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JulieLane

About Me
Name: Julie
Age:15
Birthday:February 2nd
Zodiac: Aquarius
A little about me: okay, well as you’ve probably noticed already, my name is Julie. I’m 15, and attending Hahnville High School (probably the most retarded school in the state of Louisiana. I’m pretty much a small town girl. I I live in Luling, and I’ve basically lived here my whole life. Umm, I’m pretty optimistic until someone really pisses me off. After that, I am not a nice person. Well, other than that .. all I have to say is you can IM me on AIM. My screen name is dothaju19.

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	[Thursday December 29th, 2005 at 10:22pm]
i hope everyone had a good christmas. mine was okay. it kind of pisses me off that my father couldn't take two minutes out of his oh so freaking busy life to call me to tell me merry christmas. oh the crap well. life goes on, right? i don't need him anyways. Other than that, i did see my brother and my neice. so i kind of forgot about my dad. my babygirls are so beautiful. blayne is a pistol and raelyn has a mohawk, they are a MESS. Um, my cousin dawn had a baby, Talan. he's adorable. maybe i'll get around to posting pictures one day. sorry i don't update anymore.
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	[Thursday November 10th, 2005 at 10:51pm]
time for my monthly vent.. it's gonna be on here this time so if you don't want to read it.. just leave me alone and X out because i probably don't want to hear your negative comments. kay, thanks. umm okay.. the first thing i have words about happen to be PEOPLE. i strongly dislike people who change their best friends as much, [if not more] than they change their underwear. i mean i'm not tlaking about people who have a lot of best friends, more the people who have best friends, lose one and act like nothing's happening. whatever. you are so stupid and immature. and then, they're fighting with someone and they are telling you how upset they are with this person. you just sit and listen to them rant and rave about this person because i mean, face it, we all have to get our feelings out. well they show you deep appreciation, but you take up for them in the situation and they go and backstab you by being friends with the person they "HATED" then they try and tell you that you were talking bad about them, when indeed, you were one of the only people standing up for them. they then realize you were right and the apologize and say thanks and all of that. well, once everything gets back to normal, they don't really care about you anymore. and they won't, until something else goes wrong and they know you're a reliable friend. this really makes me mad, for the fact that i can't exactly refuse to listen to people rant, it's just not me. but of course, i will face the consequences so whatever. if you think this situation relates to you at all, one bit, you're probably the person i'm talking about. 2nd thing is people who think they are cool because they are like 12 and they know how to roll a joint and they love getting high. you are so stupid. if i ever find my kid rolling a joint at age 12, 13, 14, and even while they are living in my house, under my rules, i would probably shoot them. do you think this makes your parents proud? people don't realize how much parents give away when they have a child. and to have their kid disappoint them like that is terrible. why would you do that? do you think that getting high is cool and it's going to make your life better? well if you do, it's not.. so stop being an idiot. seriously. you are stupid. end of discussion. 3rd and last thing i have to say something about [unless i think of something else while im typing this] is people who use others. like for example someone who should be dependent upon themselves and they are a friggin GOLD DIGGER. i mean im talkin about adults with 2 kids, no husband, and no job totally dependent on their PARENTS to support them. i could [but im not going to] give you a prime example of how stupid this is and how stupid you will feel whenever whoever you are getting money from tells you to go screw a camel. i mean seriously, go get a job you lazy person. okay i thought of a 4th thing and that is WHINING. it gets you no where. dont do it. it's probably the most aggravating thing in the world. and the last thing [for real this time] is PESSIMISTS! oh my poeple who think they are superior to every other human on this earth. well, you're not you low down piece of crap person. you are just as good, or in a pessimists eyes 'bad' as every other single individual on the face of this earth. so stop putting people down and crap. it doesn't make you look cool and it just makes other poeple feel really crappy about themselves. blah okay, now