words are falling out like endless rain into a paper cup

: bitterbuffalo25; January 4th, 2008

I just spent a long long time creating my new knitting blog! I will be posting there primarily from now on pretty frequently instead of on lj or myspace. Check it out, even if you aren't a knitter. It's pretty qute:

http://frankenskein.blogspot.com/

It's called Frankenskein....get it? Anyway, it has a bunch of stuff there plus a link to my flickr album and some sweet links to stuff if you're interested. I'm very excited about it. I will still be reading posts on lj and myspace, just not really posting that much myself.

btw, ANTM modelthons ROOL

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: bitterbuffalo25; December 13th, 2007

Current Mood:: bouncy

So my finals just ended Tuesday afternoon and I'm already going a little crazy. I'm trying to stay focused on knitting, but also reading, cleaning, etc. I just get so damn anxious when school is out. It's a good thing right now, though.

Because I'm learning new things about knitting everyday, and getting into the advanced stuff, I'm totally obsessing, more than usual. There's this site, called Ravelry, that requires a spot on a waiting list in order to be a member, and it is apparently god's gift to those of us who are fiber-oriented in any way. It's driving me crazy waiting for my invite. I found this site out through my favorite thing on livejournal, a community called

knitting

anyway, I'm thinking of starting a craft/knitting blog of some sort, especially since I'll have some more time to devote to such things after I graduate next may. And I really want to join a local Stitch N Bitch. I think it would be fun.

That aside, it's been a good week.

Virginia is for lovers...

: bitterbuffalo25; December 4th, 2007

Current Music:: The Kinks

Current Mood:: anxious

So, exciting/surprising news! Blake has a sister that lives in Alexandria, Virginia (a few minutes outside D.C.), and she has invited Blake and I to move in with her and her b/f because their roomates are moving out. This would of course happen after I graduate in May, if it does happen.

So how do I feel about it? Kind of excited. But also defeated because Blake and I have been engaging in fisticuffs over moving to either D.C. (his choice) or Chicago (the place where I need to be). But here's the thing, I think we may be there for a few years so Blake can go to school, because the location is great, the rent is cheap, and there is a train that can take us to NYC in four hours (according to Blake). THEN, we move to Chicago. Yes. But if it's going to happen, I need to start scouting for jobs in the D.C. area. scaaaaaary.

Atleast one of you needs to move there and be my neighbor, because I will miss people far too much. I'm still considering it. I know D.C. is cool, but my heart is in Chicago. le sigh

-Cil

we are not two we are one

: bitterbuffalo25; November 9th, 2007

Current Mood:: crappy

So I finally saw "The Darjeeling Limited" It was less grandiose than Wes Anderson's previous films, but still very bittersweet and sad. and Bill Murray is in it for like, a second. He chases a train and misses it and when Blake and I saw it, Blake said, "Bill Murray was supposed to be in this movie, but he missed the train". It was qute. I love that Wes Anderson's movies are always about family.

Anyway, I am really excited to see another movie, and can't wait until it comes out. This movie I speak of is "Love in the Time of Cholera". I love the book (I need to finish/re-read it, I only haveread about 80% of it) and Gabriel Garcia Marquez is my current favorite author, and I hope it adapts well to screen. Javier Bardem is in the movie though, which is exciting. I'm still trying to acquire "Across the Universe". I'm too broke now to see it in a theater, and I'm the only one on earth that hasn't seen it that wnted to see it. And I shoulda been the first person in line for that shit. So I need to see it still.

Gym today. tons of homework. lots to do. feeling blechhh lately

no cars go

: bitterbuffalo25; November 1st, 2007

Current Music:: In Rainbows - Radiohead

Current Mood:: worried

I registered for my LAST semester of classes today. crazy. but awesome! here's what I'm taking:

-ART 565 - Directed Projects in Interior Architecture MW 9:00 AM to 11:55 AM
-ART 596 - Professional Practice in Interior Architecture M 12:00 PM to 12:55 PM
-WGST 390 - Special Topics: Gender and Science Fiction MW 2:00 PM to 3:15 PM
-WGST 201 - Women in American Culture TuTh 2:30 PM to 3:45 PM
-WGST 556 - Feminist Theory (WR) MW 4:00 PM to 5:15 PM

I'm really excited about the Gender and Science Fiction class. It was my free elective that I need to take to be a full time student, because one of my classes is only 1 credit. And my Mondays/Wednesdays are crazy packed, but I don't really mind. The last studio is kind of loose in its structure, and over christmas break I need to figure out a space to design. I think I might try and get the floor plans from my library perhaps and work with that? Or maybe OEC. I don't know. rambling.

Halloween wasn't much of a Halloween, but Kevin's out, and I've gotten to see him a bunch, so that's cool. An I don't have as much homework this weekend, which means I can actually hang out a bit. Exciting. I need to find Thai recipes. I'm slacking.

I hope you all got chased with chainsaws and squirted with fake blood this Halloween. Or at the very least ate a ton of candy. I love this time of year.

