TRUST is a complicated word

TRUST. We need that in life. Especially in relationship and friendship. But what if that trust is broken? Can we fix it? Can we still make things clear and start all over again?

I have two situations for all readers to reflect:

• Relationship

Imagine someone you love so much betrayed you. You have been with him/her for more than two years and you know everything about him/her. You’ve put all your trust in that person and you will believe in everything he/she says. Then suddenly one day, he admitted he cheated on you and he wants you to give him another chance. That trust was already broken by the time you know about all this. Would you, give that person another chance?

• Friendship

Imagine you are in a situation where you are stuck in a war between your best friend and your best friend’s enemy. You are neutral towards both parties. Your best friend’s enemy knew your best friend’s dark side and she is secretly bringing your best friend down. You know about this and you down want this to happen.  During the conversation u tried your best not to agree with what her enemy said, even though you know nothing. Because you want to protect your best friend. You don’t want her to get into trouble. You can’t stand what her enemy is doing and you decided to tell your best friend about this, just so she can get ready. HOWEVER, your best friend thought you are the one who is trying to abet with her enemy to bring her down as she thought you want to get close to her enemy, just because she is more powerful. You’re stuck in this situation and you got a bad assumption from your best friend. In the end she did not trust you anymore. When all you did is nothing. When all you did was trying to help her. MISUNDERSTANDING. That’s when it all happened. How can you gain her trust back when she already friendzoned you? How can you fix your friendship when you have explained everything to her and she does not believe it?

Both situations need trust. Just for your reflection. Yes, as a Virgo and as a girl, I tend to think too much. All I want is to lead a simple, happy go lucky life. And not to be trapped in these kinds of situations when none of it is my fault.  Maybe it was my fate, maybe I’m the one who should leave if it makes anyone feels better. I’ll sacrifice anything to make others feel better. If you want me off, I can. I just don’t want to stay in a tension environment anymore. I’m tired.

 I’ll be off if you want me to. Somebody please take care of my mum.

XOXO

It Has Been 5 Months, But I'm Still......

Not Over You

Dreams, that's where I have to go
to see your beautiful face, anymore
I stare at a picture of you and listen to the radio
Hope, hope there's a conversation
where we both admit we had it good but
until then it's alienation, I know, that much is understood
And I realize

CHORUS:
If you ask me how I'm doin I would say I'm doin just fine
I would lie and say that you're not on my mind
But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two
and finally I'm forced to face the truth
No matter what I say, I'm not over you
Not over you

Damn, damn girl you do it well
And I thought you were innocent
You took this heart and put it through hell
But still you're magnificent
I I'm a boomerang doesn't matter how you throw me
Turn around and I'm back in the game
Even better than the old me
But I'm not even close without you

CHORUS:
If you ask me how I'm doing I would say I'm doing just fine
I would lie and say that you're not on my mind
But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two
and finally I'm forced to face the truth.
No matter what I say, I'm not over you

BRIDGE:
And if I had the chance to renew
You know there isn't a thing I wouldn't do
I could get back on the right track
But only if you'd be convinced
So until then

CHORUS:
If you ask me how I'm doin I would say I'm doin just fine
I would lie and say that you're not on my mind
But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two
and finally I'm forced to face the truth
No matter what I say, I'm not over you
Not over you
Not over you
Not over you 

http://youtu.be/vDWhfsQHq1o 


I'm not over you. Just so you know.

XOXO

I'm Back, Bitch!!

Hey, there.... peeps... Ehem... Okay, I feel awkward. Its been awhile since I last updated my blog. How is everybody doing?


At the date of writing, I just realize we have 5 more days to go to the end of 2012.


So........ What happened in 2012? What have you done? What is/are your memorable event(s) in 2012?

Well mine.....

