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| So... I feel so bereft right now. There has been so much stuff happening in CS lately that this is no big surprise, and really shouldn't be that big of a deal, but it is to me, and I feel as though she deserved this much at least. Fede died last night very suddenly, out of no where. I just lost all connection with her, she dropped off of my shoulder, and she was gone. I think that my heart literally stopped in my chest. I knew what was coming as soon as Brooke looked at me, and I had been expecting it for some time now, but it still caught me off guard. My one constant companion in this world, the only connection that I have to the shadow-world and my life there, is now gone. She was quite literally the other half of Alainn's soul, so much of her was in that bird that she doesn't know how to function without her. She loves all of her friends infinatelly, and Mark is her true love, but Fede was HER. I know that she can come back, and that I will have her again, but I don't know when, and at this moment I don't care. I have my suspicions as to who did this to her, but nothing can be done about it until Keijen is dead, and that is killing Alainn. I am a blank slate right now, there is nothing in her heart or head but the thought of vengence. Vengence for Quinn, for Giorgio, for Sir Lansten, but mostly for one little bird that meant the world to one little mage. I will not act irrationally. I will not go on a suicide mission. If I do that, then there will be no chance of me getting my vengence, and that is something that I refuse to allow myself to be deprived of. There is bloodlust coursing through Alainn's veins right now, and be damned if you get in her way. Vengence is something totally new to her, before it was only thoughts of fairness and defense. But now I want my VENGENCE. And I shall have it. For Fede. | ||||||||
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