that i finished that let's see what else is going on. well, we're getting homecoming pictures tomorrow so i guess i'll post mine if i like it and it came out good. otherwise, you'll probably have to ask to see it. haha. um what else? i miss my nieces, seems like my sister is too embarassed to come around lately. guess she finally realizes she cant live off of everyone else anymore. but i dont care about her really, i just miss my baby girl. my first neice. my world. my heart. ♥ i swear i will deem my sister the crappiest person on the face of this earth if she tears her away from me. i don't know what i would do with myself. other than that, there's nothing much going on in my life. i got my permit, so i can get my license may 4th. the only reason i am excited is because i don't like being dependent on other people as much as i am. i like being self-sufficent. oh and by the way, jordan candies is an amazing friend. if you don't like her, you probably should consider liking her. she makes my life so much easier and pleasant, for real yo. yeah, that's really it for now.. xoxo julie
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	[Wednesday October 26th, 2005 at 10:57pm]
these happens to be the best quotes in the world.. Apart from God, every activity is merely a passing whiff of insignificance. Don't look for God where He is needed most; if you didn't bring Him there, He isn't there. For, after all, put it as we may to ourselves, we are all of us from birth to death guests at a table which we did not spread. The sun, the earth, love, friends, our very breath are parts of the banquet.... Shall we think of the day as a chance to come nearer to our Host, and to find out something of Him who has fed us so long? Man is born broken. He lives by mending. The grace of God is glue. i love things that just inspire to be a better person.. just one of those nights. happy just to be here.. i love days when all i can think about are words that come together as wonderfully as these above do..
you’re undeniable

	[Sunday October 16th, 2005 at 8:54pm]
so, everyone should agree that the worst part of having an ex-bestfriend is that they know exactly how to push your buttons, how to push you over the edge, how to make you ready to put your fists up and fight, and most importantly how to make you upset. it's funny how i don't even care what you're doing with your life anymore, yet, it still hurts me when you act like i was never something good in your life. even if it wasn't good, i was something and it hurts when i see you replacing our memories with new ones. i know your brain isn't that big, but i know it's big enough to hold the memories we had. what we had was so special, the best bond possible, it just wasn't strong enough to stay together in this cruel world. i wish you the best. i wish we were still friends. i wish you wouldn't be so oblivious to the fact that we changed one another in so many positive ways. i hate the feeling that you give me. i hate when you just glare at me with those evil eyes only i know you give to people you truely despise. and the saddest of it all is that i want to hate you, i want to hate you like you hate me. but i can't. i can't because not everyone is as cruel and low down as you are. and for that, not only do i feel sorry for you but for myself. but what's kept me holding on is i know that there's a reason for everything. and i'm just waiting for the amazing explination i'm sure is headed my way. as much as i want to hit you, it would be so unorthodox of me. but you've got it coming for you, even if it's not by me, karma is going to smack you so hard across the face you're not even going to know what hit you. i can't wait to see you feel how i'm feeling. maybe then you'll understand and it'll be all okay again. until then... is this the part where best friends become nothing more than acquaintances if so then i'll take the other road i haven't come this far to give up on what we share a simple hello here and there no, that's not good enough. wonder how it would have been if maybe we'd just worked things out swore we'd never grow apart well things change, times change and now we can't go back. ..life is so extremely complicated. by the way, my grandma, charlie, jen and her three (almost 4) kids are moving to mississippi soon. this makes me terribly sad. this means a few things 1. my dad won't be here as often as he is. i'll be lucky to see him a couple of times a year. 2. im losing my grandma, and it feels as if i just got her back. 3. i'm probably going to spend tonight eating chocolate and crying for a long time. this really is tearing me apart. no one understands though. it probably makes me the saddest person ever. i guess i'll just get over it and hope things don't go back to the way they were when i was real young.
