Help

I have recently really come into totemic knowledge and that and am searching out my totem spirit. i have searched through books and the web and seeked the guidance of others with deeper roots in totemic ground and still find myself only seeing my spirit at a distance. i can easily make out the feline shape of the spirit but it's true form is hidden from me. through my searches and with guidance i feel i have it narrowed down pretty well. i find myself staring down two paths that seem to make sense but i know only one is true. one path leads to a snow leopard and the other has a lynx and though both are very similar they have some differences...and i was wondering if anyone in this group or elsewhere could help me better understand these subtle differences so that i will truely know my spirit...thank you for all your help.