Did you happen to notice the new name of my blog???
Since Carder's arrival, the old name of my blog didn't seem to fit anymore. You can find the inspiration to the old name by clicking here.
I thought it was high time to update the title. You can find the story of the new title's inspiration here.
Hopefully I will be doing some more format changes in the coming days or weeks, but since I am always running late on my posts, don't count on it being too speedy!
Friday, July 27, 2012
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
One Small Step...
Several times...Does this count as my baby's first steps???
On Monday, July 2, 2012 Carder was standing independently with a toy in each hand. I coaxed him to see if I could get him to take a step towards me...and he did. Just one tiny little step forward and then he fell into my waiting arms. And he has repeated this feat a few times now.
Even though Carder's pedi said at his 12 month well child appointment that he thought he would be walking within the week, he still isn't running around the house. But, like all things Carder, this will come in his own time.
He has been cruising around the house holding onto my fingers (sometimes just one hand on one finger) every chance he gets and I have been trying to get him to walk, but crawling is still his preferred mode of transportation at the moment.
My biggest fear right now, though, is that he will begin "really walking" next week. Derek and I are taking a vacation together (our first trip without Carder) next Friday. We will be heading to California for one the wedding of one of Derek's closest friends. When planning for this trip, it was a very tough decision to make to not take Carder with us. However, with the 3 hour time change, the rehearsal dinner and the wedding all fall in the time where he will be ready for bed. The wedding is going to be a formal affair and I don't think it would be any fun for anyone to have an over tired toddler at a formal wedding/reception way past his bed time. With a heavy heart, we decided to leave him with my in-laws.
I have seriously considered telling my in-laws not to encourage him to walk and to push him down if he starts to take steps. Mean? Yes. Selfish? Guilty. Necessary for self preservation? 150% as I would never forgive myself for missing his first steps because I was on a vacation...without him.
On Monday, July 2, 2012 Carder was standing independently with a toy in each hand. I coaxed him to see if I could get him to take a step towards me...and he did. Just one tiny little step forward and then he fell into my waiting arms. And he has repeated this feat a few times now.
Even though Carder's pedi said at his 12 month well child appointment that he thought he would be walking within the week, he still isn't running around the house. But, like all things Carder, this will come in his own time.
He has been cruising around the house holding onto my fingers (sometimes just one hand on one finger) every chance he gets and I have been trying to get him to walk, but crawling is still his preferred mode of transportation at the moment.
My biggest fear right now, though, is that he will begin "really walking" next week. Derek and I are taking a vacation together (our first trip without Carder) next Friday. We will be heading to California for one the wedding of one of Derek's closest friends. When planning for this trip, it was a very tough decision to make to not take Carder with us. However, with the 3 hour time change, the rehearsal dinner and the wedding all fall in the time where he will be ready for bed. The wedding is going to be a formal affair and I don't think it would be any fun for anyone to have an over tired toddler at a formal wedding/reception way past his bed time. With a heavy heart, we decided to leave him with my in-laws.
I have seriously considered telling my in-laws not to encourage him to walk and to push him down if he starts to take steps. Mean? Yes. Selfish? Guilty. Necessary for self preservation? 150% as I would never forgive myself for missing his first steps because I was on a vacation...without him.
Monday, July 2, 2012
The New Norm?
This last year, posting things almost month after they happen has been the new norm.
It isn't that I don't have a blog post written in my head, because I totally do that right after the event happens. It just never makes it onto my blog in a timely fashion. Or at all.
There have been so many times I have considered closing up shop here. Now that we aren't TTC anymore, my blog has become more of a place where I cronicle the life of my child. I still get supportive comments from dear online friends who read it, but I no longer use this space for a sounding board for all of my emotions. My blog is no longer one centered around IF and doesn't have the following it once did.*
Since we bought an iPad, I do most of my blog reading there. And although it is easier to comment there than it is on an iPhone, I still find it cumbersome and rarely comment. If I am too lazy to comment there, posting on the iPad is totally out of the question . And even if I have the thought of pulling out the computer or typing up a blog post during my lunch while at work, I typically put that off because I am planning on including a picture that I haven't downloaded from the camera yet and I haven't figured out how to include a picture from the iPad yet.
And let's face it. Another reason I don't post very often is that my priorities have totally changed. When Carder is awake, I try to spend my time BEING with him. I may try to fold a load of laundry here and there and cook meals, but I don't even turn the TV on unless it is to let him watch a signing DVD. And once he is asleep, I run around trying to take care of our household. If I am not doing that, I try to get in some quality time with Derek or just chill out**.