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	[Sunday October 9th, 2005 at 11:13pm]
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	[Wednesday September 14th, 2005 at 7:10pm]
so much has happened since the last time i updated. well the hurricane came, and didn't do much to my house. a little fence damage, that was pretty bad. but, nothing compared to new orleans, thank God. well as of now, school's been let out for about 2 weeks, and i am so lame for saying this but i can't WAIT to walk into school tomorrow. i hate that we've been out of school this long and now our summer is going to be cut short, and no more late days. i wonder if we'll even have mardi gras? oh well. that's the least on my mind now. just a few minutes ago my mom brought me some pills she found in my purse. where these pills came from? i have NO idea, like none at all. i've never seen them before (i don't think). they were in a kleenex i packed my medicine in when we evacuated. for some reason i think i packed them for her, and i think they come from my kitchen. but i don't know. and now she probably thinks i either pop pills or am some kind of weed/drug head. just great, exactly what i need my mom thinking of me. how freaking spiffy is that. soyeah, this pretty much sucks. i donno what i'm gonna do. she's not mad or anything but i can tell she's suspicious and seems dissappointed in me. and for once i feel horrible for myself because i know i didn't do anything wrong. now come to think of it, it sucks more being blamed for something you didn't do than being punished for something you did do. oh well i guess that's just another lesson in life.. i mean should i just take the blame for it and tell her i took them from something and then just take the blame for it and the punishment and tell her i learned from it or should i tell her the truth and risk her feeling that i'm lying to her. gosh it's usually do i want to lie about something bad, and now i feel ..ahh so horrible. everything i do, i do for you.
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	[Monday August 22nd, 2005 at 7:46pm]
hmm today was not a good day. i have this big, retarded looking misquito? bite on my arm and it's like really hot and i think it's making me sick. its driving me absolutley insane.. today, i got some pictures developed.. they're underneath the cut. ( PICTURES Collapse ) comment, please! the reason that i can't stay don't have a thing to do with being in love..
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	[Sunday August 21st, 2005 at 7:54pm]
wow this weekend was absolutely amazing.. hah i hope ALL of my weekends all school year are as interesting as the one i had this weekend was. friday, didn't think i was going to do anything. ended up sleeing at tara's. we did have fun! hah went to sleep at like 2:30.. saturday i worked 11-2, & then 3-5. and then came back at 8 to work a party with helen, trey, and lauren. it was great. we definitely made some memories there. drunk people are so funny and fun to mess with. lol today i worked from 12-5. trey and i worked a party. the lady from the party last night brought us some more money, and it was weird because all four of us were working. well, we sat on our butts mostly all day because it was lightening, goofed off w/ each other and pretty much decided we were going to write a book on the life of a mimosa lifeguard. lol. i usually hate going to work but it wasn't so bad this weekend.. anyways, tomorrow i have school. and that sucks. but if weekends like this come every time the week ends, bring that crap on. i'll love school.. haha oh yeah, saturday while i was swaeting my butt off, my mom managed to see my little niece i'll probably never see. i do admit, this makes me the most jealous person in the world. i hear she's beautiful. i'll post a picture of her whenever my mom gets the film developed. umm, homecoming is going to be great, i can tell already. we're going to rent a bus, and there's like 8 or 9 couples going with us. it's going to be crazy and wild. watch out! haha if my new camera does not come in tomorrow, i am either going to: a. kill someone or b. be really mad. probably just B though because a is a little extreme. i'm going do homework. i suppose i will update this beast later ! reminds me that there's a time to change..
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	[Tuesday August 16th, 2005 at 10:59pm]
its so crazy when one person passes away, it brings back memories of everyone from the past and you just have to sit down, cry, and realize how much you miss those faces, those smiles, that laugh. everything. it drives me absolutely insane. i've been sitting here crying for almost 2 hours and i've laughed and smiled in the middle, but my heart's shattered inside. today was good. until i found out. then it was horrible.. everyone please keep shelby and her family in her prayers. you guys know how much mrs. marsha meant to that family. it's so hard on all of us. think of how it is on shelby. no matter what i type, it'll never explain the feelings inside.. i know that goes for all of us too. Cus there's holes in the floor of Heaven, And her tears are pouring down. That's how you know she's watching, Wishing she could be here now. An' sometimes if you're lonely, Just remember she can see. There's holes in the floor of Heaven And she's watching over you and me.O:-) ( this is for jordan Collapse ) anyways, other than all of this today, i have a homecoming date. i guess i'm excited a little. i hope this homecoming is a good one. uhm, classes are alright. too many books though. i don't know just how great this year is going to go yet. we'll have to see. you knock me off my feet..
