hold me now, don't start shaking<3

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. meagan
2. meg
3. doris

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. mimesister02
2. gddaysnshn3
3. superstar42789

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. i have very good friends
2. i am a pretty good actress
3. i am extremely honest

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. i worry to much
2. i have yet to learn how to guard my heart
3. i sometimes have low confidence

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. German
2. Italian
3. Cherokee Indian

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. being alone
2. moving
3. being hurt

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS :
1. friends
2. sleeping
3. lounging

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. south sweatshirt
2. zipper sweater
3. pajama bottoms

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS/ARTISTS:
1. coldplay
2. muse
3. the beatles

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. ace Senior Exit
2. get a high sat score
3. be loved

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1. trust
2. comfort
3. fun

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE:
1. i want to be a theatre teacher
2. i have been to spain
3. i work at american eagle

THREE THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. hair
2. smile
3. personality

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. excercise on a regular basis
2. sing
3. play an instrument

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. acting
2. laughing
3. being with my friends


THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. be with some friends
2. sleep
3. eat some sherbert ice cream

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. theatre teacher
2. theatre teacher
3. theatre teacher

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. spain
2. nyc
3. england

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. be loved as much as i love someone
2. be remembered
3. be at peace

♥

well here we are with another new year, its been about four months since i have updated, but i am not sure that anyone even reads this.

since my last update i have conquered different things that life decided to throw at me. some were easy some weren't, but thats exactly what is expected

i have made and grown closer to some of the best friends that i never even imagined i was capable of having.
i gave love another shot. '
i got hurt a couple more times.
i "experienced" and enjoyed.
i went to tremont finally.
i got the lead in my school play.
i have been able to just brush things off, and not let them eat away at me.
i have been able to fully be myself and not hide from anything.
i am stronger.

i just hope that things continue to go pleasantly, and i can ignore all of the chaos that normally makes me burst into flames.

but its still hard.

♥ peace.

i am extremely bored.
i wish i wasn't so lazy cause i want to post some pictures.

20 things you may or may not know about me

1. i really love theatre. up until about two weeks ago, all i really wanted to do was be a theatre teacher.
2. now i really am confused as to what i want to do with myself after high school
3. i want to backpack across europe, or at least go back and live in spain for a bit
4. i overanalyze everything, and take a lot of things to serious
5. i am a very bad writer and creative writing is really hard
6. i get nervous when i have to present projects or read my papers aloud in class, i know this is silly since i am on stage a lot, but its a whole lot easier to pretend to be someone else then to be yourself
7. i live in the past too often sometimes and that is absolutely ridiculous
8. i am not a fickle person, my feelings stay constant, and a lot has to happen to change them
9. if i had to choose the one person to spend the rest of my life with, i know who i'd choose
10. i really wish i was more musically inclined
11. i hate when people ask for advice, when all they really want to do is to vent, and ignore whatever advice you give
12. when i am mad or upset, i just want to be by myself, and i don't want people to try to help me or tell me i will be okay
13. i can be a real bitch. but the way i see it, is i am just real
14. i feel like i am a lot more mature then half of my school friends
15. i would chose to be with my camp friends anyday
16. i hold grudges against people for a long time
17. when the worst thing i ever thought could happen in my last relationship did, my whole world was turned upside down, but after all of the pain and shit i went through i became a much stronger and better person
18. i always thought that there was nothing to life without him, but i was wrong
19. i am an extremely jealous person
20. i just want to feel wanted

i am not depressed or anything. don't worry.

i tag
MADDY
and sami and shannon. and and and.

wow it sure has been a while...some pictures from the beggining of june..to now i guess.

me && the best roomie everr SABRINA!

( pretty much an amazing summer at cwjCollapse )

i thought i would do an update, seeing as how my last few entries have been depressing.

camp is quite lovely. i am having a lot of fun with everyone here. we have a pretty awesome staff and they make me laugh a lot. this week is the little boys camp well actually the age ranges from 5-16. but there are mainly a lot of little kids. and they are adorable. i've even gotten proposed too! haha. yesterday was the dining room staff's day off. it was okay, i still had to teach walk through. but then we went into town (sabrina, shannon, sean, jay, and myself) we saw the worst movie ever. BATMAN BEGINS!!! it was so awful, i thought it would never end. we also went to target and the guys spent like 40 bucks on drinks. it was pretty sad. then we went to taco bell which is like 298313753419 times better than beef tips. haha.

well i will post some pictures soon.

hope everyones summer is amazing.

i had the worst week ever last week.

my heart got ripped out and stepped on about 9835623 times. i don't think it could have gone anymore wrong.

things are better.

i can smile and go to sleep now without crying.

now i have to go serve lots of people some dinner.

i hope everyone is doing just dandy.

i think i just had a panic attack.

i've never had anything like this happen to my body.

i can't breathe.
i am shaking.
my head feels like it is about to explde.

my heart is broken into a million pieces.

I hung out with Ashley and Amanda on Friday and spent the night at Ashley's house. It was a ton of fun, I am going to miss them both so much this summer. On Saturday and Sunday I was busy with Stephanie and Tilden's Wedding [steph is trips sister]. Anyhow it turned out to be so beautiful, and I had a hot dress, && Trip looked very hot in his tux &&& he played his guitar and sang "when i'm 64" it was great. okay i am exhausted. and mondays blow.

( A splash of this weekend.Collapse )