1. I've broke up with my two years boyfriend. Yeah I feel like a shit, even now... but life goes on.

2. I've sent a resignation letter to my boss, which was then rejected.

3. I broke my fingers while trying to punch the concrete wall. Stupid ain't I.

4. Traveled to Dubai, Legoland and Singapore. It was an awesome experience.

5. Transferred to a new home. My own home which I paid for myself. The reason why I'm broke every month.

6.   Been working in Public Bank for one and a half years now. Wait... is that a memorable event? pfft

Yeah,these are all what I can think of right now. Whatever it is, whatever happened this year has taught me a lot, regardless of the ups and downs of my life this year. I'm thankful to you, Lord. For giving me the opportunity to experience life for this whole one year.

XOXO

You're A King/Goddess When You Host A Part Like This XD

The three most important things that need to be considered when you are about to host a party:

1. THEME FOR THE PARTY
The theme of the party is one of the most important part when you are hosting a party. Without a theme, your guest might come to your party in various dressing style, some formal, some elegant, some like apek and some are casual.

2. ENTERTAINMENT
What is party without entertainment. At least, put a mahjong table on for people to play lah! LOL. Well, some music or having a fun and laugh time chatting with friends can be one of the entertainment too :)

AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST.....

3. FOODS AND DRINKS!!! THIS IS THE MOST IMPORTANT PART IN A PARTY! :)
Beers, Wines, Cocktails and FOODS!!! DELICIOUS FOODS OF COURSE!!! XDDDDD

P/S: When you are planning to host a party, try to check out your invited guests' preference. Once you successfully hosted a great party far better than they expected it to be, then you'll be called a PARTY KING/GODDESS.

HAPPY PARTYING!!! (Don't go over the limit)

Huh? Euthanasia???

When I first heard about Euthanasia, I always thought it's a country name or something... I guessed wrong. According to the dictionary, Euthanasia is actually the intentional killing by act or omission of a dependent human being for his or her alleged benefit.What's this? Hahaha... In other words, its the act of killing oneself of others just to end suffering or relieves pain. Gosh.. That's something I can't believe people are doing it nowadays...

Well, to view it on a different side, there's actually pros and cons to this subject. Why? Let's say for example, you are suffering with a cancer which kills you slowly day by day. That's really painful isn't it? To end your suffering, you requested the doctor to end your life as soon as possible as there is no cure to this illness. This is one of the example of Euthanasia.

WHY DO PEOPLE WILLING TO DO IT??

1. It gives people the ability to die with dignity than to pathetically suffers till the end of his or her life.
2. It's their choice whether to live or to die. Others can't do anything about it.

Is Euthanasia the same as committing suicide? Hmm... I think so. Well committing suicide is also one of the way to end our suffering what, isn't that right?

Mew. My advice to those who think Euthanasia is not a crime and think that it's not wrong:
JESUS SUFFERED ON THE CROSS- HE DIDN'T CUT SHORT HIS SUFFERING THEREFORE NOT DOWN TO US TO END OUR LIFE.

Peace and Loves,
XOXO

My Ideal Wedding

P/s: Before you start reading this post, please be reminded that this post is full of day-dreaming a.k.a syok sendiri stuff. Beware >.<

It's quite funny that I'm posting this entry, because I remembered last time I keep on saying that I wanna live a single life and be filthy rich. LOL. But that was then. Not until I found the missing piece in me :) Yup, the missing piece is him. <3

Well my two elder brothers have got married. And soon it's my turn. Talking about ideal wedding, I'm sure a lot of girls out there dream of a perfect wedding, and yes, I'm included. Hehe...

What's my ideal wedding?


Lets start with the wedding dress. Every girl dreams of a perfect and beautiful dress for their special day. I like strapless dress. Maybe something like this:

One thing that is so nice about this dress is that it's simple and beautiful at the same time. I'm imagining myself walking down the aisle with him in his tux waiting there with the priest... Uh, see! I'm blushing already! >.<

Now lets talk about the wedding ceremony. Normally, people will get married in the church (I'm talking about Christians here) lead by the priest and close relatives to witness their wedding ceremony. I want something different. Garden themed wedding has been on my mind lately. Of course it will be lead by priest as well.