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	[Saturday August 13th, 2005 at 12:50pm]
oh man, i have been working on making my own layout for like a couple months, and i did it. i'm finally done. and i REALLY like it, and i'm proud that i started with a blank HTML sheet and ended up with this. how do you guys like it? but, i do still have a few things i would like to change that i have NO clue how to, could anyone help me out? <3give me one good reason to stay here, & i'll turn my back around.
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	[Thursday August 11th, 2005 at 11:52pm]
more on my boring life.. i know it gets tiring reading. lol well to begin with, today was one of the worst days of my life. my best friend moved. but not far, but still she moved. so now, i don't feel as if i'm losing one best friend, but as if i'm losing two. it's like two hits with just one stone. i talked to jamie tonight for the first time in God knows how long, ever since this Chris fella has been around. but whatever, i'm not all for being stuck up someone's ass who doesn't have as much time for me as they did in the past. we're drifting, but it doesn't seem like either of us have the ability to change that. i know i don't, because i don't think it was me who started drifting in the first place.. other than that & some problems at work, today was good. kristen and i went to the mall. she let me buy shoes. i don't need anymore shoes, but i got some anyways. grrr.. lol mom came home and i bought a new tennis raquet and some more balls and stuff. went to work from 5 until like 9:30. it started off good, i put my COKE in the freezer cus i wanted to make a freezey thing, but it never did quite freeze. i ended up giving it to trey, who also pushed me in the pool. haha but it felt good, so i didn't really care. came home and talked to andrew for a good hour and a half. hadn't talked to him in a while.. i like when that happens between two people. we talked about a lot of the past. i miss stuff like that but i'm just happy i got the chance. if that makes sense? other than the fact that i haven't talked to my father in a week or so, life's been pretty swell. i can't complain. school's coming up, and i'm so ready for this year. i'm so ready to not be the new girl. gosh, it's going to be great. i hope i get to see my dad soon though. because even though i don't like to admit it, i do miss his presence in my life. how come no one comments anymore? let's be us again..
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	[Tuesday August 9th, 2005 at 5:39pm]
ooh man! life's been so exciting lately. friday, kristen and myself went to see the dukes of hazzard. it was an amazing movie. i love kristen. haha she's great. uhm friday night jordan and myself spent the night listening to lindsey sing at sailfish. saw everyone and their grandma there. met ashley madere. she's pretty cool. uhm came home went to sleep and on saturday i went to chuck e. cheese for blayne's birthday party. we took skye with us. saw elaine and jason for the first time in a couple of weeks. it was great. chris was there too. uhh, saturday night ended up going to the pool w/ kristen.. we were supposed to have a lifeguard party. but since it was only me, kristen, ali, joy, pam, annie, and susan, we decided to watch movies. well, pam, kristen, ali and myself went to blockbuster. we stayed in there for like 30 minutes, laughing over anything and everything. it was fun. haha then went to joy's and watched a movie.. came home around 12:30 or something. i don't know.. fell asleep. yesterday i went to the mall and then slept at kimmy's house. we walked to the pool, and trey stole two bottles of my COKE. ( : haha just for the record though.. trey is great. lol woke up early and went to lane swimming and then came back to kimmy's to sleep until like 11:30, woke up and started to tape up the walls, and then we painted. left to go get my phsyical for 4:20 and then came home after stopping at subway. took a shower and now i'm about to go to kimmy's for the night again. i'll update later. because maybe you're gonna be the one who saves me ? and after all ..you're my wonderwall.
