I need a good rant right now. Forgive me for taking up your time and space with my moodswing
Everything thats pissing me off lately:
Math:
I've been studying so fucking hard lately to catch up so I can take the god damned GED- that I actualy dreamed about fractions all damn night.
My father:
I know he loves me, and only wants whats best for me, and wants to protect me, and all that bullshit, but Im not a little girl anymore! Im perfectly capable of deciding if the guy Im dating is unfit for me or not, and if I should break up with him, without my father picking fights with me every couple of hours because I have not broken up with him yet- and then putting pressure on me about how, "Is this guy worth disrupting my family over?" And all that bullshit. and then he has the audacity to turn around and give me shit about how Im just putting my strain on the familys break up!!!
Ryan/boyfriend
And then to get dad off my back I break up with him. And he gets all quiet, his tone goes all soft, he tells me he understands, and he hopes that once I got my GED and Ive got my load lightened up we can get back together, and I DIDNT WANT TO BREAK UP WITH HIM IN THE FIRST PLACE!!!
And friends...
I know that I let my dad guilt me into doing it, and I know that I did it to please him and get him off my fucking case, but when my friends find out it would be really nice, if they would just nod and look reassuring and comforting rather then opening their fucking mouths and down talking my dad about how he does not want me to be happy and all this bullshit that they know pisses me off because a) they have no right to say shit as they dont know the whole story, and b) they cant even handle their own fucked up love lives, so they should sure as hell not nit pick mine... or my lack thereof.
So between GED, Family, Boyfriend, and friends... Im pretty well pissed, and the only thing that comforts me is Mountain Dew and chocolate... which has ceased comforting me as I realized that if I keep up the drinking and eating Ill gain five hundred pounds in no time, and sadly that is not one of my current goals. And I have to many other ones to try and make it one.
So... now my only comfort must be porn.
