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[26 Dec 2005|01:09pm] |
I tried making my first avie, shabby looking but I love it anyway. I enlarged it and hung it on my wall. Ain't he just dreamy?
I broke my own rules. Lack of posting. Sorry. Meeps!
Has anyone been on? It looks like afew...things have slowed down.
So much work. So little time. Holiday break, yay!
Teachers have been getting riled up beacuse of this "you can't say christmas, but you have to say holiday" thing? But no one mentioned calling Christmas break, Holiday break, or festivity break, or something. Anyway, I found it odd.
What's going on with you all? Kinda silent, aren't you?
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| Thanksgiving |
[23 Nov 2005|10:41am] |
In life sometimes we feel like things are unusually bad. People get so caught up in what needs improvement, what we lack, how we struggle, and how far we are from being where we want to be. You're just walking your path on a road that may not be smooth... but, so is everyone else. Yet somehow you may find yourself seeking pitty; asking yourself why things are as bad as they are. You ask yourself "Why me?", or say "Could things get any worse?"
The answer to that question is more often than not YES.
Yes, IT COULD BE WORSE.
To everyone, please, not just on Thanksgiving; but as a life time goal. Learn to count your blessings. Dont let lifes beauty pass you by. Be thankful for the air you breath and the blessing of the day ahead of you... because tomarrow is promised to no one. Life is a gift. Each day you wake up is hand wraped by God. Enjoy it. Be glad in it.
Though at times life is hard, you may feel yourself losing hope. Sometimes wishing NOT to see tomarrow. Remeber.... You've been given THIS DAY, But its up to you how you use it. A better life starts TODAY, and it starts WITH YOU.
I'd like to think that as long as you are here you have SOMETHING to be thankful for. Embarace it. Because LIFE IS WHAT YOU MAKE IT.
HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!!!
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[12 Nov 2005|11:13am] |
I guess am hateful or something, i mean there is something about me that provokes ppl's hate LMAO..
didnt really figure it out, i mean no matter what i do, there is no freakin point at all.
and if someone didnt "hate" me or think about me as a low life, i will freak out, i prefer to be hated and know it, than for someone to hate me or be annoyed and yet nice enough not to say it, beside i cant be sure i mean maybe they like me now, but what if my hate"unknown" provoking talent took over and they hated me, I mean i know from experience that am going down no matter what so at least it wont be as painful as having fake hope...
I know that's waaaaaaay too pathetic, but unluckly reality..my reality.
*deleted this part LOL* the hell with this crap, there is no point at all in anything i do, everyf**king thing is working against me,,i know this sound crazy but unluckly REAL, dunno who said life goes on but i can simply say to him/her YOUR F**KIN LIFE GOES ON, NOT EVERYBODY'S..u judgmental FREAAAAAAAAAK.
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[30 Oct 2005|02:21pm] |
today i finally found something to call my fav band ..YOSHAAAAA..
they r called Simple plan dunno if u ppl know it..if u saw a movie called "cheaper by the dozen" they sang a song called "am just a kid" anyway i liked the song so i tried to find it,and i found some other lyrics's this is one of them, its called "Welcome to my life".
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Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just dont belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you dont know what its like
When nothing feels alright
You dont know what its like to be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you âre down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you dont know what its like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you âre bleeding
No you dont know what its like
When nothing feels alright
You dont know what its like to be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you âre down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you dont know what its like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I âm happy
But I âm not gonna be ok!
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You dont know what its like
What its like!