What a beautiful garden this is. I can already imagine having a wedding at this garden... hehe.. I wish Malaysia has something like this..... wait, is there?

Okay... I managed to find a picture of this garden themed wedding in Malaysia, which is located at Cyberjaya. Credits to daviclicks.net for the pic. It's not the same as the Italian garden in the first pic, but it's similar. Hehe, I want!!! Gonna tell him about this next time :P

Since He and me are from different state, I plan to have two wedding receptions, one in Sabah and another one in Sarawak. Where will the venue be? Errmmm... at a grand hotel of course! eheh! He told me if we're going to get married next time, the wedding reception for his side will be at Sutera Harbour Hotel while for me, the wedding reception for my side will be at Four Points Hotel, if there is no other hotel that is more grand than this hotel in Kuching in four years time :P

Ballroom at Four Points Hotel

Ballroom at Sutera Harbour Hotel

As for the wedding reception, I wanna wear my favorite colour of dress, black that is :)

Something like this would be nice to wear during the reception. But i prefer the one on the right.

And Honeymoon?

Lets go to his favourite country, ENGLAND!!!

And we'll live happily ever after XDDDDD




Okay okay, stop day-dreaming now. Get back to work >.<

What I Do When I'm Bored

CAM-WHORING WITH LAPTOP's WEBCAM!!!! XDDDDD
hahahaha, I know this is a boring post... Still brainstorming to write another three posts that i'm working on right now... Stay tune for the interesting new topics!

Be Still, and Know That I am God

We do not always receive the good things in our life.

Being a Christian, I must admit my faith has always been tested. Well, it doesn't mean that we can be forever successful once we are Christian. Growing up as a child, I'm pretty much a high-achiever. I've done well in almost everything. And I have always have this fear. FEAR OF FAILURE.

Until now, FEAR OF FAILURE always freaks me up. there was once when I got my SPM result, and I just got 5 As, I locked myself in my room for three days, questioning God, why wouldn't He bless me with at least 7 As or something. As I was growing up i've learned to be rational and mature in thinking. Yeah, sometimes, I'm still afraid of failure but I know there's something that God wants me to learn from that failure. He wants to know how strong is my faith and how I can depend on Him to overcome it.

I can't sleep at all tonight. Thinking of the failure that I'm going to receive in the next few days. I've been expecting it, just that I'm still not ready to accept it. I keep on asking God to strengthen my faith. Once in a while I did wish for a good result. But most of the time I was praying that no matter whether it's a good result or not, please strengthen my faith in God. And as I was praying, this verse came into my mind:

" BE STILL, AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD"

AMEN.

The Truth Is, I'm Afraid

Woohoo!! Two papers down. Two more to go! Yeah! The past two papers really killed me. I don't know if I'm going to survive these two subjects. Lord, I leave it all into your hands Lord. Let YOU plan the future for me. Have faith in God. He'll do the best for us. HAVE FAITH.

Anyway, few happy things has been happening to me for the past few days, despite of the stress that I'm in during this exam season. Thank you Lord. Although I'm not sure whether it's a good thing or not. Coz deep down inside, I am afraid. Afraid that I will get hurt again. Once again, I put all of this into Your mighty hands O Lord. I hope you'll approve him :)

Second Chance

I believe, we believe. That everyone deserveS a second chance in life. We might had a bad experience in life before that make us want to give up, but that doesn't mean we will screw up the chance again if we take it seriously, right?

God forgave a prostitute and gave her a second chance in life. And she did it. She made God proud. A drug-addict deserves a second chance, a gangster deserves a second chance, well lets just say everyone, no matter who you are and what kind of background you come from, you deserve a second chance.

I don't wanna know about your past, how bad your life has been, how fucked up you feel last time. I'm giving you a second chance. Give you a chance to make things right. Try not to screw it. That's the most important thing.

"EVERYONE DESERVES A SECOND CHANCE"