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	[Thursday August 4th, 2005 at 7:16pm]
hmm okay, well today was a well.. rather interesting day. it started off at about 10:30 when tori called me.. i talked to her for a few minutes & ended up agreeing to work a couple hours for her. went to work at 2, and we ended up trying to vaccuum the baby pool, which we didn't succeed in. nothing works at the pool. haha anyways, a couple highlights were umm.. well me and helen decided we wanted to figure out if whistles could work underwater. do you think they do? lol so we found out the answer by sticking just our heads in the water and blowing a whistle. haha then tori poured ice cold water all over me and i poured root beer on her, and left a beautiful stain. haha it looks like sweat, so it was funny. it's gonna suck without them there next year, ): not much else happened, besides pam getting massively delerious around 7:30.. lol wow. don't even ask what her problem was cus no one knows. lol but it was funny. uhh, life in general. my sister's birthday is saturday --the sixth. so i guess i'll visit her, maybe. she's going to college, finally. by the way, that makes me real proud of her.. if she goes through with it but, anyways on sunday, i am going see blayne & elaine and possibly blake. excites me too. uhm, oh yeah i dyed my hair! i might post pictures. you think i should? i don't know, if i ever take any. lol ook well em just called, so i guess i'll go talk to her for a while. PS. DUKES OF HAZZARD COMES OUT TOMORROWWWWW ( : yayyyyyy ! i'll keep you my dirty little secret..
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	[Monday August 1st, 2005 at 9:20pm]
hmm, let's see. lately ! lol well MY KRISTEN IS HOME! oh man i'm so excited about that. man haha. i'm retarded. uhm last night, i don't remember it well enough to talk about it. lol so i'll skip over that.. and i'll begin with today. tori called me this morning, so i went to the pool and what not. ended up working until 6:30, when ali, jen, helen and myself decided to close the pool on account of massive amounts of lightning. i got pretty aggravated about 3 times at work today, but otherwise, it was a good day. from like 4-6:30, no one, i mean NO one was at the pool. ali was in her office space with all the doors and windows closed reading harry potter, so that left jen, helen, and myself to goof off. we did a good job at it. it was hectic today. but random, out of the ordinary, and kind of fun. i got some roses, and that was like the most sweet thing someone has ever done for me. put me in an amazing mood. other than that, nothing much went on today. helen brought me home, but she didn't stay because.. well nevermind. haha. i'm going to sleep late tomorrow, and i'm going to like it, and no one is going to wake me up. unless i wake up for lane swimming which is a massive doubt. PS kimmy you are so cool. one day, when i grow up, i want to be JUST LIKE YOU ! haha it's something unpredictable. but in the end it's right. i hope you had the time of your life..
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	[Tuesday July 26th, 2005 at 9:31pm]
ok, guys, it's final. for life, i'm either going to be a). a nun b). a lesbian. let's take a vote. guys are CRAP! so complicated..
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	[Friday July 22nd, 2005 at 9:37pm]
ok, so lately things are wonderful. i'm finally falling into a life i love to live.. it's an amazing feeling. i have my ups & downs but the ratio is like for every 25 ups, there's one down. which is not bad at all. that's four problems out of 100 situations, and i love it.yesterday i don't remmeber what i did. i went to the pool and i think i worked or something? yesterday was a bad day. i had wayyy to much on my mind last night. but it's okay now. i didn't think i was going to sleep, but i talked to tony and things were okay. if i ever have a regret, this will be it. but i doubt it. hah uhm today, jamie came spend some time with me! i love my best friend, a lot a lot a lot. we went to chevy's and then to academy to get a whistle and some shorts. came home and had to rush to work, i was almost late. worked until 5, and then stayed at the pool with jordan, landon, blake, michael, and CJ until 8. talked to jen, and ali (butt). haha and saw mrs. tealman? idk how to spell it, but she shure made my day! haha jordan is my new bestfriend. he's cool. ok here goes the deep thoughts i've been pondering on all day.. haha get ready.. lol ( deep thinking..Collapse ) young love is something you never want to let go of..
