddy and mummy’s out to visit Grandma. I hope she’s alright (K)
Qinwei: Stay strong alright, we’ll always be there for you. Count on us for support k! Hehe. A thousand and one years and counting, my childhood friend. (L)
Adios, goodnight babies.
Heartbeat
It’s been a pretty hectic week, which made me mia from wordpress. (sobs)
No lessons on Monday, we were entertained by boring talks. Stayed back with Noelle and Wingsze, then lunch with Noelle, sent her home then homed myself ^^
On Tuesday, I accidentally missed Amaths remedial after school with Siti, because we were late for more than an hour, deliberated whether we should enter class, in the end decided not to.
On Wednesday, Best met me after school, skipped tuition and enjoyed my Korean drama.
On Thursday, went for SP openhouse after school. It was mad chaotic, my class got split because the guide just threw us there when he/she was supposed to guide us about. Paksiong came over to meet me for awhile. Some wanted to head over to ngee ann for their open house, but stayed in the end. Siti and I escaped Sp early to head back to school for our ‘replacement amaths remedial’. Teachers were shocked that we actually stayed back to study. Hehehe.
On Friday, I met Baby. He came down to meet me outside school, bussed down to Vivo, caught The fourth kind, which was pretty cool yet nerve-racking come to think of it. Gets you thinking about whether it’s true that non human lifeforms (Aliens) do exist. They show you real life videos in the movie, go check it out yourself 🙂 The world’s so small, we got seats next to Yingmin and Belinda. Hahaha. Stayed with him till 6plus then he sent me back to school, left to meet Jiaxu and co, and I went to meet Noelle and co for the cca booth. Left pretty early after meeting Siti.
As for yesterday and today, I stayed home racking my brains because I didn’t wanna go out and for once, I actually wanted to study. Shocking much? Hehehe. Siti’s pretty shocked, well everyone is actually. If you were close to me, you’d know why I’m cutting down on my outings and going home after school to study. ^^ Omf, Higher Chinese Olvl results out tomorrow! (Shrieks)
And baby left me alone for hours for his 2pid fish -_-
But I still love him ttm, not forgetting Best as well. ♥♥♥♥
Man, I-Do-Not-Want-To-Wake-Up-Early-To-Go-To-School. >:
And okay I don’t love Baby anymore, he hasn’t replied my text till nao, prolly playing with his 2pid ttm fish AGAIN. Kidding. Will blog when I’ve got the time to!
Kismet
I think I stayed home on monday. And I remember it was on a tuesday that I met Best, went over to Cathay to take a look at her bags, sent her off to the busstop then went over to Baby’s place. Had dinner with his family @ taka, went to find cheeming then qinwei. Both were busy working ^^ And Baby’s dad drove me home.
I remember that I went out on new year’s eve with Sofia and Kate. Met Sofia first and I got to catch up with her. Sofeeya, you’ll find the right one soon enough. He was prolly close to the best, but you’ll find someone better. Maybe not now, but I’m sure you will in future. O’s first! ❤ Heh. Then Kate at 313.
313 > Heeren > Wisma > Ion (Sofia left at 5plus) > Wisma > Wheelock > Fep
Met Kate’s sister and went our separate ways. They went for church and I bussed down to Holland to meet Best there. Went to meet Siti to pass her the stuffs she wanted, then bussed down to town again with Best.
Heeren > Taka > Wisma > Ion (Went to find Qinwei and he treated me to dumplings, plus I was his good luck charm cause his pay came seconds after I met him and he was like a happy ttm)
Went down to clementi and had alot of fun with Best and others ^^
Left for home @ 1. (winks @ Best for a v memorable new year. HAHAHAHA.) ❤
And I remember going shopping with my family @ town on friday, and queesnway with them yesterday! (K)
Having dinner with my daddy’s side later on because my aunt’s migrating to Perth.
Zzzzomg. School tomorrow! 😦
My nail colours are gone, Karei, Shanny, Marissa and the uppersec are not around anymore, all the attire checks are back, the standard school routine’s back, and last but not least, O’s. Nuts.
On a lighter note, you guys can just comment me on my guestbook at the side. WordPress didn’t allow tagboxes, but I managed to put this in 🙂 Don’t comment me after every post, commenting there will do. And I’ll reply through there as well. Hehe.
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