Goal finally reached.
125 pounds! 125 pounds! I've never been this low before, and it's been my goal for the longest time! I want to be at least 120 by my birthday - that should be no problem if I keep being good. Once I get down to around 116 or 117 pounds I'm going to start eating a little more, and maintaining around 116 - 120. Unless I get all retarted and unsatisfied and try to get to 115 pounds, which I hope I don't - because I don't even need to.
Ugh. I hardly ever eat anymore, but to convince my parents that I ate breakfast & lunch I make plates with tons of crumbs and make them look all convincing and shit. Then I always purge at least half of my dinner. That's why I've been taking showers every day after dinner - it's hilarious that my parents don't suspect anything.
I was pressing the back of my legs today and trying to make them look fat, but I actually couldn't. Since when can't I make my legs look fat? I hate my legs, but they shrunk so much it's kind of freaking me out. I don't even need to suck in my stomach anymore, thank god - my arms are the fucking problem! They're too muscular ... I lost muscle in my legs, but not my god damn arms, and I hate my arms yo. I'm out - there's nothing to do with the electricians here so blah. They keep shutting the power on and off and I keep losing internet connection.
-Stef, the only loser who ever updates in here
Ugh. I hardly ever eat anymore, but to convince my parents that I ate breakfast & lunch I make plates with tons of crumbs and make them look all convincing and shit. Then I always purge at least half of my dinner. That's why I've been taking showers every day after dinner - it's hilarious that my parents don't suspect anything.
I was pressing the back of my legs today and trying to make them look fat, but I actually couldn't. Since when can't I make my legs look fat? I hate my legs, but they shrunk so much it's kind of freaking me out. I don't even need to suck in my stomach anymore, thank god - my arms are the fucking problem! They're too muscular ... I lost muscle in my legs, but not my god damn arms, and I hate my arms yo. I'm out - there's nothing to do with the electricians here so blah. They keep shutting the power on and off and I keep losing internet connection.
-Stef, the only loser who ever updates in here
