shinryou, posts by tag: perchance to dream - LiveJournal

Tired of depression.
Tired of feeling overwhelmed.
Tired of flashbacks.
Tired of the nightmares
Tired of my stomache hurting because I can't stop triggering.
So sick of this...
Stupid gloomys!

Sigh..

Its a week till Loscon. I am sooooo NOT READY!!!

I knew it was going to be crunch because of all the family deaths and other problems that kept cropping up all month. What I wasn't counting on was that the dragons that were messed up by UPS would turn out to be so difficut to fix, nor did I count on the fact that the ones I thought weren't damaged were on closer inspection, also broken, broken in a way that actually will require me to rebuild them.

Double Sigh!!

So I have done an compleat search and turn over of my work room and found some dragons that were all but finshed, (they just need wings and painted) and am now rushing around trying to get these done as its easier to finsh what wasn't finshed yet than to repair what was broken at this point...

Good thing I wasn't sleeping anyway, cause it doesn't look like there will be much of a chance for the rest of the week.

I really, really hate this November...

I still haven't slept yet.

I even ate turkey to see if it would put me to sleep.

It didn't.

I would cry, but I am too tired for tears.

Whispful sigh!!!

I will NOT blow up the world today!

I will NOT blow up the world today!

Just because people are stupid, annoying and rude!!!
Is no excuse to blow up the world today...

Just because people use you, ignore you and piss on you,
is no excuse to blow up the world today...

Just because no one has manners or the brains of a dead nat,
is no excuse to blow up the world today...

Just because November SUCKS big time
is no excuse to blow up the world today...

Just because you haven't slept in five days...
well... that might be a good reason...
but we will still refrane from blowing up the world today...

I think I really hate this November,
and I am really am just too tired to blow up the world today...

*This rant has been kindly brought to you by the crazy sleep deprived part of my warped brain.
Thank you for your time, you may return to your normal life now.*

I haven't slept for three days. Non stop running and dealing with stuff, I'm tired, I go to bed, and my stupid brain won't shut up and let me sleep. Sooo annoying!

Turns out my youngest son is going into the Air Force Monday instead of later in the week like we thought. So I had to rush around to day getting the stuff he needs, because there just isn't any time. Tomorrow, Friday is the fureral for my best friends Mother, Saturday is our really early Thanksgiving so my son can have it before he leaves. Than Sunday his girfeiend moves back in with her parents while hes gone, Monday he goes in. Sigh!

I got my dog washed, and now I must go do my hair so it will be done for the morrow. Gods, I hope I sleep tonight. I don't know how much more I can take before collapesing.

Wish me luck...

Why is it when I want to sleep, I can't.
And when I want to be up and doing things that need to be doing,
I can't keep my fracking eyes open!