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[Thursday
December 28th, 2006] |
Talking to the lady in NB, she makes me happy and I miss her tons. She's starting things, high hopes, good luck with all the clothing ordeal and your cars and finding someone who can rool a joint. love love love
Neopets is taking over my life, it's pretty sad. damn Tristan making accounts with me.
Last night was intense. but prettty hilarious that I think of it. I also puked my stomach inside out I think.
I can't drink for awhile.
my oh my.
I'm excited to se Lauryn eventually, I miss her spirit, and her hugs and her smiling. so Lauryn, CALL ME. BEFORE YOUR PARTYY. mhmm
I also miss everyone else too. so everyone else CALL ME.
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[Monday
November 27th, 2006] |
Today I'm talking to people. I'm going to see if I'm the new failure in the family or not.
It should be good.
This weekend opened up eyes I think.
back to reality. shit.
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[Thursday
November 23rd, 2006] |
I don't know how to tell everyone this, in the right way. I want to get the point across that today will be life changing. Think about it. All we do is follow rules. All we do is the same thing everyday. We wake up, then we find our way to this Jailhouse, and sit there all morning and afternoon learning everything that we learned the day before. Knowing that it will have nothing to do with what we want to do in our futures.
But today, we take it to a whole new view. We twist the rules just a bit. We will do what we want, not worrying about what regulations we normally follow. Time doesn't exsist. Curfews, forget about them. Today we are free.
Tomorrow we will sleep in, with smiles on our faces, our brain will be filled with new things, new knowledge, new memories. New opinions. New friends.
You will meet new people, you will have new experiences. After today, your mind will be calm. You will realize what matters most in life.
So, instead of the rules. you pack your stuff. You grab things you love. Then you run to somewhere that has nothing, no one there so you can sit in the quiet, thinking about how your day is going to turn out.
Soon you're going to walk outside and sit, waiting for your friends that are going to go along with this plan. They are going to stop. and not follw any rules aswell. This is when your memory begins. This is when the excitment is going to build up.
Remeber that time does not exsist.
These friends will show up, and they will bring people. they will bring things they love. They will bring their excitement too.
Now, you plan your weekend. you plan your runaway. You plan everything you need. together.
You will plan out everything, phone calls, places to go, what to do, what to listen to, who to bring along.
The day will end, the night will begin. morethings will happen, I can't tell you what they are. Because no one knows until it's happening. This is when you come to the realization. Your friends, they are the most important things in your life. they are your future. they are your other half.
Now you're going to look around the room, whatever room you're in, with whoever you're with. and you're going to take it all in. and smile. you're going to explain how happy you are to everyone. stating that this is the best moment in your life.
You will then see the sun rise, and you will continue.
Continue until it's time to go back to reality. Until you have to go back to the rules, and the Jailhouse. and sit in that boring world.
Waiting for your next impulse, you pack the things you love, get the people you love, and live life in your favorite way, high and happy. not caring about anything except your surroundings.
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[Thursday
November 23rd, 2006] |
I never know what to write in here nowadays.
people miss me, people don't miss me.
Other will talk behind their backs about me. I'll put a capgun to their heads then.
I'm going to That 1 Guy, I don't know whether I told the wrold that or not. Chantal is my lover.
I'm also invited to the...BLUE CROSS CHRISTMAS PARTY. Time to get secretly drunk and wear a dress, watching barbies and old ladies do their thing.
I really need to get my dad to realize that I'm not 13 anymore.
I need Prison Break to rewind so I can watch the whole season I missed. I'm hooked on it again.
I think I'm finally beating this cold. It's pretty good, my voice is coming back slowly. I didn't wake up with a sore throat. and my eyes are getting way way way better.
Lately we've been hotboxing Liz's car, and promoting/demoting/promoting Jason. He's pro now.
Car washes are pretttty intense.
everyone has been screaming I'm Rich Bitch along to the music, it's been SO good.
oh yeah, and everyone goes up on the 'so' nowadays too.
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[Tuesday
November 21st, 2006] |
I love my friends. Lately my friends have been just...I can't even describe it. but I love them all so so so much.
I'm going to see That 1 Guy with Chantal, I'm pumped.
I'm going to the Bluecross Christmas Party, It's exciting. Margo is the best.
My eyes are better, but itchy right now.
EDIT: no school on FRIDAY.
This weekend I plan to be with friends, and I plan to make sure it is amazing.
I have to go to school tomorrow, shitty deal, but ohwell.
I hope everyone is happy, or atleast neutral right now. I don't want anyone being sad
My monitor is crazy crazy.
my throat hurts like a biotch.
and I watched Dawsons Creek today. bits and pieces. and I watched Braceface. you're all jealous.
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[Tuesday
November 21st, 2006] |
I actually love my friends.
and I actually can't live without them.
I'm glad I have them.
bitches, this weekend is going to kick ass.
which means this week, I'm going to sleep and school it up, I plan on going tomorrow wether I'm sick or not.
no school on Thursday.
my eyes are way better.
