darkdarhb

Today at 5:45 my grandfather suffered a stroke.  By 6:30pm he was dead.


All that has been stuck in my head is the lyrics from AAF's remake of Smooth Criminal.....it was playing on the stereo during my drive to the hospital before my grandfather had passed...

Are you ok?

You ok?

Are you ok?

It just keeps repeating in my mind.

I was unable to say goodbye to my grandfather before he had died.  I hadn't visited him in 6 months....I had plans to take him out in a few days so he could see our rabbit playing in the park.  I mentioned to someone I wanted to ask my grandfather for advice on how to be a good person like him, I want nothing more than to be viewed as he was by me....but that chance is just a missed opportunity now.

If I die as 1/10th of the man my grandfather was, I know I will have accomplished so much in my life.

I can't vent on facebook because there are family members who do not know yet and it would be unfair for them to learn online he has passed, this is all I have said about it.  I only contacted one friend to let him know.