I tell lies when I'm afraid, afraid of what I don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about me, but everytime I tell a lie, the thing I fear grows stronger. Maybe I'm scared to face the things I've failed in life. Life doesn't hurt until you realize how much things have changed who you havelost, and how much of it was your fault. I've been alone for so long, I've forgotten how much it hurts to wake up. I tell myself it's alright, I don't have any regrets, but there's one thing you should know, I forgive, but I can't forget. I'm the closest thing to perfect, but the furthest from me.
What's one cut on your wrist, one lie being told, one promise being broken, one life being taken??
Why do I keep having 'dreams' of the past and what happened in the past? Why can't I just forget it? They turn into nightmares, and I never know how it turns out at the end.. Is that how my life is, and will be??
Trust takes a long time to earn,
But when somebody breaks it,
You turn against the world
And everything’s a lie
That you say.
gloomy
cold