Listen to the mustn'ts, child. Listen to the don'ts. Listen to the shouldn'ts, The impossibles, the won'ts. Listen to the never haves, Then listen close to me ... Anything can happen, child. Anything can be.
~ Shel Silverstein
Seven years ago today, Matthew Shepard was murdered for being homosexual.
So I was saddened by the Tori concert because she wasn't in her usual spirits. The sound system also went out during "Blood Roses" her second song and there was a disruption in the audience which caused Tori to yell "Shut the fuck up!" at them. I wanted her to play "Cornflake Girl" or "Hotel" but she didn't. She did play "Cooling" which I was happy about and "10,000 Oceans." She covered "Purple Rain" and "Love Song." But I was still happy to see her again. I went to my orientation for Rutgers on Saturday and signed up for 3 classes. (I am only going part-time for this semister.) I am taking Intro to Art History, Women and Culture, and Intro to Media Systems and Processses. Today I am taking Patrick to the beach!
I've decided to make my journal friends only. I've been writing some personal info recently....and I don't want the whole world knowing my business. But to all you lovely ladies out there....comment to be kept on my list!
Now that I have a paid account, I have no idea how to get my journal looking the way I want it to look! Uggg! I really want to change my mood theme to something besides what they offer...have no idea how to do it!!! So for all you computer wizs out there.....HELP! My ex isn't getting with that girl....she was a dumbass. We had a long talk tonight on the phone. It sucks so much how I just want to jump back in his arms and hold him....I know in my heart of hearts we could work out. We had so much shit happen to us in the past...most of it having to do with money issues. I am trying so hard to get my life back in order. I am trying to keep my options open. I really want to meet new people. But it's hard when I don't have a vehicle. Him and I are still talking, still friends and still care ffor each other. The thing is...I don't think he believes that someone could care for him in someway beyond sex and the average relationship. I myself have issues with someone thinking I could be worthy of a lifetime commitment as well. Why do our lives have to be so complex. Why can't both of us just get back together and be able to make it work! Why can't I find love....I am so angry, sad, lonely, tired, frustrated and about a million other emotions. I just want someone there who will support me no matter what i go through and love me regardless. It's 11:30 on a Saturday night and I am alone. The only person I've ever truly loved is a truck driver somewhere near Ohio right now. He busts his ass 24 hours a day and is as lonely as I am yet would never admit to it. I am sitting here and wishing some higher power could just lead me to love...lead me to Roland...lead me to....I don't know?
I HATE MY FUCKIN JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE MY FUCKIN MOTHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE MY EX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I NEED A FUCKIN DRINK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You scored as Romanticist. Romanticism encourages society to look backwards to find our solutions. Your rationale is that things were much better a few hundred years ago so we should thus look back to those times and replace them in our modern society. You believe in a simple life and that the complexities of the modern world have turned it upside down.
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