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you âre down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you dont know what its like (what it's like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you are down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you dont know what its like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
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[22 Oct 2005|11:31pm] |
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Sometimes I feel like I just don't belong anywhere. Things have gotten so complicated now. Last year was so simple compared to now. Me and my friends would just sit around the huge lunch table and talk about random things that didn't make sense to anyone other than us. We all got along fine, well except for one in particular, but it was nothing compared to now. This year some of those people are gone, new ones have come and have made me feel worse, and relationships exist where they didn't before. Everyone is so innertanged to each other it isn't even funny anymore nor is it even surprising. Maybe that's the drama of highschool but I'm fucking sick of it. I am a very innocent person. I even look it. I like to call my self innocent but not ignorant. I know things that happen. I am not stupid and I can foresee how things are going to turn out, and I am right quite a bit of the time. It surprises me just how right I can be. What really gets me is I can't even attach myself to anyone anymore. I feel like I'm faithless. Maybe not hopeless, but more than likely faithless. I can't believe in anything anymore. There no more universal truths where I am. Things change too much. I miss the older times, when things were knew and still confusing but where I still had something to aim for, to put myself through all the things I never thought I could get through. I've got none of that now. I seem to be the only one staying the same. Everyone is growing up and I can't. I'm immature. I know I'm immature. I am so in more than one way. I can't manage what I'm supposed to do, I forget things I shouldn't be on a daily basis, I can't maintain relationships, I'm breaking down, and I think I'm just creating it out of thin air. I don't know what to do. I'm going to have a breakdown and I won't be able to point out the cause. What am I supposed to do anymore? I have no goals. I don't know what I'm doing with my life. I can't believe in anything other than myself, and that isn't good enough. Has all innocence been lost? I wish I had something to look up to. Something. Anything. I feel dead on the inside.
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[14 Oct 2005|05:45pm] |
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I have a question. Do boy, my brother included, do dangerous and very stupid things? He climbed the roof of the library and is going down town for a little talk and this isn't the first time he hasn't gotten in trouble and I'm worried. His grades are failing and since it is me and my mom he won't listen. I'm worried about that twerp and I don't like to. I like to know I can coun't on him to make the right descision.
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| Strange Days |
[03 Oct 2005|05:11pm] |
This is so gonna sound like a silly post but ya' know its a Monday and I feel like being a bit strange. Anyway, I noticed I changed my avies a lot; and I've been getting comments that it irritates some people..."them"...I know I'm indecisive(heck with spelling, lol...did I spell that right?) and I know I like to change things sometimes but shouldn't people just accept that. I mean, I'm not hurting them in changing my avie or my curtains or my door for a beaded thing or something...well, maybe a headache of bright colors or too much darkness but thats me and this isn't making any sense, atleast I don't think so.
How is the education going? I get to take courses online and if I pass these I and get the required creds I might be able to pass at the end of my 11th grade year instead of my 12th. Yey!
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[02 Oct 2005|01:32pm] |
I was reading a story about a singer..who was trying to find the truth of this world..and some answers for his questions about souls..after life and whatever..and how many things he found and read about before he finally found what he was looking for, so i was thinking how small and insignificant I am , compared to them..they thought about that..and looked for answers when they reached glory fame and when they got every mortal thing i mean money and stuff, well most people would only look for answers..when they need something..they would remember to pray to GOD the creator of all..only when they want something
and those people tried that when they had it all...i was just thinking..that if i got everything.. although i dont care for such things as money and stuff..but what if i got it all...will i be as great as they r,,will i remember that all mortal things r gone..will i remember the point of my existence..will i stop and look around..
well anyway if u ppl wanted to read the stroy or whatever..its about a british singer..
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[27 Sep 2005|07:53am] |
Morning everyone.
Is anyone dressing up for halloween this year?
I have no clue what I want to be but just something different.
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[19 Sep 2005|09:29pm] |
Well ok i know this is a super retarded question..but am totally abnormal this week..so just ignore any weird words that u might see today....
The song "smooth criminal" i guess everybody know it...i was just wondering..why is he called a smooth criminal..coz after he killed her he asked if she's ok..!!
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So She Ran Into The Bedroom
She Was Struck Down, It Was
Her Doom
Annie Are You Ok
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[08 Sep 2005|11:16pm] |
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Ah, a place where there are others like me.......*sighs* I suddenly dont feel so alone anymore...
