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[30 Dec 2010|12:36am] |
Wow...... i am soooo pathethic. I read some of my entries from a while back.. and im like.... "i stiiill havent lost all this weight?" all this garbage? all this life ruining fat..? REALLY???? am i fucking serious?
I knew I needed livejournal. I KNEW i needed you guys for me to do this. I quit for a while.. I havent been on for 6 months... i ditched. I got scared, and just ditched.
I lost some weight the kind of healthy way.. but guess what.. my ED came right back in and now im still at a high weight. Ew its grose.
I hate it.
I want my skinny face back.. my skinny legs.. my skinny gorgeous shoulders... my flat tummy... I want it. More than anything.
I have the biggest inspiration right now.. a boy.... a boy I met that lives on the other coast of me.. ahaha but.... i feel like I just like him SO much. and I want to be perfect for him... perfect. I want him to look at me and be absolutely amazed. He webcams for me... and he is SOOO ADORABLE!!! omgggg... omg SOOOOO CUTE!!!! im in loooove lol ;) but.... i STILL havent webcammed for him...... i used SO many excuses... but i cant just say IM FAT. im trying to lose weight.. ummm just wait a few weeks. I cannot say that.
Im tired of using excuses, and not letting him see me, only pictures. I WANT TO LOOK BEAUTIFUL ALL THE TIME. for him.... for us. <3
I'm more inspired than others.. and i reallyyy want to do it with you girls :) i missed you so much...
I'm fasting until I lose 20 pounds. My goal is to be 20 pounds lighter before I can let him see me.... that will only take about 10 days fasting if i do this right :)
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Whos with meee??? I will be updating every single day for you girls :) I'l weigh in tomorrow, and tell you how everything is going. ahhh IM SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!! :DD
Imma do this.. 20 pounds YOU WILL BE GONE!!!!!<3
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[22 Aug 2010|03:59pm] |
We diet. We starve. We binge. We break. We die.
Is that want you want for the rest of your life.....?
HOW many months ago did you tell yourself THAT was the day? the day where you were going to change EVERYTHING.. how many times did you repeat those days... how many times have you tried...? weeks? months? years?
Years for me. YEARS.
I'm still a fat ass. still a fucking pig.
Tomorrow is Monday... the beg of the week. I am starting a 10 day fast... yes i have never went past day 3 BUT i have more control then ever right now. EVER.
I know.. we all know we've all said that again but I feel like i seriously can this time. I might be able to lose 20 pounds..!! :D
If i really try.... really really try(:
WHOS WITH MEEEEEEEEEE?!?!
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| GONNA LOSE WEIGHT!WOOOOOOOOOOO! |
[03 Nov 2009|08:02pm] |
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Hey=) I'm searching for a buddy.. im seriously wanting to lose weight, im starting a strict diet tomorrow, so if you want you can be my buddy :D we can do this together! wed motivate eachother :) but i gotta say that im not wanting to do it the healthy "long term" way. im gonna starve myself. I will be posting in my journal on how im doin, so if your interested you can read it! :)
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| anyone on? |
[08 Jun 2009|09:46pm] |
sooo i know i haven't been on here in a while but does anyone need a support system because i do! lol im a good support systemm.
i just really need to talk to someone right now.
im wayyy tooo depressed and don't know what to do.
please message me on here or add my myspace and talk to me on there.
myspace= www.myspace.com/carriecoca
please&thankyou!
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[24 Sep 2008|09:55am] |
this is the new community i created.... please come see it.... i know it isn't much but there needs to be more out there so it will be harder for ppl to shut us down.
http://community.livejournal.com/piecesofperfect/
love nichelle
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| so today i pigged out. |
[18 Aug 2008|12:53am] |
god i feel so disgustingly fat today.
i work at subway so i couldnt help myself and i ate a mini sub and a cookie. i got home and i ate two small bowls of chinese noodles/rice!! i threw it up. then i got hungry AGAIN and i ate ANOTHER BOWL. i threw that one up. finally later on, i GOT ANOTHERRRRRR BOWLLL! IM SUCH A PIG!! but this time i didnt throw anything up. im so mad at myself. i made the excuse to myself that today is sunday so i get a break but I PROMISE IM NOT GOING TO EAT ANYMORE! from now on, i wont even have a cookie. thats why i dont wanna work at a restaurant/fast food. i need to get another job. asap.
~"i dont need any more food. my body has enough stored."~
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| I'm new here and I need HELP. |
[14 Aug 2008|02:05am] |
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Hello I just joined this community and let me start out with the fact that I AM FAT. The last time I checked how much I weighed [about 3 months ago] i weighed about 170 POUNDS! it might even be more than that by now, who knows? I'm so scared to even step on a scale. The thing is, I had a baby back in October but I REALLY need to lose weight. It's so hard to find time to exercise with a baby. I work at Subway, and I'm going to college so its really hard to find time. I need to get back to how I used to be 3 years ago. I only weighed about 125-130 pounds back then. How can I start motivating myself?
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| Don't Give Up What You Want The Most For What You Want Right Now |
[04 Apr 2008|12:48pm] |
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Ok i have been logged into this site for over a year. But havent used it.
just on here looking for support i suppose.
im 5"7
and weigh "drum roll please" 65 kgs. GAG.
So im doing weights training and skipping and jogging and stuff not to mention counting cals like a made thing. So yeah if anyone would like to talk and swap tips or just looking for a support buddy im always available.
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[03 Apr 2008|02:52am] |
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Hi everyone, nice to meet you all.
Let me introduce myself,
I'm 5'10, 115lb
Desperate to get back down to 100 and not pile it all back on straight away!