In Rainbows is so good. My favorite song is the Reckoner. I love love it.

goodbye yellow brick road

: bitterbuffalo25; October 15th, 2007

Current Mood:: calm

Last week was tricky. Colombus Day is hard, because it was always the holiday that Dad and I considered "ours" I guess...we would always tell eachother that we missed one another most often on Colombus Day if we hadn't met up in awhile. Not to say that I had a holiday with my dad and my siblings didn't, but i dunno, it just was special to our relationship I guess. for two years we went to Manhattan together on Colombus day, and they will be the best memories of my life forever. We saw the Macy's parade, went and ate at that steak/cheescake place at Rockerfeller center, went shopping at Barney's, etc. It was magical. I love my dad, and I tell him everyday in my mind that I wish he were here with me and in good health. I wouldn't know what to make of my childhood/teenage years without the memories of the trips and outings taken with my siblings and my father. It sounds so silly to say this, but what I want most in the world right now is to talk to my dad about movies and musicians again. But I know he has more important things on his mind now. love you forever

who, me? yeah, you!

: bitterbuffalo25; October 6th, 2007

Current Music:: too deep - Girl Talk

So far, this weekend has been horrible. It's Fall Break! It needs to be awesome. but it isn't really. All i want to do is hang out in Richmond with my mom because she is my favorite person and her house is clean and pretty. I may do that tonight. dunno.

So I figured out what I'm going to be for Halloween! I'm going to be a sailor! Not a sexy girl sailor, but a regular sailor, wearing either white or navy, with a anchor tattoo and a hat and a dickie and everything. I'm so excited. There better be some cweet parties that night because I'm going to be so cute. Blake wants to match with me. We'll see how that goes.

I'm trying to confront a lot of things that I'm surpressing, but so far it doesn't yield too many positive results. Sometimes I think I'd just be happier if I kept my mouth shut. Unfortunately, I am not capable of this.

"What're you rebelling against, Johnny?"
"Whaddya got?"

it's a clear signal from cairo

: bitterbuffalo25; September 27th, 2007

Current Music:: the Boatman's Call - Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds

Current Mood:: sick

I've been working out 5 times a week for the past 2 weeks, and i can already tell a difference. I feel so much better all the time, and i get to sleep on time, feel motivated for my classes, and feel just generally pleasant. I am rather sore though, in a good way. Today I did a class that had pilates in it for the first time and DAMN i know why people who do those all the time are skinny. They're super hard, especially for someone with not so good balance, like myself. I'm going to keep doing them, though.

The good thing is that my friend Catherine has been working out with me just about everyday, and it's really good. i'm glad I have someone to motivate me and vice versa. HOWEVER, MY BODY DECIDED TO SAY 'FUCK YOU CIL' TODAY and now I believe I have a sinus infection. I thought I was getting sick last weekend, then it cleared up, and now I'm all snotty and sick. I'm just going to stay on medication and have a good weekend hanging with my mom anyway, because she's awesome.

I'm kinda medicine head-y right now but also extremely bored because Bboy is asleep and I'm too blurry to do any reading for school, and i have no classes/work tomorrow. dammit. i'm going to watch some movies. it'll be a special time for violet and I. she's the best kitten ever.

things iz good

national velvet

: bitterbuffalo25; September 24th, 2007

Current Music:: pretty girls make graves

this weekend was way different than i planned it to be. i didn't end up going to Richmond to see Across the Universe with my mom, but i will next weekend, i think. On Saturday I was so tired and feeling like I was getting a bit sick and didn't want to drive, so I just figured i'd go home, go to sleep, and call it a day. but! kt and bk ended up coming over for awhile which was great, and then I ended up going to the Nach bar with them a bit later, which was insane crazy packed. Then, yesterday I got really drunk with Dougie T, BK, Blake, Angela and Kristine and playing cards. Now I have to walk to my car on Cherokee, cause I didn't want to drive. crazy. It was the first time I really went out since school started, and it was pretty good because I didn't have a ton of homework this weekend FOR ONCE. I feel guilty though because my mom wanted me to come in and see the new kitchen stuff and take me to eat at the Thai restaurant in Richmond. my mom is so qute. i love her

shit! gotta go to werkz

rise above

: bitterbuffalo25; September 17th, 2007

Current Music:: the dirty projectors

Current Mood:: cranky

so I'm trying not to feel like I'm 15 again and none of my thoughts, feelings, and tastes matter to anyone else but me, but it's difficult in certain situations. I'm doing this new thing, see, where I don't sweat the small stuff and where i'm happy being myself, no matter what others think. well, I didn't plan it that way. it was just sort of how I felt after my dad passed and so i decided to make it a personal policy. for the past few days thoug, it's been a challenge. and i usually just come off as being a bitch. even though i'm not at all a bitch. i'm just confused. still. ugh. it's difficult finding people you can really connect with. the older you get, the less people you have because you have less time to hang out. and the things you really need to talk about become much more serious and harder to discuss and harder for people to listen to, so it's just...weird right now. my family is my top priority right now, which includes Blake, and i'm glad that I have a big family. They were always important, but until recently I didn't realize just how much I need my siblings/half siblings/parents/nieces and nephew.

so, that's what i've been thinking about. speaking of family, I'm going into Richmond/Lexington sat night to see Across the Universe with them. I'm pretty excited about it. And we're having Thai food for Thanksgiving I think! yummmmmmmmmmmmmm. it's the first asian country we're doing and i'm really excited to learn the recipes.

I had a Construction test today! yikes. i think i did pretty well. peace dawgz. i hope u iz eating pizza and ice cream everyday. cause i'm not. i start my aerobics classes today and from now on i'll do them 5 times a week. my plan is get down to my ideal weight by graduation. i'm doing it.