There are so many things in this world that make people happy, big things, small things and everything in between.
For anyone who knows me and my writing, things have been really difficult for the last couple of years. I was a very active fanfiction writer in 2009, right up to about 2011. Then things changed. I became depressed which made it harder to writer, then I started taking anti-depressants which made it even harder to write. Then I came off my anti-depressants and for the majority of 2013 I've felt like I have no chance of ever getting the writing buzz back.
Then something amazing happened. It might only be temporary, I don't know, but it is perhaps enough revitalisation to give me the confidence I need to write again.
I've spent the last few months staring at blank sheets wondering how on Earth I am ever going to write not one but TWO Mentalist Reverse Big Bang fics. They only need to be 3000 words each. But when 100 words has been virtually impossible for so long, 3000 words felt ridiculous.
Somehow I muddled together enough words for one of my stories, it's made mostly of brief moments, snippets that form a whole and I was quite proud of being able to finish that.
Last night I started to write my second RBB, the words flowed well and I wrote 1311 words. I was surprised, very surprised in fact, and I felt like maybe I could just about finish the story.
Tonight I had a bath and whilst I was in there I started feeling the dialogue flow through me, as soon as I got out I spent the ten minutes I had before one of my shows came on, making notes and writing a bit.
Once my show ended at 9.30 I've been writing near enough non-stop. 1311 words became 1816 words, which became 2313 words and finally, as though writing has never been a problem, I reached 5714 words.
It may sound like an insignificant achievement, but when I've barely been able to put fictional words down on a page, 5714 words is as amazing as writing War and Peace.
The annoying thing now is that I went and gave myself the latest date possible to post my fic, so now I have to wait until the middle of September. Ah well, at least I can spend that time perfecting it.