arg.

I want:
- heather
- to cut
- to stop taking the pills that will somehow prolong my life
- for it to be sunday
- for monday plans to actually in some miracle way work
- to watch the million hours of degrassi for a week
- this weekend to be special and good in some way
- to have money
- alcohol and/or cigarettes
- to see amanda and go on her roof

I don't want
- to cry anymore
- to hide everything
- to be who I really am
- to be hurt
- to be in love with a certain person
- to think
- to miss a moment
- to be depressed
- to be stupid
- to lie