i have to wonder...there's 100ish members here, where's all the posts? anyone still around?

yeah, so i've been some-what unavailable. and that's not going to change very much anytime soon. with work to go to and my husband to spend time with, lj's not top on my priorities. but i'm gonna try.



i am working on updating the look. but as time has past and a bit of growing up has happened,time is just something i don't have a lot of...so don't expect too much, guys. generic lj provided layouts and a quick pic update is prolly about the best i can give you right now.


still check on everything daily, even if just briefly. so i'm still about if anyone has any community related needs, just email me.

however, please refrain from leaving comments on my personal lj concerning dreamindigital matters. lets try to keep it organized guys.


~Courtney Hay
Mod., Dreamindigital

Just Empty Notions

Sometimes she is irresistible,
Yet always she is just a friend,
Sometimes more than beautiful,
How much longer till the end?

Never knowing exactly what to say,
Leaving unfelt emotions behind,
Hiding all the unsaid words away,
Locked away, so you'll never find.

I can't seem to tear my thoughts apart,
Long enough to sort my emotions in my heart.

Her Payne.

There's a sparkle in her eye,
While she's carving her name into you,
She only lives to watch you cry,
Deep inside, she loves you too...

She has no halo, she lost her wings,
A deep darkness, where light once shone,
Replaced by wicked and evil things,
Pain and suffering are all she has known.

Even though she breaks your heart,
Without her, life would fall apart.

Her Wrath

All my life, an Evil deed.
Tearing her apart, she's crying.
Smiling, I watch her plead,
Laughing at her while she's dying.

Unseen horror, what have I done?
I've strayed so far from my chosen path,
I used to think she was the one,
Now she suffers the pain of my wrath.

All this twisted evil inside of me,
Hidden away, and you will never see.

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Her Tears are my Fears...

She was in the corner, alone and crying,
Her feathers gone, she had pulled them out,
As she lay there, lost and dying,
Her thoughts empty, her heart full of doubt.

She lets her blood spill out onto the floor,
While I was left alone to silently cry.
Her soul is gone, her body moves no more,
I'll never know why she decided to die.

I watched her leaving, while holding Death's hand,
I'm left with thoughts I'll never understand.

Looking for Tomorrow

I wake up to another Sunless day,
Where there are no Angels to be found,
Inside I search for another way,
To finally bring my life around,

I don't want eternity in Darkness,
Never to an Angel's wings again,
Please promise me the Sun's caress,
Before I finally become Insane,

Will the Sun finally rise for me,
Like your words, to set me free?

Feed the Need

Beyond this skin, there is a deeper need,
To have someone to call my own.
Its a Demon, that I have to feed,
That haunts me while I'm all alone.

You can't see the smiles you make,
While I'm spending my time with you.
You can't see all the heartache,
Because I hide all my pain from view.

My Angel girl, if you only knew,
How much I truly needed you...

Carved Memories

I carve your name into my skin,
Hoping I can cut the pain away.
The pain that dwells so deep within,
Hiding beneath words I will never say.

I can only watch as you waste away,
While I clutch a memory in my heart,
A long lost memory of yesterday,
A time when we were never apart.

Maybe the pain won't be so rough,
If I can cut inside, deep enough.

Causation.

My face is covered in tears,
An Angel died in my embrace,
I'm overcome by countless fears,
As I stare into a Demon's face.

His eyes glow red with hate,
Blood stains cover his sword,
To battle him, has become my fate,
My Angel's death won't be ignored.

As he attacks, laughing with glee,
I see inside... the Demon is me.