hiya...

hey... um my name's ellie...
im 16... and i know a lot how you all feel. things are goin purty crazy in my life...
i think i have anemia. im prolly anorexic. im purty sure i am. i go like---weeks... without eating.
and i know its bad, i just am never hungry. and when i do actually eat, i eat like maybe something small like an uber-small granola bar but thats like all i eat in a day.
the doctors really dont know what's wrong with me... but im always sick. and theres like a ginormous hole in my bone and they did CT scans and MRI's up the wazoo... but they still arent sure. they say that the hole/cist/tumor ( whatever you may call it ) has been there for a while.
i dunno, but im kinda scared.
and plus im sure that i need some psychology, but nobody believes what i say. they all think that when i say that i think i am mentally unstable they call me like a hypochondriac or something. they say that im over-exxagerating....
i dunno. you'd think i was like possesed. i keep contemplating suicide, and i think of it pretty much all the time. i have a great life, adn i dont know why i should be so sad.

i dunno.
im scared. and alone. and i just dont know....