I hope my doctors appointment is speedy and that my dad works tonight or lets me go out for an hour or two.
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[Monday
November 20th, 2006] |
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This weekend was worth it, even if I'm dying a bit.
Christine is BACK. and it's AMAZING. I missed her so much.
Bronwen you look very happy, and it makes me happy. :)
Liz P. I miss you, call me, I tried calling you this weekend but your phone was off and I hate leaving messages even though I left one for you..I think.
Liz L. you're NOT moving, I'm not letting you.
AMBER. YOU CAN'T LEAVE ME. fuck that shizzit, I'm not letting you leave either.
Tristian my boy, you're a funny man.
Jason. I'll never quite understand you. but you were demoted by me. and that means I'm cool and you've been demoted to second hand smoke high. but you're still pretty cool anyways, I guess.
DEVON. you didn't call me biiiiitch. but it's okay. because I'm blerghhh and lerfff. and all of that. and probably would've scared you with my illness.
anyways I'm dying, my mom needs to call me so I can go to the fucking doctors or hopsital or whatever. because yeah, I've had enough of this. I'm a crazy person.. I don't want to turn into a zombie, I really really don't.
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[Friday
November 17th, 2006] |
Due to the fact that I'm freaking out because my eyes have been red for a long time.
I couldn't sleep in.
So I decided that I would power clean my room (which I did!)
and then do allll my laundry (which I also did)
and then take a shower (which made me feel so much better.)
now I'm happy. and my eyes can be as red as they want, nothing will make today horrible. NOTHING.
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[Friday
November 17th, 2006] |
well what can I tell the world?
I feel like shit.
Everyone needs to take a break.
Everyone needs to think for themselves.
Everyone needs to back off.
Everyone needs to be happy.
Everyone needs to relax.
Everything will be fine.
But this doesn't mean we can stop time and change our lives for people. That's just stupid.
Do what you want, go with the flow. I miss Folk Fest.
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[Wednesday
November 15th, 2006] |
So I finally watched Silent Hill from beginning to end.
It's pretty good. But it still makes no sense at the end.
I understood most, but what the fuck is up with the end? I don't understand. I'll just get Liz Picton and Logan to explain it to me, they can do it as a team I bet.
Anyways, I tried to sleep, that didn't work out well. fuck life. I just need to blazzzzze.
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[Wednesday
November 15th, 2006] |
So at like 5 am, I couldn't sleep so I decided to read a book Chantal lent me (finally) and my goodness, it's amazing (short but so amazing)
So Chestnut I have something to tell you: myb favorite stories are Rose, Charm, and Bones.
so so so good.
Anyways back to my death bed. if I answer the phone today and it happens to be a lady, and I happen to see that my Stepdaed is out, and I happen to suggest they come over. they should happen to bring a bowl, and I'll somehow happen to find a smoke somewhere.
I've gone crazy. it's so sad.
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[Wednesday
November 15th, 2006] |
Coke isn't accepted anymore, so everyone moves on to E. When E isn't accepted anymore, everyone will move back to Acid. When acid isn't accepted anymore, everyone will go back to Coke.
There is the continuos circle.
that is, until Shrooms come back in season, then shrooms are added into the circle.
It's basically just the phase of acceptance, everyone goes along with it. It's pathetic.
I've fucked up my life, I've seen people fuck up their life. I refuse to be around anything other than Pot, Booze, and Mush(at folk fest).
congrats Haley, you made the best decision of your life. now you can sleep.
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[Sunday
November 12th, 2006] |
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my shoes have reappeared!
I'm happy now.
Blazed with Amber, Liz, Bronwen, and Sarah. then Amber left. I was sad.
Then Avis and Chris came with two strangers. Then the strangers left.
then Jason came. Jason jason jason. I still see you as a retard that calls himself spider.
anyways, school tomorrow. my binder is at my dads, this should be interesting.
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[Sunday
November 12th, 2006] |
Saturday was good.
ups and downs.
Some drama.
But after we got most the people kicked out, it was all good.
Some things were broken, nothing too horrible though.
Cops came, nothing Sarah couldn't handle though.
When they came I watched The Princess Diaries. it was good.
My shoes got stolen, so whoever fucking took them, I'm going to kill.
Tristian found my purse because he's a hero, except I don't understand how it got where it was found. creepish.
I slept during the family thing, I feel better now.
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[Thursday
November 9th, 2006] |
My mom gave me a ring on the tele.
I'm going to the doctors soon, my whole family is worried about me apparently.
I'm getting my meds upped.
This weekend will be amazing, It really really will be.
I love my friends to death.
My dad is worried about me to now, all because of last nights craziness.
It still smells like stain in my kitchen.
Devon, I don't know if I have a family thing on sunday, or SHARON STAPLES (yet again, barbie whore is coming back into my life most likely) but if not I'll join you in an evening of awesomeness to cheer you up.
Ps Saturday is going to be intense. it's going to be the night of the YEAR.
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