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[26 Aug 2005|10:44pm] |
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Ah, craziness. What would the world do without it. I've been particularly busy this summer. I'm actually hanging out and talking to my friends for the first time in my life outside of school, it's been a summer of firsts, and I've spent the summer training for the upcoming Cross Country season. Our first meet is September 1st, and I'm excited. A few of my friends are going to college and I miss them already. I still can't believe I'm a junior now. It feels like just yesterday I was stepping into the commons of WLN for the first time. And now, I'm an upper classman in college level courses. Amazing. Who knows what the upcoming year will bring. Only time will tell.
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[26 Aug 2005|11:29am] |
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No one is talking to me!! Waah!
Do you think they think I'm crazy??
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[23 Aug 2005|09:08pm] |
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OK, I get a lot of crap for this, and it's pretty messed up, so I'm putting it behind a cut .....
( gripesCollapse )
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[11 Aug 2005|01:59am] |
*sigh* am obsessed with msn winks i have been doing nothing in the last 2 days but searching for them and adding to "my winks" list...help LOL..
grrr its the sasuke haters again..oh sasuke is an anime character i know i know its pathetic .. i mean u can do a fanclub for something u like but for something u hate with out even a single good reason thats just pathetic .. i wanted to post there and mop the floor with them in a civilized way of course which is the "brain way" but the leader of the Sasuke FC posted there and asked the other fans not to post.. i didnt want to make the fans look stupid i wanted them to look united SO GRRRRR i cant post there..so i went to the fan's FC and posted there about the crap the haters said...
OMG AM TALKIng alot about something so stupid so :
1st "i should go and get alife"
2nd i do have problems but i dont want to lets say post them ..i prefer to keep them to my self and post lots of crap hehehehe *gonna get killed when they read this*..
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[08 Aug 2005|10:23am] |
I thought I'd post another message, ya' know.
I'm like kind of up and then down and then up and then back down.
BOUNCY!!
Nothing really to do but just a few laughs and well a lot of giggles.
And am I making any sense?? Didn't think so but anyway, hi again!!
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[02 Aug 2005|09:11pm] |
well got some happy thoughts *not really happy incase u didt get it ..hmph* so didnt leave my room for a while and when i finally did there was no net...blah blah i know i know..
hope u ppl are still alife..hmph..
got something to say...but forgot it..need to check my brain...lol..
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[15 Jul 2005|10:48am] |
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Golli...not again...
I guess I am without a life...bah!
Anyway...
post...
one...
word...
a.....
day....
please....
I am slowly dieing of A.N.D.A.H.C.
Attention Neglection and Deprivation of All Human Contact
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[07 Jul 2005|01:22pm] |
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What the fuck!?
Aren't you people going to answer me!!!??
I am attention deprived, neglected by the whole world!
And I can't get one little word out of anybody!!
lol
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[02 Jul 2005|11:52am] |
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Can I take a moment here to gripe about the educational system here in the U.S.? Just a short moment.
It's summer break, and now that I've finally gotten my mind rested, I take a look back at the past 12 years of my life and find myself slowly becoming very, very angry. Like, Lewis Black trying to catch a taxi ANGRY.
I'm sick of being the Guinea Pig generation. "The way we've been teaching for 5,000 years is no longer working, so let's try this. Oh, that didn't work? Let's try something else."
And my least-favorite thing? New math. Just a few months ago I was sitting in my geometry class and employed my own methods to get the correct answer. My teacher got on me for not "showing my work." I asked her what the big deal was, and she looked me dead in the eye and said "It doesn't really matter if you get the answer right or not, what matters is that you get the problem right." That was probably the 436th time in my life I've heard that, but this time it hit me like a load of bricks how RIDICULOUS that is!
At first I thought it was funny, and couldn't stop laughing. But the more I thought about it, the madder I got. With the break, I've processed the stuff happening in the classrooms and I've decided that if "No Child Left Behind" doesn't kill me, nothing will.
*bows* Thank you! Moment over.
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