Would anyone like to make friends?
xxx
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[28 Mar 2008|10:25pm] |
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hey im new to this and was wondering if anyone wanted to start a fast with me tomorrow?
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| hey all |
[23 Mar 2008|09:41pm] |
hi i just joied this site but i belong to a few others... i need help in loosing weight i am around 170 to 175 because i injured my knee it would be so cool if someone could talk to me tonight on aim my aim adress is mythicalana or on yahoo mythe_666@yahoo, either one.
love rae
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[21 Mar 2008|10:32pm] |
I just finished updating my weightloss website!
This is the stuff I added:
*New entry on the news page
*New pictures in the progress section
*A TON of new links, including a guide to Easter candy.
*A few new answers on the Your Questions page (Including one highly controvertial one)
*A few new quotes on the Quotations page
So if you have a few minutes, go check it out!
www.freewebs.com/handofachlys
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[10 Mar 2008|11:57pm] |
his is a community for eating disordered ladies who also have a flare for fashion and an eye for style.
This community is for ed talk, fashion talk, depression & ocd related to appearance or your ed.
This community will bring together the fucked up fashionistas...
...because we're SO SINFULLY SWEET!
</a></b></a> sinfully_sweet0
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[08 Mar 2008|03:40pm] |
:) fasted all day today!
im cassie
height: 5'3
hweight: 125
current weight: 112
bmi: 19.8
decided to join this community because everyone seems at the VERY least literate, not like many other communities (not trying to be mean, i just dont like some of the things they post). anyways, after the LJ message today about possibly shutting down pro ED sites, even ones directed towards recovery, i figured i should join a community or two, and get to know people i'd be able to private message if the sites are shut down. i just can't go it alone!
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| the new fat girl |
[04 Mar 2008|03:59pm] |
Hi everybody.
I'm Cheryl.
CW: 98
GW: 88
HEIGHT: 5ft 1
that's all i feel like posting now. i'll post more later.
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| Pro-ana HATERS |
[02 Mar 2008|03:37am] |
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What is with these people that despise the pro-ana community? I got into a little debate with someone today and they just could not stand the idea of us. I continually responded with comments about the first amendment, the right to free speech, the difference between advocating an illness and creating a place for ill people to meet, as well as defending any "lifestylers" on the basis that they have the right to choose ana as a lifestyle in our free country. It's not against the law. In fact, there is a law stating that no American can be force fed, ever! (This only applies to 18+ though). I found out that the law came about during the women's suffrage moment. The women who were picketting for the right to vote were thrown in jail. They began refusing food as a protest. They were violently tortured - metal tubes were jammed down their throats and raw eggs were dropped in through a funnel. This went on for over 90 days! Finally one of the women slipped a note to her husband as he was visiting her in the prison. He was a politician and when it all finally became public and the government learned of the situation, the current president declared in a speech to the nation that no American shall ever be force fed again. And a line was created stating that as law. Anyway, these anti-ana people can't even seem to understand that tidbit of history. It's bizarre. They seem so obsessed with us "harming" people that I don't think they even realize that billions more people die from smoking cigarettes everyday and from obesity caused by the fast food industry (and its disgusting chemical additives) than any NEVER-REPORTED cases of individuals dying from reading a message board about mentally ill girls and women or those with alternative lifestyles. These people are just not rational. I don't understand how they can just ignore and skip over my replies about the freedom of speech, press and publication. Granted, during this debate there were some people from other countries that I believe don't understand our freedom of speech laws because it's not so in their country, and of course their government tells its people that what it does is the absoltue right way to do things. However, most everyone was American and there is no excuse for such descrimination - they claim we should be banned, outlawed and censored. I ask, would they go into a library and request that all copies of Mein Kamf be burned? No! So how could we possibly be something worse than Hitler's famed book of fascism?! WE'RE NOT! - obviously. We're just a support group for people with eating disorders in which we don't advocate forcing recovery on those who don't want it. They seem to assume we teach others how to be anorexic, which is silly because I'm sure everyone here knows that you can't learn a serious illness from someone teaching you, whatever that even means. Anyway, this was totally just a rant, but let me know what you guys think about this. I'm sure you're all familiar with the people I'm talking about and have probably even interacted with them before yourselves. ANNOYING AND ILLOGICAL! AREN'T THEY?! I should copy and paste this rant and post it on the debate board - I feel like I gave a clear explanation here of the illogicity.
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| Hii beautiful girlies |
[26 Feb 2008|12:20am] |
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I'm Kelly-Mackenzie.
I'm new to this community.
I'm 17. 5'9. about 107 pounds.
I'm a fat-ass.
i would be beautiful if i was skinny.
i need support.
wanna help sweeties?
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[19 Feb 2008|09:18pm] |
My name is Kelly. Lurker to this community and others but Ive hit rock bottom and need support so Im showing my face and posting!
Stats:
Age: 21
Sex: Female
Height: 6'0
Current weight: 200
Lowest Weight: 145
Goal Weight: 145-150
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| My path |
[17 Feb 2008|06:10pm] |
I hope this works as some inspiration for some people
Check out my weight loss website:
My journey in weight loss
Lots of links to recipes and calorie counters...
Hope you guys find it helpful!
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[09 Feb 2008|06:28pm] |
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hi!i'm new here, and i have BED(well, the begginning of it, and i want to get rid of it before it gets worse)..so i would like to lose weight and get rid of my BED
unfortunately I only know my height and weight in cm's and kg's, but i'll try to find out in feet and lbs...Height: 168,5
CW: about 56,5-58 (it changes like crazy)
HW: 60
LW: 52(about a month ago)
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