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	[Wednesday July 20th, 2005 at 8:32pm]
i donno what's goin on lately, seems like my head is in a whole different place than i want it to be, but i don't mind. it's kinda spiffy feeling out of the drama and all of that. lately, i've been so self sufficient, no boys to break my heart, a couple friends, some family, but that's it. keeping everyone i want close, close. i like it. but, i love jodie & i'm glad we are starting to talk. been talking to Landon & CJ a lot lately, i love them both dearly. next year is going to be the crap. i am gonna love it. i have classes with GREAT people, katie friloux -- we started talking again to. i love her. the other day, tori, trey (blackman) and myself were playing frisbee in the concession stand (JOY WOULD HAVE KILLED US!) and i threw the frisbee to trey when he wasn't paying attention. it hit the refrigerator, bounced off, and hit trey in the head. he had a huge welp, it looked like a hickey. so that was the joke of the day. haha then Jen threw my shoes on top of the roof, well one went in the pool and one on the roof or over it or whatever, it was funny. lol uhm, yesterday was divisionals. i wanted to kill TJ Rabalai.i didn't though. me and ali were so frustrated with the little kids swimming, it was so hectic. me and landon hung out, i love that boy. he thought my razor phone actually had a RAZOR on it. haha i sucked in back, i got 3rd. last year i got 1st. FRUSTRATION, i know. but, i got 4th in fly, and i wasn't expecting it, so it was a good suprise. i love swimming, such a rush. oh and today was an amazingly >>>>good??? day at work. it started off with uhm, us ignoring & acting like we didn't know someone who was at the pool so we didn't have to work. haha uhm, let's see what else.. oh yeah, then tori and myself got into an ICE fight in the concession stand, there was water and ice EVERYWHERE! (ANOTHER THING JOY WOULD HAVE KILLED US FOR) yeah, and we didn't clean it up until like 5 minutes before pam came. like four people almost slipped. haha Andre' got 12 staples in his head or something, he hit his head on a rock. what a moron. well uhm, let's see, wasn't too bored. tori was there, it was pretty laid back and i pretty much talked to her whenever i wasn't up on the stand. oh yeah, and then we got into a goggle fight. we put welps and bruises on each other. and then she punched me, threw goggles at me and i chased after her and put a big welp on her hand. it was SO funny. as long as pam didn't see. haha OH AND TODAY, I COULDN'T STOP THE SNOBALL MACHINE, SO AFTER ABOUT 10 MINUTES AND A TON OF ICE ALL OVER, I THOUGHT TO UNPLUG THE STUPID THING! SMARTEST THING EVER, I THOUGHT TORI WAS GOING TO PISS ON HERSLF. HAHA IT WAS GREAT. oh yeah, i spent the weekend with my dad. it was great, i have to admit. charlie joined us. retard. i HATE my step-mom and i never met her. DIRTY SPANIARDS. adl;fkjdf. anyways, my dad, charlie, my sister, my neice sydnie, and myself ate at cheesecake bistro. my dad spent $222 even. that had to suck. we ran him broke between that, and cancelling nextel and adding a cingular $200 phone for me. haha in two weeks i'm hitting him up for 'school money'. BY THE WAY folks, i definitely am starting to miss my kristen killen, and i can't even call her because she is in BFE freaking like Europe. come home, ma'am. my honey nut cherios box is too full without you around, haha. dude, today Gelana IMed me and reminded me of POGS! i found some of mine, and we should get some people together and play? haha that woould be so cool. ok, i quit. haha this entry, was officially the longest, most randomest, entry i've ever wroten, i think? haha. one more thing. gosh all i do is ramble, but anyways.. i need a new layout, but i'm too lazy. if you have ideas, you should let me know. k, thanks. oh yeah, i'll post some pictures soon! oh, it's not easy to tell you GOODBYE. </3
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	[Thursday July 14th, 2005 at 7:24pm]
THINGS LATELY -- great. absolutely. went to see war of the worlds, and it was pretty good. but me and kristen went to see THE FANTASTIC FOUR and it was amazing, whoever said it was stupid, is stpuid. lol we saw a license plate that said "2 blac" it was HILARIOUS! so black they forgot the K haha.. uhm let's see today we had inservice training for lifeguarding, it was funny and trey has a new nickname "black man" or "black head" haha.. wow, i love that kid.. after in-service, me, Kristen, and Helen came to my house and Kristen ate my Honey Nut Cheriosss! haha then I went to Dot's with Helen and her broken mirror off of her NEW CAR! haha poor Helen, lol. haha Joy wasn't there today when i worked and Pam was, but it was PEACEFUL! holy crap, yes, peaceful. hard to believe, i know. me and Pam talked about Chris for a little while haha. interesting stuff. and then i takled to Trey for a bit and then came home. I'm so freaking tired, but i got my SCHEDULE, so let me know if we have any classes! Schedule: 1A -- child development -- HEBERT ( : 2A -- art IV -- GOUGH 3A -- free ent/civics -- SMITH 4A -- biology -- WICHLACZ 1B -- algebra II -- THOMPSON 2B -- english II -- VANISON 3B -- spanish I -- SAVERY 4B -- P.E. II -- LEBOEUF let me know if we have classes.. there's always that one guy, no matter how hard it is to stick with him, you never want to let go..
