Hunter · no · Dangan

Written on Thursday evening, and left on Momoshiro's computer desk. He will have burned it by late Thursday night.

If you see this, then I screwed up. I really screwed up, and I'm sorry. I told you I wouldn't, and I promised you that I'd be okay, but I screwed up somehow. You probably know that already, though.

I'm writing this because I can't say it to you. It'll sound stupid if I try anyway, so I hope seeing it like this will mean something. I've reached this point where I realize that the most important thing in my life is something I never expected, and I still can barely believe it. It's you. You are everything to me, somehow. It's ridiculous, isn't it, for a guy like me to say something so... permanent when I could die any day, right? But it's how I feel.

I wanted you to meet my family so you could look after then and make sure nothing happened, if something happened to me. It's selfish, I know, but I just... somehow I think I can trust you with that. You know where they live, so try to check up on them every once in a while if you have a chance, okay?

If I could do it all over again, I'd die for you.

Hajime. Try to enjoy the rest of it without me.

Subject: Questions

To: hunter.list@hunter-net.org
From: cyclist47

Do you ever wonder why we do this? I know it's obvious... We've got to be the ones to stand up, to protect, to keep the rest of the people out there from catching on and living in the hell we were all awakened to. Something like that, right? I've chosen my path. I have my ways, you've all got your own, and somehow we've got to work together to do this... Somehow. But, you know, being like this gets to a guy. I've been down and out, I've felt completely alone in all of this. I've wondered if it's worth it.
When I started out, I thought they could all be saved. Creatures living in the same space as us couldn't possibly be all bad, that's what I thought, and something worth saving could be found in all of them. I tried to leave well enough alone, and just do what I had to.
But now, I don't know. Can I really pick and choose like that? Isn't that a little too much like playing God?

If I can play god like that... how far can I take it?

Can even vampires be redeemed?

Plenty of work, good pay, and so. Many. Hot. Chicks.

Haven't had much trouble on the supernatural front, 'cept for the other night when I got jumped by a werewolf-looking thing. Damn those things are big. And hairy. Ugh. Gonna have nightmares about that one.

I heard some S&M club opened up in town, and one of my friends from work is trying to get me to go, but... I don't know, it's just not my thing, not at all.

Oh, the uneventful life.

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