But as far behind as I am, I am hesitant to stop blogging. I haven't worked on a baby book for Carder and I am afraid that if I stop typing things up here, I will totally forget his babyhood and his milestones.
There are times I compare my abilities to post with those of other moms I know and I feel ashamed to admint that I even HAVE a blog. Am I just that inept at being a mother that I can't do both? Or is my support system just that much different from everyone else's?***
Regardless, I keep posting things almost a month after they happen and backdating the posts. I hope that some day I will get caught up and start actually posting about something right after it happens. I guess that is just the new normal for me right now.
Maybe one day I will get caught up, have all the help I need, even have time to do some things to take care of myself or that I enjoy for a change?
What's that you were saying? You don't think so? Yeah, I have kind of been losing hope that will ever happen, too. Instead I guess you will just have to keep reading my posts a month after the event happens, with limited details, and with several posts from my brain omitted...
*Not to imply I was ever a rock star blogger or writer. I never even broke 100 followers on my greatest of blogging days.
**Which typically means passing out on the couch out of utter exhaustion.
***I don't want to complain about my husband because he DOES help. But there are times I compare what he does to what I hear that other fathers are doing and I feel like slapping his lazy ass into gear. I still do all feeding, putting to bed, and middle of the night awakenings BY MYSELF. I am tired/exhausted/frustrated/etc. However, please DO NOT type a comment**** telling me how terrible of a person he is for this - I have to accept the blame as well because I have not MADE him do his "fair share" of these things. I have tried to be supermom and do everything myself.
****Nor do I want to hear what an awesome job your husband does. If you want to commiserate about how hard the transition from couple to family has been on you and your marraige, feel free.
It isn't that I don't have a blog post written in my head, because I totally do that right after the event happens. It just never makes it onto my blog in a timely fashion. Or at all.
There have been so many times I have considered closing up shop here. Now that we aren't TTC anymore, my blog has become more of a place where I cronicle the life of my child. I still get supportive comments from dear online friends who read it, but I no longer use this space for a sounding board for all of my emotions. My blog is no longer one centered around IF and doesn't have the following it once did.*
Since we bought an iPad, I do most of my blog reading there. And although it is easier to comment there than it is on an iPhone, I still find it cumbersome and rarely comment. If I am too lazy to comment there, posting on the iPad is totally out of the question . And even if I have the thought of pulling out the computer or typing up a blog post during my lunch while at work, I typically put that off because I am planning on including a picture that I haven't downloaded from the camera yet and I haven't figured out how to include a picture from the iPad yet.
And let's face it. Another reason I don't post very often is that my priorities have totally changed. When Carder is awake, I try to spend my time BEING with him. I may try to fold a load of laundry here and there and cook meals, but I don't even turn the TV on unless it is to let him watch a signing DVD. And once he is asleep, I run around trying to take care of our household. If I am not doing that, I try to get in some quality time with Derek or just chill out**.
But as far behind as I am, I am hesitant to stop blogging. I haven't worked on a baby book for Carder and I am afraid that if I stop typing things up here, I will totally forget his babyhood and his milestones.
There are times I compare my abilities to post with those of other moms I know and I feel ashamed to admint that I even HAVE a blog. Am I just that inept at being a mother that I can't do both? Or is my support system just that much different from everyone else's?***
Regardless, I keep posting things almost a month after they happen and backdating the posts. I hope that some day I will get caught up and start actually posting about something right after it happens. I guess that is just the new normal for me right now.
Maybe one day I will get caught up, have all the help I need, even have time to do some things to take care of myself or that I enjoy for a change?
What's that you were saying? You don't think so? Yeah, I have kind of been losing hope that will ever happen, too. Instead I guess you will just have to keep reading my posts a month after the event happens, with limited details, and with several posts from my brain omitted...
*Not to imply I was ever a rock star blogger or writer. I never even broke 100 followers on my greatest of blogging days.
**Which typically means passing out on the couch out of utter exhaustion.
***I don't want to complain about my husband because he DOES help. But there are times I compare what he does to what I hear that other fathers are doing and I feel like slapping his lazy ass into gear. I still do all feeding, putting to bed, and middle of the night awakenings BY MYSELF. I am tired/exhausted/frustrated/etc. However, please DO NOT type a comment**** telling me how terrible of a person he is for this - I have to accept the blame as well because I have not MADE him do his "fair share" of these things. I have tried to be supermom and do everything myself.
****Nor do I want to hear what an awesome job your husband does. If you want to commiserate about how hard the transition from couple to family has been on you and your marraige, feel free.
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