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	[Friday July 8th, 2005 at 7:48pm]
oh man, so much to takl about as of now! seems like everything is all of a sudden falling back into place. it's like something bad went wrong just to prove that bad does bring good. it's definitely the most amazing feeling. i've been having the best days lately. anyways, today i got up early for lane swimming. was feeling so energized, so i swam a whole lot of butterfly & backstroke to practice for divisionals. then i taught swim lessons from 8-10 which actually weren't too bad today, except for the 9-10. me and kristen were ready to strangle some kids! haha but it passed, and then me, kristen, & susan came to my house to eat breakfast. we ate and then they left for work at 11. took a bath and everything.. cleaned up a little bit around here, and visited with my grandma and went to work from 4-8 which wasn't bad except for TJ. i highly dispise that kid, honestly. came home and sat down thinking about what's been goin on lately, got some food and brought it in my room to eat. then my phone rang and i was expecting it to be jamie cus i had just called her back, but i answered and it was SO much more than what i wanted. oh man, it was BLAKE. yes, blake who hasn't called here since Christmas. i swear i just wanted to cry right there. we talked for a little while, exchanged "i miss yous" and "i love yous" .. feels kind of good to sorta have my brother back a little. caught up on a few things and he wanted to talk to Dad, but he was sleeping. my dad better call him back tomorrow or i'm definitely going to throw a fit. now i'm sitting here with this huge as hell grin on my face and tears rolling down my cheeks, but it's the best feeling in the world. i love my brother, i really do. i hope things work out for the best, and they both come around. it would be great to actually know my neice. everything else in life has been perfect. i couldn't ask for anything better than the friends and family i have. it's perfect.. perfect, perfect, perfect, so don't try to screw anything up. oh man now i'm talking to jerri which just makes life itself 10x better. i love that girl. even though i was somewhat successful, being a player was becoming too stressful. ( :
3 admitted-- you’re undeniable

	[Wednesday July 6th, 2005 at 8:28pm]
let me start off saying that today was just a great freaking day. i don't know why. i woke up feeling okay and it just got better as the day went on. haha got up around 7:30 to be at swim lessons for 8. it was FREEZING. got out at 10 and hung around w/ tori & helen peirce for a little while. then the swim meet started. and me, tori, & helen decided to goof off and it was fun. we did all kinds of stupid crap. it was fun. so then after the meet was over, me, helen peirce, helen aucoin & kirstey all went to subway, then smoothie king. went back to the pool. ate, and then decided to fix some lemonade.. but i'ma just leave it at that. haha trey caught on and got some too and then jen got some lemonade too. haha it was great. then me and helen went ride around for a little while. came back to the pool and a little later, me, helen and trey went to sonic to get some ice and then it got even funnier. hah no comment about that though. stayed around the pool for a little while after four, only to watch helen's retarded ass be in such a great mood. it's good to see her happy kind of again. anyways, went home and then to ms. patti's to bring rechelle some stuff for skye & sydnie's party on sunday or whenever it is. came home and skye came over then rechelle picked her up and we booked a hotel in texas for the hurricane in case it comes. now i'm sitting here listening to music and taking to elaine on here and i'm on the phone so i'm gonna wrap it up.. (: i know you didn't bring me out here to drown, so why am i ten feet under & face down..
1 admitted-- you’re undeniable

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