This is something, I wouldn't usually talk about. It's a sort of secret, something people really don't know about me... but I roleplay John Lennon on face book (Johnnie McLennon) and I don't want to anymore.. but I feel like I can't just leave.. I want to leave, but I can't. Firstly, the Paul I roleplay with has been my partner for 10 months.. and we both feel (maybe both) a sort of closeness that I suppose could be considered love for each other.. 
But it doesn't just stop there, I get jealous, I get mad.. hell we both do.. and at the moment it feels real, as if that's the only truth.. but it's not real. And I'm having a hard time deciphering reality from surreality.. feelings are feelings no matter what, love is love, jealousy is jealousy.. but it's wrong. What am I getting from this? It's not supposed to be a job.. it's for fun.. but it's not fun anymore. Sometimes it is.. but really all we do is argue, and fight, and I'm tired of that.. I'm tired of being someones "John", and that's it.. I don't know.. maybe I just need to find a Yoko..