I have been considering going to the doctor because i think i have depression. I have all the classic symptons and i've looked it up extensively on the internet and looked at the side affects of all the different antidepressant medication. Thing is, i haven't told any of my family or friends about how i'm feeling...i always thought if you really were depressed people would notice the change and then i would know i wasn't just imagining it, but that hasn't happened. Anyway, if i do go to the doctor and they do prescribe medication i really don't want to tell anyone about it because since they don't know it would be completely out of the blue and secondly, i don't want to upset them by telling them i feel suidical and thirdly, i don't want to admit i've got a mental problem. Maybe that is stupid but it is how i feel.
So i'm not sure what to do. If i got medication i'd have to hide it from them. And there are all these weird side affects to the medication. Do you get a say in which one you take? And i'm worried the medication will 'change me' because it is all these chemicals messing with your brain. I don't know what i should do.