the unexpected, the wait, the relief

thursday morning, she comes and breaks the news
i'm stunned
never expecting that i'd be this close to such a harsh reality
yes, foolish of me

i've had restless nights
weird dreams
but still unexpectingly calm within
i've prayed a lot
but not your prayers of "please God don't do this to me"
but prayers of "i'll do what You want of me"
and a resolution, a calm formed my base
yesterday afternoon, i get the call
and to my relief
the harsh reality stays at bay

how many wars are we to experience personally in one lifetime?
i pray that no one has to experience any
but sadly
one seems almost the average

and in this increasing chaos
i'm surprised to see people who are now in safe havens
complain
but emotions are rampant
and annoyance i guess is just one of many

state of mind

it's about state of mind
i'm trying my best to think positively
it's hard to change years of pessimism
but i've learned that in the end
what happens is devinely ordained
and in retrospect
things that i wanted but didn't get
weren't things that i needed
and instead what i got
was even better than i imagined