TRUST is a complicated word

TRUST. We need that in life. Especially in relationship and friendship. But what if that trust is broken? Can we fix it? Can we still make things clear and start all over again?

I have two situations for all readers to reflect:

• Relationship

Imagine someone you love so much betrayed you. You have been with him/her for more than two years and you know everything about him/her. You’ve put all your trust in that person and you will believe in everything he/she says. Then suddenly one day, he admitted he cheated on you and he wants you to give him another chance. That trust was already broken by the time you know about all this. Would you, give that person another chance?

• Friendship

Imagine you are in a situation where you are stuck in a war between your best friend and your best friend’s enemy. You are neutral towards both parties. Your best friend’s enemy knew your best friend’s dark side and she is secretly bringing your best friend down. You know about this and you down want this to happen.  During the conversation u tried your best not to agree with what her enemy said, even though you know nothing. Because you want to protect your best friend. You don’t want her to get into trouble. You can’t stand what her enemy is doing and you decided to tell your best friend about this, just so she can get ready. HOWEVER, your best friend thought you are the one who is trying to abet with her enemy to bring her down as she thought you want to get close to her enemy, just because she is more powerful. You’re stuck in this situation and you got a bad assumption from your best friend. In the end she did not trust you anymore. When all you did is nothing. When all you did was trying to help her. MISUNDERSTANDING. That’s when it all happened. How can you gain her trust back when she already friendzoned you? How can you fix your friendship when you have explained everything to her and she does not believe it?

Both situations need trust. Just for your reflection. Yes, as a Virgo and as a girl, I tend to think too much. All I want is to lead a simple, happy go lucky life. And not to be trapped in these kinds of situations when none of it is my fault.  Maybe it was my fate, maybe I’m the one who should leave if it makes anyone feels better. I’ll sacrifice anything to make others feel better. If you want me off, I can. I just don’t want to stay in a tension environment anymore. I’m tired.

 I’ll be off if you want me to. Somebody please take care of my mum.

XOXO

It Has Been 5 Months, But I'm Still......

Not Over You

Dreams, that's where I have to go
to see your beautiful face, anymore
I stare at a picture of you and listen to the radio
Hope, hope there's a conversation
where we both admit we had it good but
until then it's alienation, I know, that much is understood
And I realize

CHORUS:
If you ask me how I'm doin I would say I'm doin just fine
I would lie and say that you're not on my mind
But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two
and finally I'm forced to face the truth
No matter what I say, I'm not over you
Not over you

Damn, damn girl you do it well
And I thought you were innocent
You took this heart and put it through hell
But still you're magnificent
I I'm a boomerang doesn't matter how you throw me
Turn around and I'm back in the game
Even better than the old me
But I'm not even close without you

CHORUS:
If you ask me how I'm doing I would say I'm doing just fine
I would lie and say that you're not on my mind
But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two
and finally I'm forced to face the truth.
No matter what I say, I'm not over you

BRIDGE:
And if I had the chance to renew
You know there isn't a thing I wouldn't do
I could get back on the right track
But only if you'd be convinced
So until then

CHORUS:
If you ask me how I'm doin I would say I'm doin just fine
I would lie and say that you're not on my mind
But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two
and finally I'm forced to face the truth
No matter what I say, I'm not over you
Not over you
Not over you
Not over you 

http://youtu.be/vDWhfsQHq1o 


I'm not over you. Just so you know.

XOXO

I'm Back, Bitch!!

Hey, there.... peeps... Ehem... Okay, I feel awkward. Its been awhile since I last updated my blog. How is everybody doing?


At the date of writing, I just realize we have 5 more days to go to the end of 2012.


So........ What happened in 2012? What have you done? What is/are your memorable event(s) in 2012?

Well mine.....

1. I've broke up with my two years boyfriend. Yeah I feel like a shit, even now... but life goes on.

2. I've sent a resignation letter to my boss, which was then rejected.

3. I broke my fingers while trying to punch the concrete wall. Stupid ain't I.

4. Traveled to Dubai, Legoland and Singapore. It was an awesome experience.

5. Transferred to a new home. My own home which I paid for myself. The reason why I'm broke every month.

6.   Been working in Public Bank for one and a half years now. Wait... is that a memorable event? pfft

Yeah,these are all what I can think of right now. Whatever it is, whatever happened this year has taught me a lot, regardless of the ups and downs of my life this year. I'm thankful to you, Lord. For giving me the opportunity to experience life for this whole one year.

XOXO